[hatepercslovepercs]

Hi I need help im trying to get off of Percocets (I also take whatever painkiller in that class that i can find)
I have been taking them for 3 plus years now and I HATE WHO I'VE BECOME! I cant even go on a vacation without working around my addiction.. "will i have enough ion the date? can I chance it?" I am trying to ween myself off .. i was taking anywhere from perc 110mg or more a day! yesterday I only took 65mg and today 50mgs.. im so sick and I want to take more to i can go to sleep .. im trying.. I DONT WANT TO LOSE EVERYTHING.. Please i beg anyone .. i cant be like this I WONT... I DONT!

[saggle]

Can you get prescribed and hopefully afford some Suboxone? You should try to get some, then follow Robert_325's course for tapering...you will have a much better chance of not relapsing if you can do the suboxone route...Read around on this forum about it, you sound like a pretty good candidate for it....Good luck and keep posting, people on here really do care and want to help....I'll be watching for you on here

[iloerose]

Originally Posted by hatepercslovepercs

Hi I need help im trying to get off of Percocets (I also take whatever painkiller in that class that i can find)
I have been taking them for 3 plus years now and I HATE WHO I'VE BECOME! I cant even go on a vacation without working around my addiction.. "will i have enough ion the date? can I chance it?" I am trying to ween myself off .. i was taking anywhere from perc 110mg or more a day! yesterday I only took 65mg and today 50mgs.. im so sick and I want to take more to i can go to sleep .. im trying.. I DONT WANT TO LOSE EVERYTHING.. Please i beg anyone .. i cant be like this I WONT... I DONT!

Hi hate/love percs: You were taking maybe 10-12 percs per day? Now you have more than halved your dose, you most probably are feeling withdrawal effects. I know how scary this can be. You took the first right step posting here. There are different ways to go about detox. One was already mentioned and that is suboxone/subutex. You can also do a taper, you are cutting down so far and fast that you are having w/d's, but you can set up a taper plan to minimize the w/d. There is also The Thomas Recipe for Opiate w/d that many of us who have had to c/t have done.
Hang in there, if you really want to beat this thing you can do it! Post back and let us know how we can help you.

Peace,

IloeRose

[hatepercslovepercs]

Yes iloerose I want to do the Thomas Recipe plan for sure but the only thing is that I cant get valium or xanex which would be a REAL help..
My friend called me last night to tell me how to go to sleep.. it was a strange method but it worked .. I figure we are all adults here? after that question im sure you know what i am saying and then i did go to bed but im up at 5am and my chest hurts and so does my stomach..

about Suboxone --I have tried it once before but it was not for me i had major headaches and terrible side effects .. it sucks cause now im at a loss ... thank you so much for the kind words.. i cant believe i have to go to work today ..

im gonna try to taper a bit more today .. i know its fast but I hate this so much and love them TOO..

[hatepercslovepercs]

I started doing this because me and my ex lived in Texas next to the boarder and would sell to people who would ask us to get meds for them once upon a time -- we would take one here and there --nxt thing i know im in ER making up stories to get more while my ex doesn't know- we move back to NYC and here i am going to find a doc that will give it to me- at this point taking vic 5mg -low and behold she found them - she said this is IT! we hop on a plane and i start detoxing while on vaca it wasn't so bad just some RSL and the runs but nothing more --- we get home and guess here i am? yup getting a script now for vic 7.5mg -- at this point im taking more and more-- NOW SHES LEAVING ME-- I drive down to Texas alone withdrawing on the road its a bit worse then before but still im fighting it "its all in my head blah blah" or "take some aspirin" -- (i have to say YES im physically addicted but i think my mind is MORE addicted)-- get down to texas with the shakes and i tell her how sorry i am - she has had enough of me and is done with THAT life! WHERE DO I GO? MEXICO -- i got whatever i could-- drove home and ran to docs office NOW getting Perc 10mgs -- was great for awhile and then reality kicks in.. i forgot to mention that i hoped a plan to Florida and detoxed myself on the beach alone and it really helped once -- but with the help of alcohol-- which i shouldnt say is for everyone but liquor or any other drug is not my thing-- i can take it or leave it --
also my sister got me into a study with Suboxone -the issue with this one- i went in to clinic they strip search you and take ur belongings they gave me klonopin, muscle relaxers, and suboxone IT was working great UNTIL I heard a girl scream in pain-- I asked what was she on? "painkillers" they gave her naltrexone -- i ran like the wind.. i heard about naltrexone and i didn't want any part of that --rapid detox is fine but i dont want to do that while im conscious-- so my sister got me a doc who helped me onto Suboxone and oh boi i had the worst of migraines and other side effects and of course NYC decides to stress me out and tow my car and two of my cats passed and im back on-- Now here i am --
this is all started bc i was getting for others but now i get what i deserve

[caughtagain]

Hi Hatepercs Welcome to the site. You have made the most important first step, that is, posting. We are all in the same boat or have been in the same boat. As others have said, there are different ways to detox. My story is similar to yours. I used to be a frequent visitor to ER's, Dentists, wherever I coud get pills. I too would plan my whole day around either using or getting. The cycle is horrible, so be proud of the fact that you are going to do something about it. I am on day 32 of a Cold turkey withdraw with nothing more than the basic Thomas recipe minus the valium/klonipine or any perscription drug. I just wrapped myself around the fact that I was going to feel ********py and made it. The things you do need are the immodium, pottasium, B-6, and L-tyrosine. THe last three are for cramping, and energy. For Sleep, I used Tylenol PM and Sleepy time tea. They do not work for some, however, they helped a bit for me. The other thing is to post and post often. I did it, YOU CAN do it too. Whatever method you use, we can guide you through to the otherside. Opiate w/d will not kill you, but continuing to use can. You will feel like A$$ for a week or so, but then things will start to clear up. Whatever we can do to help, let us know. ..CA

[hatepercslovepercs]

Originally Posted by caughtagain

Hi Hatepercs Welcome to the site. You have made the most important first step, that is, posting. We are all in the same boat or have been in the same boat. As others have said, there are different ways to detox. My story is similar to yours. I used to be a frequent visitor to ER's, Dentists, wherever I coud get pills. I too would plan my whole day around either using or getting. The cycle is horrible, so be proud of the fact that you are going to do something about it. I am on day 32 of a Cold turkey withdraw with nothing more than the basic Thomas recipe minus the valium/klonipine or any perscription drug. I just wrapped myself around the fact that I was going to feel ********py and made it. The things you do need are the immodium, pottasium, B-6, and L-tyrosine. THe last three are for cramping, and energy. For Sleep, I used Tylenol PM and Sleepy time tea. They do not work for some, however, they helped a bit for me. The other thing is to post and post often. I did it, YOU CAN do it too. Whatever method you use, we can guide you through to the otherside. Opiate w/d will not kill you, but continuing to use can. You will feel like A$$ for a week or so, but then things will start to clear up. Whatever we can do to help, let us know. ..CA

Thank you so much for helping.. I caved in and took a few this AM (im not taking the perc 10 ) i took perc 7.5 -- I cant get off of work but i believe im off sat thru tue -- if so i may go up to my friends house in CT and detox there-- I know what im up against and im ready to fight the devil head on but I cant do it without having the "thomas recipe" this time-- no matter what by this weekend i will have nothing and will go into detox regardless-- im gonna hit the streets to see if i can get some sort of benzo's -- i do however have a script for ambian 10mg--

i owe so much money and i fear im gonna lose my car and my life to this.. I am a strong woman and always have .. for fksake Im a DOMINATRIX!...

im sorry .. im so upset at myself.. i cant believe i got here--
guys and gals im thinking of you also-- WE WILL DO IT!

[caughtagain]

When you start, let us know and we will be here for you. Have faith in yourself and know this. Once you get through it, you do not have to EVER go back. Life is life and situations arise, but I can tell you from my experience that going through life is better than going around it. When I was on pills I could care or less what was going on. The worse things got, gulp, one more pill. But the problems never went away. As I stay clean and continue to make the right choices, i find I can deal with the curve balls better. I have faith that you will make the right choice, you sound like you are ready. This site is an awesome place to recover, I think of it as my own NA. I look forward to hearing from my friends on here, so embrace that too. Just remember, we are hear for you, post often, and the time WILL go by... CA

[hatepercslovepercs]

CA thank you again.. I cant even tell you how nice it is to hear that someone cares.. everyone just says "just stop taking them" like its nothing..

I will make sure i post through-out my ordeal --
my friends say i should just go to Fl again but the thing is with thatr i just runaway and never deal with it head-on.. just like my mom used to say "no matter where you go .. there you are" and its true .. so I agree 100 % with you about dealing and not running away when things are falling apart.. i need whats real .. what life is really like.. what really frightens me the most --- is-- I like who i am on the pills-- im socialble and just feel better.. this is something that really wories me..

[caughtagain]

I understand. The reason my screen name is Caught again is because before this last bout of 10 months, I was clean for 10 years. (I hurt my back last year and once I started I was off to the races) Anyway, I ran from state to state, my wife left, so many things happened that gave me a reason to use. To the point where I lost myself. The good news is, once you stop using you will get "yourself" back. I know is seems like a tall order right now, but hang in there. You have started the process, now lets get you through it. You might not know this, but posting is a sign of strength too. AS far as the socialable part. You will be fine, I was sociable, everybody's pal etc.. on the pills and when I got off I worried, but you know what.... I found out as time goes by I became a genuine person who remembered things, who cared to talk instead of babbling. So I was there, I understand and I will help you..CA I also did it without missing work, telling anyone, and I mean anyone. So, Be proud of how far you have come and we can get you through this.

[hatepercslovepercs]

Originally Posted by caughtagain

I understand. The reason my screen name is Caught again is because before this last bout of 10 months, I was clean for 10 years. (I hurt my back last year and once I started I was off to the races) Anyway, I ran from state to state, my wife left, so many things happened that gave me a reason to use. To the point where I lost myself. The good news is, once you stop using you will get "yourself" back. I know is seems like a tall order right now, but hang in there. You have started the process, now lets get you through it. You might not know this, but posting is a sign of strength too. AS far as the socialable part. You will be fine, I was sociable, everybody's pal etc.. on the pills and when I got off I worried, but you know what.... I found out as time goes by I became a genuine person who remembered things, who cared to talk instead of babbling. So I was there, I understand and I will help you..CA I also did it without missing work, telling anyone, and I mean anyone. So, Be proud of how far you have come and we can get you through this.

Hey CA ... thank you again for your kind words.. You got off the meds while on the job the whole time? WOW that is amazing.. I truly believe that most of it is in our head-- we talk ourselves into "getting sick" but of course we are sick but I think its our brain communicating with our bodies.. but im no doctor--

I am so sorry about your relapse and losing your wife..i have never been married but i can say just from losing my partner was enough ..
I sit in my lonely apt with my sisters and basically have nothing left because of my addiction .. i cant even think about anything unless my pills are involved..

i only have 3 days off not 4 in a row .. im trying to think how shall i go about this... CA could you tell me what you did? or some suggestions?
I think a friend is giving me a few zan bars and soma and i also have ambian.. but since my tolerance is so high i dont know if she will be able to supply enough and my doc is not around till next week..

i will keep posting i promise..
thank you again CA
btw my name is tara

[caughtagain]

Hi Tara How to do this.... Well, you just have to first make your mind up that you WANT too. Remember, making your mind up is simple, but it is not easy. This forum will help. What I did was, I read posts for a month or so, I watched and observed what was going on here. I saw a poster by the name of opee and that did it for me. I registered and that was my way of saying I am going to do it. I saw more than a few go thru it and come out the otherside. IT was hard, but I wrapped my head around the fact that I was going to feel sick, but I also had faith in the process and knew if I followed it honestly and just took it second by second, I too would do it. All the little saying I saw on this site I embraced them. I was sick, I cried, I wondered how I was going to get to day 2, but you know what... I did. And you can too. Just be proud of posting, be proud of each minute you get under your belt. The next thing you know you will be putting an X on your calender showing you that you made it through a day. As more X's are marked you will start feeling a sense of pride that you are accomplishing something. You see, that is the thing, often I think we addicts beat ourselves up for making poor choices in life and have low self esteem, but I think those that make it through the "process" of getting clean should look in the mirror with a big smile because it is so hard that "we" are in fact strong and should be proud of what we continue to fight each day. So join in, keep taking it one second at a time. I hope this helps you. As far as the physical part of this process... Use the Thomas recipe. Try to get out and walk a bit to get the natural endorphins pumping again. Try to stay busy, at times it will seem impossible, but do what you can to keep busy. That will help. Keep hydrated! Drink water, water, water. THat is important too. Mainly just treat the symptoms as they come and know that you WILL get better. Don't let the symptoms win. You can do it. Post often, and ask questions. We will guide you through. CA day 33 and counting

[mottam]

Tara:
Good morning.
ca was one of the people that reached out and helped me through the w/ds - cold turkey. I was also doing it at work, and not telling my wife or friends. It definitely sucks for a few days. However, you make it through.

Post, post often. Let us know how you feel. So much good advice on this site. We all have our unique set of issues with one common thread - addiction.

Stay strong, don't use and I can tell you from experience you will not believe the rewards you will receive for your efforts to get your life back.

People are here for you.

Kindest Regards

[hatepercslovepercs]

Originally Posted by caughtagain

Hi Tara How to do this.... Well, you just have to first make your mind up that you WANT too. Remember, making your mind up is simple, but it is not easy. This forum will help. What I did was, I read posts for a month or so, I watched and observed what was going on here. I saw a poster by the name of opee and that did it for me. I registered and that was my way of saying I am going to do it. I saw more than a few go thru it and come out the otherside. IT was hard, but I wrapped my head around the fact that I was going to feel sick, but I also had faith in the process and knew if I followed it honestly and just took it second by second, I too would do it. All the little saying I saw on this site I embraced them. I was sick, I cried, I wondered how I was going to get to day 2, but you know what... I did. And you can too. Just be proud of posting, be proud of each minute you get under your belt. The next thing you know you will be putting an X on your calender showing you that you made it through a day. As more X's are marked you will start feeling a sense of pride that you are accomplishing something. You see, that is the thing, often I think we addicts beat ourselves up for making poor choices in life and have low self esteem, but I think those that make it through the "process" of getting clean should look in the mirror with a big smile because it is so hard that "we" are in fact strong and should be proud of what we continue to fight each day. So join in, keep taking it one second at a time. I hope this helps you. As far as the physical part of this process... Use the Thomas recipe. Try to get out and walk a bit to get the natural endorphins pumping again. Try to stay busy, at times it will seem impossible, but do what you can to keep busy. That will help. Keep hydrated! Drink water, water, water. THat is important too. Mainly just treat the symptoms as they come and know that you WILL get better. Don't let the symptoms win. You can do it. Post often, and ask questions. We will guide you through. CA day 33 and counting

Morning CA
I read your post and it sure sounds scary and good lol ... but yes i am ready .. but truly scared - so what i am going to do is start tmrw .. i have off of work and goo back tue. also im going to do it home bc my friend in CT kids will be home and I told her I did want her kids to see me this way .. its not fair and unhealthy.. at first i wanted to ween myself off but i dont think I have the strength to do it nor the money .. it either ALL or NOTHING at all..
The X on the calender sounds great and something I will do.

I hope I can walk around and get going and try to get some Xanex .. Im going to fill my ambien 2day and pick up immodium and some minerals and Vitamins.. im scared but I think of cancer patients such as my mother who had passed from lung cancer and my dad on the otherhand who beat lung cancer of what they went through.. Im not gonna die from this

I cant say enough how wonderful you guys are on here!

oh and there was a post that touched me but I cant remember who it was .. she said that "her daughter had given birth to her first grandchild and she couldnt travel bc she didnt have enough pills to go" and then called herself "pathetic" i just fell to the floor in tears .. it hit home for me right away that this disease is AWFUL and i must stop now!

i will continue to post as much as i can
Tara

[hatepercslovepercs]

Originally Posted by mottam

Tara:
Good morning.
ca was one of the people that reached out and helped me through the w/ds - cold turkey. I was also doing it at work, and not telling my wife or friends. It definitely sucks for a few days. However, you make it through.

Post, post often. Let us know how you feel. So much good advice on this site. We all have our unique set of issues with one common thread - addiction.

Stay strong, don't use and I can tell you from experience you will not believe the rewards you will receive for your efforts to get your life back.

People are here for you.

Kindest Regards

Good Morning Mottam

Yes CA is a wonderful help .. and I can say thank you enough..
this is a difficult road im about to take but I must do it..

It truly sucks about work bc im the type who doesnt deal with pain very well.. everything hurts me more then the next person.. but who knows that could be the addict in me talking..

Today will be my last day of using and will start tmrw.. some people say day 3 or 4 is the worst .. any truth to that?

thanks again Mottam

Tara

[caughtagain]

That is great Tara, you sound as though you have made your mind up. Tapering is one way you can do it, however, me... no way i needed to go CT because I could not just space out the pills and would spend my day worrying about my next dose, so that is why i too said F it I am going ct and I am gald I did. Just post often and we will be here for you. I am proud of you! you are going to be fine and think how much better you will be... CA

[hatepercslovepercs]

Hey CA
I got your message on the other thread and I have read Melinda and Roberts story.. YES they are an inspiration for sure. but you have the basiclly the same story as me..

I am still taking now but I guess since my mind knows im kicking it tmrw I already started withdrawls -- no RLS but just stomach cramps and sweating.. it weird how your mind can plat tricks on you..

I understand your situation with your current GF and also you will be away... I hope Mottam can be there .. If he cannot im sure that someone on this site can..
I would be lying if I said im not scared I am but mostly about fighting my mind.. tricking myself and being strong.. Its all in my head and I need to snap out of it ..

Once I have a month clean I plan to go on a vacation alone.. maybe bahamas.. That is my goal..
Have fun this weekend!

Tara

[caughtagain]

While it is true the mind can play tricks, I know in my heart you are going to make it. I can tell by how you are posting and what you are saying. When your mind does play tricks on you and you do feel poor, just keep reinforcing in your own mind that you are doing it and embrace that. Do the X thing, that is also a motivator that is positive. You will be so surprised at how you look forward to putting that X on the calender. MOT will tell you, that is a great thing. As far as the cramping. take extra Pottasium, whether in the form of a suppliment or extra Banana's. It will help. The other important thing is to remove all the avenues to get pills. Delete numbers, do what you need to do, otherwise you will justify just one more pill and your mind will wind. If the avenues are NOT there, you have one less option to get pills. As Robert has said, just continue to make the right choice, it may be hard to do, but Do it and you will be thankful you did. And Don't kid yourself, you are STRONG, give yourself some credit. Imagine how many people read this forum but never post. You have posted, that is huge. Hot showers and aerobics are good too. Take the hot shower as much as you need. That will help with the Blahs. take one an hour before you go to bed. THe other thing I used was hot tea before bed. Sleepy time by Celestial seasonings worked a bit for me. IT took the edge off. Just put as much effort into not using as you did when you were trying to get pills. I believe in you and you ARE going to make it. I will be around as soon as Monday comes. And you are right, there will be others commenting. I just did not want you to think I forgot about you this weekend. You will be in my thoughts. Plus I am here all day as well, I am in Ohio (EST) ..CA

[killer-oxy]

Originally Posted by hatepercslovepercs

Hi I need help im trying to get off of Percocets (I also take whatever painkiller in that class that i can find)
I have been taking them for 3 plus years now and I HATE WHO I'VE BECOME! I cant even go on a vacation without working around my addiction.. "will i have enough ion the date? can I chance it?" I am trying to ween myself off .. i was taking anywhere from perc 110mg or more a day! yesterday I only took 65mg and today 50mgs.. im so sick and I want to take more to i can go to sleep .. im trying.. I DONT WANT TO LOSE EVERYTHING.. Please i beg anyone .. i cant be like this I WONT... I DONT!

Hi - well I am just sort of *anyone* - lol - been there where you are...it got a LOT worse for me b4 better so you have done the RIGHT thing coming here to post. I am SURE you will get a lot of feedback; it seems to mostly come in at night time though.

Weaning off them in massive doses is not the way though...your body needs time to adjust-smaller weaning doses/not HALF your normal dose.

HANG ON - don't give up. There is a lot of help here.

The above is from my own experience and nothing else!

[hatepercslovepercs]

hey killer oxy .. yes I figued out that out quickly about halfing the dose.. I decided tmrw I will be jumping ship without a lifeguard in sight. .. Like i said to Caught Again.. its all or nothing.. today is my final day .. I have called my doc crying saying i had panic attacks so he would call in some klonpin or xanex... I had a "friend" who was gonna get me some zan bars but of course flaked out.. its fine those arent the people i need in my life anymore anyway..

The beast will be unleashed tmrw
Tara

[hatepercslovepercs]

Everyone again thank you so much for your help and support!

I am getting ready to leave for work and wont be home till tonight.. I have tried to post a reply from my iphone but it wont let me ..

anyway I spoke to my doctor.. which I really dislike him but he is cheap and i have no insurance and he called in some anti-anxiety meds for me ..

I will write tonight..

Take care
Tara

[mottam]

Tara:
Just checking in - how are you doing?
It is a rough time right now - keep fighting.
From reading your thread - you are getting the right advice.
I will be on the site all weekend. My son has football, practice and games. However, I will be logging on as much as possible. If you are having a difficult moment - POST. Whatever you do - do NOT give in.

You are going to feel like ********. That is normal. When it is over, the feeling of freedom you will receive will be the rewards you are looking for beyond your expectations.

Don't worry/listen to those "voices". They are going to be there. Whether it is your mind/body messing with you during w/d, or it is that urge to use. Post, post, post. Every time you do not give in, another brick in the new foundation that is YOU becomes cemented in. Not being corny, but look at it like that. Each hour you are clean, every minute you refuse to use and lose - you are WINNING.

We are here for you. Freedom and a new life are yours if you want it. TAKE IT! I was also an oxy user. What a hard time going cold turkey, at work. What a great feeling; life is so good right now. I want you to have what this site has given me.

As I posted to you on my thread: If you need someone to yell at, someone to "talk" to, someone to lean on to get you through - we will help. I am not an expert, by no means, in this field. I, like many on this site, am an expert pill popper. I can just relate a lot to what you are going through, and maybe something I can say to you can help you get through the madness. Recovery is excellent. Go for it!

Kindest Regards

[mottam]

...sorry - and "yes", for me - days 3, 4 & 5 were difficult.

Don't focus on that right now - you will just sabotage your recovery. Take some advice that was given me; take it 10 minutes at a time if you have to. Hours will pass. The work day will get over. The day will end. Another day will start. You will break through the madness if you don't use - that is the only thing from experience I can promise you.

Post on your thread - post on my thread - just POST!

Have a clean, peaceful evening.

[mottam]

Tara:

I am going to watch a movie with my children right now.
Afterwards, I will log back on.
Take it slow - 10 minutes a time. If you feel restless or anxious - walk if you can.
If you feel like you mind is messing with you, don't hold it in - dump it on this site.

Stay tough, stay strong, and STAY CLEAN.

Talk to you soon.

[mottam]

hey, Tara:

We just put my daughter to bed. My son is upstairs, watching the rest of the movie - I am going back up in a few minutes.

I just wanted to check in with you.

Hope all is fine, Not trying to be a pain in your ass - just concerned and want to help.

Stay strong.

[hatepercslovepercs]

Hey Mot u r not being a pain at all. I'm on my way home about to get on train I will post more as soon as I am home and at my comp.

Tara
And thank you for caring it means so much you don't even know.

[hatepercslovepercs]

Oh btw mot idk if you knew that tmrw was my first day of detox. I used today (my last of whatever I had left) I have nothing I have deleted dealers numbers and friends that occasionaly had also. Avenues closed! I'm ready but scared. Really scared but ready

[hatepercslovepercs]

Hey Mot im home ..
Im so nervous about tmrw i cant even tell ya.. but like i said i am ready to do this.. Im sick and tired of wasting away my life and my money on this ********.. I could have had my partner .. i could have traveled so much more .. I could have DONE so much more with myself but this drug this lifestyle sucked me in .. im miserable .. I work for drugs and thats it and it sucks!

anyway please enjoy watching a movie with your family and i will talk to you soon...
Day 1 here I come..

Tara

[mottam]

Tara:
Good morning.
Listen - don't focus on the guilt stuff right now. You will have plenty of time later to go and try to "fix" some of the wreckage left behind. All of us addicts have that problem.
Right now - focus on getting through w/d. Get clean. Take it 10 minutes at a time if you have to. Post and post often.
I am not going to lie to you -it will be tough. However, from my experience, it is tolerable with the right support. This site was my support, and I made it through. So can you.
The weekends seem to be a little lighter w/ respect to posting. I know you are going to be in a bad way this weekend. People on this site will help you. As I stated before, I will be on and off the site all weekend.

Stay tough, DO NOT USE. Think of it like this:
You want to get your life back. If you use, you reset the clock back to an area you do NOT want to be. Get through this ********, and you will be able to handle life on life's terms.

My son has football pictures shortly - the pep-rally is postponed due to the torrential rains we are having.
Put on a good movie (comedies are better then drama right now) or some light music, and try to relax. I know that is easier said then done, but try.

Kindest Regards

[hatepercslovepercs]

Hey Mottam.. I just woke up and its 1 pm! ..(btw day 1 detox) as far as of right now my body is achy and i feel as if im in a closed room... but im going to lay down in my sisters room and take a xanax and watch tv.. i have to at some point go 2 drug store to get my sleep meds also.

its raining awful here too..

thank you mottom.. i will be back soon