[Inuk]

Hello everyone. This is not my first post but I had to make a new ID as I changed my isp and email a while back. So I hadn’t been posting as I was too wasted on booze and pills. I saw a sub doc last week and he said I have to return on the 19th and be in withdrawal when I get there. I live about 40 miles in the bush west of Ottawa Canada so going to a clinic everyday is just not viable. My loving wife works hard, very hard and she is the money maker. I am a stay home dad and take care of my 4 year old son and a small farm, he means the world to me. I have been sober for about 2 weeks, my drinking was at night once my son would be in bed, I would pound back 12 beers or a 26oz of rum! I was able to get myself out of bed to perform my duties by using oxys to kill the hangovers. I know all too well how dangerous mixing booze and oxy’s is. I was warned about this about a year ago on this site, but I didn’t listen or ever bother posting again because I had to figure it out on my own, and I have. I have a real nice neighbor is in his 60’s. He is willing to help me with the subs as I cant drive to the clinic everyday. Been on oxys about 4 or 5 years, perks were in 1992 when I had convinced a doctor that my back was in pain, and it was, but I had no idea the perks would lead to getting hooked on oxys for so many years. Anyways, my very trustworthy neighbor is willing to hold the subs for me and help me get into shape. We are kind of alike and we both don’t get along with the other neighbors here, I guess you could say we are allies in the neighborhood. Now I am prescribed 5 x 20mg of oxy’s per day, 3 in the morning and 3 at night. I have always had really hard time sleeping and I think drinking was what was knocking me out every night. Past 3 months I use zopiclone 7.5 mg and amitriptyine 30mg to get to sleep. I don’t buy beer or rum anymore, told my friends and family to please not bring any booze over either, it seams like it’s always someone’s birthday and the drinks flow. But I have had it with out of control drinking. Last night I had a glass of red wine with dinner and I was fine. I also have Clonidine 0.1mg that my family doc gave me for hi blood pressure while quitting drinking. Now the oxy script is not enough for my tolerance and I have to buy from a guy in the city. I am so sick of counting pills, wasting my wife’s money and husleling just to feed my selfish addictions. I am ready for sub treatment and really looking forward to getting on with it. My appointment is on the 19th to see the suboxone doc. I am currently using about 260mg of oxy a day. I want to get on the subs and off when it’s the right time. I am just not sure what that time will be, the doc said the longer I am on them the less chance of relapsing, but I want this to go as quick as possible yet I must be ready or I will go back to the oxys. What a horrible drug these things are, I am so very lucky to not have lost everything yet!

[Robert_325]

Inuk ... quote " the doc said the longer I am on them the less chance of relapsing, but I want this to go as quick as possible yet I must be ready or I will go back to the oxys. What a horrible drug these things are, I am so very lucky to not have lost everything yet! "




Subs could be great for you. Here is a link for the way I've worked with people here on this forum for years. It works this way, saying the longer you're on them the better is NOT true. That is a great way for a dr to make a bunch of money. Read around the forum and see what others have to say. In the meantime check out this link. God bless.

http://www.drugs.com/forum/featured-...apy-50887.html