[racinmason001]

Well sleep really sucks for me right now! So I thought I would let everyone know I am still clean and feel good except for sleep but I have found music to help me drift off to sleep. I am going through alot of wierd things in my head though. I used to be ok with being a chump and not really doing anything with my life but now I am having a big problem with it. I have considered drastic measures and pissed my wife off good! I am thinking about contacting a recruiter for any branch of the military. I know its wartime and scary but I don't know why? I dont care? The economy has put my trade under. I have no work!!! I FEEL VERY STRESSED!!! I still don't want to use and haven't really had any cravings. Its like a switch was turned off! I didn't even get three days in the last time I did this. Here I am over a month!!! My wife says she feels like I am changing and she is losing me. I try to tell her that I am changing into a different person but for the better! I just feel like I am making big changes and should continue making difficult life decisions. She says I need to relax. Am I overreacting? I don't know? Am I gonna make a stupid choice? Again I dont know? I guess I am looking for a little advice? Maybe I'm just venting!

[melinda7.5]

Hi Racinmason
Sorry to hear about your sleep,I think it happends to all of us exdruggies,LOL

For me when i stoped taking pills it unnumbed me and i see the world differently now,im not afraid to get out in the world and do what im suppose to.This is the real me.

Im sure your wife is scared its a new world for her also.
my sons life long dream is to join the military and I would support him,If that is what he chooses to do.but he dosent have a family.

Its kind of like i woke up from a 3 year nap and i have alot of stuff to catch up on, ok that is my opinion,hope it all goes well...

Melinda