[doneitall]

hello, while i hate to admit it, today was the first day i have actually noticed the effects of my oxycontin usage..for some reason the night before i decided to quit cold turkey, well that lasted about 17 hours when the withdrawals became too much to deal with..i live with two other oxycontin abusers so acess to the pills is very easy. the habit is becomming expensive and frankily, my interest in college education has slipped away.

i dont want to come on here sounding like a sob story...formal rehab is out of the question, my younger brother already went thru this and i can not bare to see the look of sadness on my mothers face if i were to start a program.

i consider myself an partier, i have frequently used marijuana and alcohol since the age of 14 and only recently started abusing oxycontin in the last 6 months. i am currently snorting anywhere from 80-160 mg a day. does anyone have a "cost effective" way to kick these demons? i have been researching suboxone and that might work, but i think i need to change my enviroment if i really want to succeed..at 20 the painful reality of the "real world" is comming fast upon me and i can not keep being this reckless. anyone out there share my same dilema? i appreciate your guys advice and thank you all in advance.

[OxyCrush]

hey dude, Im right there with yah man. I have the exact problem you do down to the "T". I have been abusind oxycontin for about 8 months now and like you bro I was getting killed with wthdrawal effects when I didnt snort any. I got ahold of some Methadone to get me though a few days and its working well so far with the aches and pains. I only have 120 mgs of Mehadone, yesterday I took 30 mgs and I felt ok the whole day. The next day waking up was a little wierd, the firt thing I did was break one of the 40mg tablets into quarters and took 10 mgs., feeling sick I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and sure enough the sickness got to me and I threw up once. Soon after the Methadone kicked in and I was fine. So I went through the whole day today only on 10 mgs and was fine, only feeling a little wierd towards the end of the day, so I took another 10 mgs. this was about 10 minutes ago, I feel great now. Tomorrow is another day and Im going to try to get through the whole day without anything, I think I will be fine though. I can feel the withdrawal symptomes going away for sure. This is great for me !!! I thought it was going to be much worse (like cold turkey) but not even close. I have no urge to snort anymore Oxycontin and I am very motivated to kick this habit that I started. I want my regular life back and I want my loved ones not to worry about me. I want to do all the things I used to do that were physical again, like surfing. Dude I grew up in Hawaii surfing since I was a small kid and I was ripping too, but when I started using, it all went to **** because I couldnt stay out in the water long enough because the pain would come from the withdrawals. SUX!!! huh? I know you know what Im talking about. Im not gonna lie, this drug is GREAT!![}] when youre on it, but it SUX!!! when you dont have it,[V] and your life should not revolve around a little pill you have to put up your nose every 3 hours. You feel me? Anyways enough on that. I was taking 120mgs to 160mgs a day up my nose for 8 months now and I think what Im doing is going to work fine for me, reason being is I think that when you snort it compared to when you ingest it, it is easier to get off of. "That is just from my experience." Others will say otherwise. My friend has done exaxtly what Im doing right now to get off this junk and it worked out fine for him. So this is word for word what he told me to do. First try to get ahold of some Methadone,illegaly if you have to, just enought to get you through the first 2 or 3 days of aches and pains. No more than 120mgs of Methadone!!!, if you get to much you can get hooked on the Methadone!! you dont want that, and Methadone is much harder to get off of, from what I hear in this forum. Break the 40mg tablets into quarters and take 10mgs at a time "as needed"!! for the first day, trust me when I say "as needed" you are gonna have to deal with a little bit of a strange feeling for the most part, but its not at all bad. Then on the second day try to take a little less like 20mgs max. You should be feeling much better by now, (I did). On the third day try to go without the whole day. (call outsick from work if you have to, just in case). I myself am going into the third day tomorrow and I am going to try to go the whole day without anything. (I still have 80mgs of Methedone left), and I dont think I am going to need it, but I have it just in case. Dude try to get off this way. Like I said, it is working for me. Ill let you know how Im doing bro. Let me know how youre doing too. Remember you are not alone in this, and this forum "will" help you. It sure helped me. Fell free to shoot me a Yahoo Instant Message anytime bro if you have anymore questions. My user ID for Yahoo is "Mauigreen77" ok bro? Good luck to yah. OxyCrush.

quote:Originally posted by doneitall

hello, while i hate to admit it, today was the first day i have actually noticed the effects of my oxycontin usage..for some reason the night before i decided to quit cold turkey, well that lasted about 17 hours when the withdrawals became too much to deal with..i live with two other oxycontin abusers so acess to the pills is very easy. the habit is becomming expensive and frankily, my interest in college education has slipped away.

i dont want to come on here sounding like a sob story...formal rehab is out of the question, my younger brother already went thru this and i can not bare to see the look of sadness on my mothers face if i were to start a program.

i consider myself an partier, i have frequently used marijuana and alcohol since the age of 14 and only recently started abusing oxycontin in the last 6 months. i am currently snorting anywhere from 80-160 mg a day. does anyone have a "cost effective" way to kick these demons? i have been researching suboxone and that might work, but i think i need to change my enviroment if i really want to succeed..at 20 the painful reality of the "real world" is comming fast upon me and i can not keep being this reckless. anyone out there share my same dilema? i appreciate your guys advice and thank you all in advance.

[GoodByeOxy]

Make that three of us. Name is Ryan. I just turned 21 on the 20th of September. I live in Chico in Northern California. I have Severe Hemophilia Factor VIII, and arthritis in both my elbows and ankles (severe pain, every day... some days worse than others). I was started on vicodin when I was 12 when I was first diagnosed with arthritis. From there, I went the usual route: Vicodin -> Norco -> Percodan -> OxyContin 20mg -> OxyContin 40mg.

The docs had me on 240mg of OxyContin a day. How could I not develop a habit when I get a bottle of 180 40mg tablets delivered to my door, free of charge every 30 days? (insurance is 100%) I mean, holy ****. What were my doctors thinking?

Anyway, it's my fault for abusing them and especially snorting them. Been snorting 240mg a day for about... 10-11 months now. Turned 21 five days ago, and took a look at my life, and didn't like what I saw.

Went to a pain specialist here in town on the 21st, and that man saved my life. (I honestly think I would have overdosed in the next few months if I hadn't admitted I have a problem and wanted desperately to do something about it). My pain doc has me on Avinza (once a day, lasts ALL day) and OxyCodone for break-through pain. 5 days, OxyContin free, and I've haven't had to use a OxyCodone yet. I already feel the haze lifting from my head. I feel like I can think again. I feel like I'm getting my life back.

I know exactly what the two of you are going through (or already gone through) as I am going through it myself. It means a lot to me that there are other people with the same problem that I can relate to. Really. Thank you both for sharing. Finding this forum is a huge boon for me.

Both of you, and anybody who reads this and is going through the same thing, contact me if you ever want to chat, or are going through a rough time. Anything, anytime. If you see me online, drop me a line. Doesn't have to be about the drugs. Just to get to know each other.

One thing I miss is the friendships I've lost because of my addiction. The pills became all that mattered to me. I'm just now looking around and realizing what I gave up for a little fun... well ALOT of fun. We can all admit the high from OC is pretty awesome...

It just took me a while to realize that the high isn't worth what you give up in the process of falling deeper into addiction...

Look forward to hearing from you guys.

Peace and Love,
_____________________________________________
Ryan
NCalRyan on AIM
NorCalSonar@hotmail.com on MSN Messenger
NorCalSonar on Yahoo

[Jonesing]

GoodByeOxy, (I love that username !)

Congrats on getting off the Oxycontin. I can't imagine getting 240 mils a day presrcibed ! I take that much sometimes, but I'm definently not prescribed that much. I've got a couple of questions I'd like to ask you. Is Avinza sustained released morphine ? Does it take away feelings of withdrawal ? I've tried the 30 mil. sustained release morphines, and still had pretty bad withdrawal symptoms. Have you ever tried the fentanyl patches ? They seem to work real good for pain, without that great buzz that oxy's produce. Be careful with the oxycodones (actually the same drug as oxycontins) they will put you in the same boat as the contins did.
Again, congrats on quiting the contins, I'll holler back at you when I have a little more time.

Sincerely,

Jonesing

[doneitall]

hey whats up guys, i just wanted to let you guys know how great oxycrush has been to me..overall has been a great "life coach" if you want to me. i would have to say this forum and the people that post on here have saved my life, if anyone has succombed to an oxycontin deamon like i have feel free to reach me on a chat program and maybe i can offer some insight on how i am dealing with it.

so far i have taken 10mg of methadone and the urges and pain have all gone away, mentally i still crave the drug but i can fight that (mind over matter baby) i have 20mg left and plan ration out 10 mg a day since the first 3 days are the hardest..tomorrow i have to work so it will be interesting too see if i can get thru work with out my cravings or cold sweats. anyways if anyone wants to reach me they can do so at

yahoo - sal85431
aim - steveo431
msn messanger steveo431@hotmail.com

god bless

[OxyCrush]

dude!!!!!! keep it up man. you are almost there. Bro I am now 9 days clean and for the first time since Ive been off this sh it I have gotten my energy back. There is hope! Hahahaha. Im sooo stoked to feel this good without that ****! Dude just think "9 days you could be feeling like me!!" dont give up bro! I know you can do this. Keep IM me if you need support, I will always answer. This goes for anyone that can relate to us. I know you all can tell by this post how I am feeling. Jonesing, doneitall, Ryan and anyone else who has responded to these posts for help. You guys are awesome! Guys keep posting your progress, I will too. Thanks again guys and stay strong. OxyCrush [8D]

quote:Originally posted by doneitall

hey whats up guys, i just wanted to let you guys know how great oxycrush has been to me..overall has been a great "life coach" if you want to me. i would have to say this forum and the people that post on here have saved my life, if anyone has succombed to an oxycontin deamon like i have feel free to reach me on a chat program and maybe i can offer some insight on how i am dealing with it.

so far i have taken 10mg of methadone and the urges and pain have all gone away, mentally i still crave the drug but i can fight that (mind over matter baby) i have 20mg left and plan ration out 10 mg a day since the first 3 days are the hardest..tomorrow i have to work so it will be interesting too see if i can get thru work with out my cravings or cold sweats. anyways if anyone wants to reach me they can do so at

yahoo - sal85431
aim - steveo431
msn messanger steveo431@hotmail.com

god bless

[dustind]

I just want to let you all know that I have been doing about 250 MG a day of oxycontin for the last 3 years. I have quit multiple times either weaning myself off, using methadone, or suboxin. I am now quiting again for the last and final time. I have always snorted them. When i quit i dont neccisarily have withdrawls (because i get past that period) but I always go back to them. Can anyone tell me why I keep going back. I like to snort stuff and have never snorted anything but oxy. I think it's mostly a mental addiction for me. But how do i get it out of my head wanting to get high? anyone have any idea's? IF anyone needs help with getting them selfs off i can help you there. But staying off....i need help! LOL. Thanks and I wish the best of luck to everyone.

[GoodByeOxy]

13 days OxyContin free...

The Avinza is working great (still just one capsule at night, lasts me all day, pain free) and I haven't had to take a single OxyCodone... Hell yeah

I have my life back, and am still taking it day by day... no relapses now

Hope all is well with those of you I've talked with, and hope you're still fighting the good fight.

Peace and Love.

[mpvt]

Hi Dustind: You need to make some lifestyle changes and by that I mean doing things to fill in times that you would be using.Sometimes you even have to get away from the people you know who are still doing the drugs.I hope you realize what snorting oxycontins can do to the linning of your nose,it can literally eat it away.So that's my advice,try and fill your time with things other than drugs........Dave

[oxymoron]

Hey, I'm with all you guys just tryin to get a little better every day. I was snorting 160-240 mg of oc every day for like three months and haven't done any since friday but had a vic refill left for weaning purposes. Finally said screw it and told the doc and he gave me MS Contin (morphine) for 10 days and told me to go see a shrink. anybody have any suggestions in norcal for where I can go see a specialist or chem dependancy doc?

[PoppyQueen]

Go here for doctor directory:

http://www.suboxone-directory.com/

Good luck,
PQ

[christofah]

It almost brings me to tears to read all these success stories. thanks to all for reminding me that sobriety is possible. I'm a struggling student, been hooked on oc's for about 2 years. I live in MA where there is an oxy epidemic everywhere you look. I do about 80 mg a day as that is all that i can afford. I dream all day of being sober. I feel that if i could just take a week off of my life i could get clean. however, i am a full-time student that goes to work as a carpenter after class and am completely booked about 7 days a week between work,school, and homework. Of all the withdrawal symptoms i suffer the worst it is the fatigue, and the sleepless nights, tossing and turning that keep me using. I'm at a point that I cant carry out my responsibilities without the energy and concentration that oc's give me. its not even about the high anymore. I get a buzz for about 10 minutes then I feel normal. it's crazy to think that feeling normal is my goal. and is worth paying 65 bucks for. I am a strong believer in God, and have asked him to help me with this hundreds of times. rehab/detox is out of the question. how many days of sucking it up would it take for me to feel normal again? thankx to all of u for giving me hope. I will keep all of your success stories in my mind as my struggle continues. now i know there is hope.

[PoppyQueen]

Chris, go for the Suboxone. If you can affford the Oxy's you can afford to get Suboxone. I'm on my 5th week and I don't have any desire to use pain killers. My withdrawal symptoms went away soon after taking my first Suboxone pill.

Find info and a doctor at www.suboxone.com

Good luck!

PQ
Last painkiller used: 9/25/05
Suboxone started 9/26/05

[oxcow]

in need of help! lost most of everything i cared for inc. wife, biz, home, friends, fam, etc... started with the normal couple of ankle/knee procedures to 3 yrs later been thru rehab and now back to to over 500 mg of oxy a day($5000 a month habit, not exaggerated and quite embarrassed). funds from 15years of hard work are about gone along with everything else that was important. i now meet this person who is the devil and have to pretend he is my frined each week to refill my habit. it is sick but i can not find a way out,t eh systme stinks and i truly believe it is run by the purdues of the world. i can not go back to a rehab and yet must get off. i am starting a new biz that has many folks relying on my past abilities. i live a double life and hate it. has anyone ever been successful tappering? any other help that is real? are boards like this truthful and helpful or a waste of time for poeple that are real serious to get out from this nightmare? i would help anyone i could if i had a answer as the pain of trying to quit makes one feel so weak and sick, i believe its impossible as i have tried a dozen times and made it max 3 days and thought i would die or commit suicide. i am open to any help or suggestions, but i am a realist and no myself, going to meeting and all that does not work for me, not to say it wouldnt for others, my issue is the physical part for now, i can not go a day and be productive or even get out of bed without snorting at least 160 mgs of the junk. i do that about 3x per day so you can see i understate my addiction to say the least. i feel for all who are trying to quit, it is very unpleasant and to say the least humbling. i never thought i would be under the control of anything/one like i am of this, it runs my life and that is sad and wrong. its destroyed 90% of me but i can rebuild if only i can get out from under its physical pain. without it i can not even lift a coffee cup, i have tried, this is coming from a college athlete(10yrs ago) that was unstoppable in sports and business. this condition sucks bad! i dont know what kind fo repsonse to expect as i have never written on any kind of board, i ask just to be positive if writting as i can not take any other negative thoughts. the best to those really trying.

[sweetchikk05]

well to answer your question about websites and sites like this, I can tell you this is a great one with a lot of caring and helpful people, if you are willing to take the advice we give you than yes it will help you out but you have to be strong and want sobriety or nothing you do will work, a lot of people have gained the support and advice they have needed and a lot of people that come to this sight have gotten clean, if you want it to work for you than it will, we are here for you, its unfortunate the situation that you are in, others here have been in simalar situations, tell us a bit more about your situation and just exactly what it is you are looking for and looking to accomplish, if you are strong minded then we can help you..


Liz ann

[mpvt]

If you've already been through rehab and tried to cold turkey a few times then I would suggest either buprenorphene or methadone.You've tried evrything else and with your new business you don't have time to cold turkey or rehab which as you know is not going to work for you.Try www.suboxone.com and get a list of doctors in your area and start phoning for an app.This drug can work wonders for addicts in your situation.Good luck and let us know how you make out....Dave

[neverbackdown]

hey, ive read most of everyones responses , and i can relate to alot of it. im 17 at the moment, and ive been clean off oxys for 17 days exactly.. iw as goin hard at for at least 6 months straight.. sniffing a couple 80's to my head everyday.. i wasted over 500 dollars a week on that ********************, it cost me all my money, my job, my friends, i hocked all ym parents jewwlry,and a bunch fo ******************** i had , just to get money tro get high. i sitll owe one guy 900 bucks. thank fully hes not mking me pay him bck... alot of you guys have been trying to quit...and are on methadone, which i guess is kinda lucky for you.. i have about 7 friends on methadone at the moment. im not on it tho.. when i quit... i decided to tell my parents... and iw as on lockdown in my house. when the withdarwels started. i wanted to kill myself. i had nothing to take them away nothing would help. i had hte worst cold sweats, i was shaky all the time, i was throwing up , sore everywhere, depresssed, i didnt sleep for four straight days cause i was in so much pain... the fourth day .. i had to go intowork... and i tohguh ti was gunna ********************ing die.. that day... i got my friend jenny to come see me at work and i ended up getting two 80s and i gave her one..and i got one.. i tried to make it last me 4 days. hitting a 20 chunk a day ,... it did help. i mean, even thatlil peice .. made me feeel so mcuh ebtter. it was jsut the fact that i had the pill. didnt matter how much it was... then after two days o that.. i decided iw as being stupid and that if i really wantd to quit.. weening myself off liek this wasnt going to work . so i hiut the rest of the 40 mgs..a dn since i hadnt done alot lately.. it go tme pretty high..the next day.. wasnt as bad, cause it was only the first day . but the nest 5 days after that, wetre worse thent eh first withdarwels..but.. now its been 17 dyads.. and im doing great.. i mean , i still think aobu it all the time. the memories are fresh in my brain. it stuck with me. but at least im staying clean.. doing it cold turkey was hard as ******************** and i wouldnt technicalyl recomend it to some people. but its not impossible..
ive been doing weekly sessions at the addcition center downtown tho.. and onn the 5th of september i have my drug asseesmsnt and my counselor is polly gunan send me to rehab cause she knows im still really dependant on it even if im not using.... but anyways. i jsut wanted to share my story with you guys .. maybe itll help , maybe not. but all i can say is . oxycontin is the ********************ing devil,i loved dong it everyday , i didnt have a care in teh world , i thoguht i was invincible, geting up in teh mrnng and railing lines all day til i pass out.. for at least 6 months straight.. but let me tell you..
its not worth the pain in the end, cause i lost everything. i hit rock bottom. and im so happy im doing better

stay strong..

Originally Posted by doneitall

hello, while i hate to admit it, today was the first day i have actually noticed the effects of my oxycontin usage..for some reason the night before i decided to quit cold turkey, well that lasted about 17 hours when the withdrawals became too much to deal with..i live with two other oxycontin abusers so acess to the pills is very easy. the habit is becomming expensive and frankily, my interest in college education has slipped away.

i dont want to come on here sounding like a sob story...formal rehab is out of the question, my younger brother already went thru this and i can not bare to see the look of sadness on my mothers face if i were to start a program.

i consider myself an partier, i have frequently used marijuana and alcohol since the age of 14 and only recently started abusing oxycontin in the last 6 months. i am currently snorting anywhere from 80-160 mg a day. does anyone have a "cost effective" way to kick these demons? i have been researching suboxone and that might work, but i think i need to change my enviroment if i really want to succeed..at 20 the painful reality of the "real world" is comming fast upon me and i can not keep being this reckless. anyone out there share my same dilema? i appreciate your guys advice and thank you all in advance.