[cantseem2stop]

Where do I start - I few years back I began to get vics from someone I worked with - no real problem just started to take them once and a while. Then, I found a friend who had a steady supply of percs. My wife and I would start to take them on weekends, a couple each on Fri, sta, and sun nights. That soon started to be every nite. Then, for me at least, it rted to be daily. I am up to 10 - 15 percs a day and it is costing me a fortune!!!!!! I have tried to quit a few times with littel to no sucess - the longest I went was 4 days. The withdrawal hasn't been too bad. I recently went on a vacation and did not bring enough and ran out the last two days. The first day wasn't too bad, just felt tired and had the runs then it seemed to get better. I am having a hard time trying to find a way to deal without percs. They give me so much energy as I work two jobs and have two young children. I have a few left that I am planning on taking tonight then I have the next three days with nothing on my plate. Can someone please help me with some advice on how to deal witht he next few days. I am familair with the Thomas recipe and have plenty of immodiaum as well as some valium to help me sleep. I really want to quit this time becasue I don't like being dependant on them for evrything that I do. I find myself gettign anxiety over the simplist things when I don't have percs. Any recomendations on dealing with the withdrawal - My tolerance has gone up significantly recentley which is another reason for me wanting to quit now as I don't want to move on to anything stronger. Thanks

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by cantseem2stop

Where do I start - I few years back I began to get vics from someone I worked with - no real problem just started to take them once and a while. Then, I found a friend who had a steady supply of percs. My wife and I would start to take them on weekends, a couple each on Fri, sta, and sun nights. That soon started to be every nite. Then, for me at least, it rted to be daily. I am up to 10 - 15 percs a day and it is costing me a fortune!!!!!! I have tried to quit a few times with littel to no sucess - the longest I went was 4 days. The withdrawal hasn't been too bad. I recently went on a vacation and did not bring enough and ran out the last two days. The first day wasn't too bad, just felt tired and had the runs then it seemed to get better. I am having a hard time trying to find a way to deal without percs. They give me so much energy as I work two jobs and have two young children. I have a few left that I am planning on taking tonight then I have the next three days with nothing on my plate. Can someone please help me with some advice on how to deal witht he next few days. I am familair with the Thomas recipe and have plenty of immodiaum as well as some valium to help me sleep. I really want to quit this time becasue I don't like being dependant on them for evrything that I do. I find myself gettign anxiety over the simplist things when I don't have percs. Any recomendations on dealing with the withdrawal - My tolerance has gone up significantly recentley which is another reason for me wanting to quit now as I don't want to move on to anything stronger. Thanks

Be thankful that you only have to deal with detox and not pain from injury and surgeries and illness like lots of us. All you have to do is stop using and then get on with life in recovery. Not that this is easy, but it could be worse.

I am a little surprised that your experiences when you ran out of pills was not worse than you described. Will just have to see if that is still the case when you do it this time. If you know about the Thomas Recipe and have your supplies for the detox taken care of then there really isn't a lot more to suggest. You understand about the valium, immodium, etc. You need to be prepared for the symptoms and ready for the discomfort as I would bet you feel this more this time than you talk about when describing the past.

The toughest part of this for someone like you will be convincing yourself to ignore the pleasure seeking side of your personality and get on with your life being clean. Realistically you are your own worst enemy. You take pills just because you like them. When you finish the detox you will still have this very negative motivation to deal with. And it will last forever until you change the way you think about life.

I really would suggest that both you and your wife get into a 12 step recovery program like NA. It could be a great help to both of you if you are open minded enough to give recovery an honest chance. It's a big step and a life-long commitment. You have to realize that your life has spun out of control as you have admitted having no success when trying to stop the drugs. The tail is wagging the dog here. Doesn't mean that you guys are bad people, you just made some really poor choices. You are lucky that you haven't had more dire consequences to deal with than you have from using drugs but know that things will cease being all rosy eventually. I certainly wouldn't wait for that to happen if it were my wife and myself. Intimate relationships seldom survive longterm when life is drug induced. I strongly suggest that for the benefit of you guys marriage and for your lives in general that you get into recovery and make the commitment to work on yourselves.

Let us know how it goes this weekend. There is most always someone online here that can help if things get screwy. Good luck.

[cantseem2stop]

Thanks for the reply - Na is not an option for me due to my employment and teh possibility of my presence there being detected and leading back to my work. I understand the confidentiality of NA, but have seen people get burt in the past. I was suprised that my withdrawal was not worse on my vacation. In previous attemtps, it has been much worse. I think that this was largely due to the mental aspect. When on vacation, I was over 3000 miles away and when I ran out I had no way at all of getting more. I think my anxiety now is that all I have to do is simply pick up the phone and call any of the people (at least 8) and can have percs in under 10 min. This was not the case when on vacation which is why I feel it is going to more difficult this time.

I have spoken with my wife and sheis also in agreement that we need to stop; however, my use is more frequent than hers. She will only take them with me at nite, and sometimes in the afternoon on a weekend when the kids aren't home to "relax" I have found that they are he first thing on my mind as soon as a wake up. when I have them, i instantly feel better, but when i don't my thoughts immediatley switchj to how im gonna get them.

This is why I really want to quit. Besides the finaancial aspects of them, I pay 5 dolalrs from one perc so you can see how expensive they can get. but I used to be so ficused and highly motivated. Now, I find myself looking forward till i get home so I can take a few and realx. I don't want to do anything else. I find myslef thinking when people ask me if i want to go out, or do something as simple as going over heir house to hang out, I better make sure I have some percs and if I don't, I have to think of a reason ro not go.

I think this weekend will be hard, but not impossible. I am trying to get my mother to take my kids so I can try and sleep most of the time. I told her today that I think that I am starting to come down with a cold and am going to play it off in the morning telling her that i am sick. Tonite will be my last nite, I feel like I am ending a realtionship with a friend, a friend who has been good to me and bad to me at the same time!

[Robert_325]

I wish you guys the best of luck. You can do this. Let us know how you are doing over the weekend. You will get lots of support here while you are going through this. God bless.

[Mastachefsteve]

Just to let you know, i'm right there with you bro. I took vicodin for 3 years until i was up to 6-7 at a time. grips and grips of vicodin every day, i quit CT no problem at all (Don't even remember w/ding just missed the high). But after months of being in horrible pain (jaw pain and head aches) it got to the point where i couldnt work...) I finally broke down and went to see a Doctor. This Doctor I believe is one of those Doctors who only cares about money, one of the 5 min script writing see you in 2 weeks 270$ office visit kind of docs. To make it worse his office was 5 hours from where i lived so gas was 100-150. The doc prescribed me Oxycodone 30mg right of the ****** bat. Trusting this guy I made a mistake and didn't read about how heavy this dose was. So 4 weeks and I was HOOKED. up to 10-15pills a day already.

Where you and I differ is, You have been taking them a long time which means you might have a harder time getting off of them. (i hope not)

However there is good news for you, it doesn't seem like you have pain to deal with after you are done W/Ding. And you are taking Percs not Raw Oxycodone, which correct me if im wrong (i could be horribly wrong) But Percs are oxy/Ace and I do believe you can't take too much percs because of the ACE however you can take a grip of pure oxy. So that is a bright side in my mind too, that you hopefully arent taking insane dosages.

Not having pain is a big plus, the Pain i have is driving me to want to take more, even though I feel like im almost done W/Ding.. and hopefully you wont have anything like that. Keep your chin up. It Sucks, but take a week or 2 off work if you can and go somewhere where you can't get the percs. Take a trip to the beach or mountains and lay in the hotel room if you have to. If you can enjoy the Beach or Mountain areas. I have the Oxy in my bathroom and trust me its callin out my name.

Good luck i'll be praying and hoping for you, please keep us updated. I hope by typing that I could at least help you a little. I liked to read stories of people w/ding it really seemed to help me. Read about H w/d and this will seem like a snap cheers

[cantseem2stop]

well i woke up this morningand realized that i had no percs! immed had thoughts of calling someone to get a few and relx all day long - man this drug messes with your head!!!!!! Instead i took a valium and made a fruit smoothie bananas and strawberries and chugged it down with some immodium. It ususlly takes a few hours for me to strart feeling the effects of wd. My inant had me up at 730am so I figure around noon i should start feeling the wd. My wife went to work today so before she left i put my cellphone in eh car to avoid the temptation to call anyone. Oh well, this is the begiining of a long couple of days, so lets get to it!

[alexx702]

I feel your pain I was going thru the same thing.. you just have to be strong !! do it for your children, your wife, do it for you !! You have to fight the addiction !! Take hot baths, go for a walk, anything you can to not think of it. Everyday gets better.. I did it cold turkey It was hell at first I wanted to go to the hospital, but I stayed strong, prayed alot, read, drink as much water as you can you need to flush out all the ******************** out.. I couldn't go 4 hours without taking them and now it's been over a month.. I feel amazing now better than I have ever felt.. I'm working out again so my body can produce endorphins naturally.. Keep strong.. Good Luck !!! alx