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08-31-2009, 07:52 PM
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OOpsie, my bad!! I only read the first page of t his thread. Didnt look at the date or notice the page number. I just saw a terrified woman my age afraid to move and answered. THEN realized it was from a long time ago and 7 pages ago. LOL.... Glad to see you've come such a long way Barb. |
08-31-2009, 08:11 PM
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Hi Barb
sending good carma your way !!!
good to hear from you...
talk to you later, Melinda |
09-01-2009, 01:04 PM
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hi
a little bit less terrified, mad at myself for not being braver with lowering the dose
thank you so much.....your post lifted my spirits (no matter what date!) i am very grateful that robert is there for me and the pray that i will not suffer pain..you know at my pretty age detox is a bigger strain on my body, emotions, etc. i have grown in faith in these months through these postings and diligent prayer, journaling, affirmations, gratitude lists and stillness. i'm happy you are there for me, in light & love, barb |
09-01-2009, 01:31 PM
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hi M
thanks for the good Karma.....if you spell it with a K its stronger!!!!!!!!
have a peaceful day, b |
09-01-2009, 02:36 PM
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Barb,
Hope you are doing well. Keep up the good work. Don't be too hard on yourself. |
09-02-2009, 12:01 PM
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Freedom- you rock! thanks so much for the support. |
09-02-2009, 12:38 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by bellabarbara  hi M
thanks for the good Karma.....if you spell it with a K its stronger!!!!!!!!
have a peaceful day, b | OK here you go...
sending good KARMA your way !!!
Have a great day 
Melinda |
09-03-2009, 11:20 AM
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bev
what are your plans for coming off the 1 mg? are you afraid? that's the time that scares me most.............please keep in touch.....sending prayer/love/light, b |
09-04-2009, 01:53 AM
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Hiya Barbara, OK, I am not gonna lie to you even though its not the best thing for you to hear. But fear is whats kept me on this long. I'm 60 freaking years old. I have diabetes and I have COPD and other lung problems from a lifetime of smoking (which I finally quit). I can give good advice to the younger people on here... Don't start high, definitely DONT stay on too long, follow the taper plan, etc. but I havent quite followed it myself. I've been on sub for a little over a year - that's how much the fear has gripped me. If I remember correctly I started at 16 mgs, very quickly dropped to 2, then 1, now I fluctuate between .75 and .50. I think my very long time opiate history makes it a little trickier. The same goes for Purpledog.... But I will tell you this. I feel absolutely no worse on less than 1 than I did on 8, 6, 4 or 2 or 1. I feel exactly the same which is fine. The scary thing is the final leap. There is a poster around sometimes who was a long time methadone user on very high doses of it who switched to sub, tapered off and is now clean for about 45 days. I look to him for inspiration but you did catch me, I'm scared (doesn't make it right though).... My prayers are with you Barb... We have the age thing in common so we should watch each other and see how things go. I'm gonna follow your thread from now on. You can also email me if you like.
Bev  |
09-12-2009, 11:10 AM
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thanks sweetie, stay with me, we're going to totally clean and aware and God's going to walk us through. Please write anytime...don't want to lose you so we can celebrate our bravery together...i'd like to give you my email add. but don't know how to do that privately...i appreciate your honesty & hang in with me! |
09-13-2009, 08:19 PM
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hi barb, go to my profile, click on my name. I set up myself here so that people can email me if they want. You will be able to email me through my profile and then I can email back. Would LOVE to chat. |
09-23-2009, 10:30 AM
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hi bev
i was unable to find your email address. i just think you & I are in such a similar situation with the same fears...i don't want to lose you because its about the quality of our lives let's figure out how to do this...we may need to speak to each other......sending love, b |
09-23-2009, 10:34 AM
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hi hope you and M are well!
just checking in i'm at about 6 mgs and i know i;ll need to tell you when i get to 4mg
slow going seems to be working for me
God Bless, b | | |
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