Please help- Roxicodone user and scared

Hi all. I am real nervous right now. I was being prescribed oxycodone 30 mg 4 times a day for my bone spurs, arthritis and general chronic back pain- but taking 8 or so instead, which got me to a comfortable place. I KNOW a pill is not the answer, but it is what helps me get up get going and go thru out my day- I don't want this to always be this way.

Anyhow I am scared because long story short, the prescribing doc is a no good, mean sarcastic man who wouldn't help me beyond what HE thought would help: a good example of being scared by the DEA. Now I have 12 pills left, and that is only two days worth at best! WHEW I am thankful I at least have Klonipin and Darvocet N, although the darvocet is very mild and there just to kinda tide me over. I need to talk to someone about this- tomorrow I go to see my GP who I am seeing as a follow up to last week's visit (I have pneumonia) and she has prescribed me Roxi before. I don't know what I will do if she says no to my request.Go into withdrawals and back to my pain?

It isn't right. I'm trying my hardest to find a pain management doc who I can use in conjunction with a chiro/acupuncture place...I have to get a copy of my X ray that shows bone spurs and arthritis from my old doc- I hope they don't make it difficult- I really need them tomorrow so I can make an appt with the pain management center I found. BIG SIGH. I just want to be in relief!! I don't want to be seen as a 'drug seeker' cause I am needing these meds for documented reasons and for other things, I suspect problems with my rotator cuff and fibro. All my muscles hurt 24-7.

Sorry to go on and on. Trying to explain. Please, is anyone awake?


Signed,
scared and alone
Susie

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