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11-06-2009, 03:32 PM
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OMG....how bad will the wd be after being on only 1 for a few days of the taper???
I'm questioning why I am doing this. My head hurts, I'm achy all over, my stomach is a mess, I'm shaky....sigh...I'm not liking this and I'm only a day in... |
11-06-2009, 04:19 PM
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Supermom,
Just wanted to post - I will email you right now!
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11-06-2009, 04:45 PM
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Originally Posted by supermomhelp  OMG....how bad will the wd be after being on only 1 for a few days of the taper???
I'm questioning why I am doing this. My head hurts, I'm achy all over, my stomach is a mess, I'm shaky....sigh...I'm not liking this and I'm only a day in... | hey supermom
u gotta stay strong  as u know im on day 4 and holding strong and i just jumped from a really high dose to cold turkey it will get better.....have u tried the thomas recipe just curious...well if not u should try it i mean it wasnt for me but everyone is different.....just trying to help pleaseeeeee hang in there u have so much support.... just pop in one of your fav movies and try to relax..... if i can help u in any way please let me know |
11-06-2009, 04:49 PM
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all of u guys help keep me truckin along including u plz stay strong....we love u very much and only want the best for u  HUGS!!!! |
11-06-2009, 05:06 PM
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Icandithis,
Just wanted to chime in and say GREAT JOB - I am so proud of you - please keep posting to inspire her - I know she really wants this!
Supermom - think of it like a marathon - finish line in site - waiting to put the medal around your neck!
Love ya,
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11-06-2009, 06:25 PM
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Supermom,
Just read a great post from OPEE - he was coaching ICANDOTHIS - who is going through ct - from heavy doses - and I quote - It is BITE ON THE STICK TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! - You can do this! No matter what I am here for you!
TTT |
11-07-2009, 06:33 AM
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Hey there SuperMom,
BRAVO!!!! You are doing it, hon!!! Hard though it is, you are succeeding!
Teri (TTTdogs) suggested I see if I can offer a little reassurance to you, as you are at such a key turning point this weekend. I just read through (MOST!) of your thread - and my heart can feel your struggle. I know that struggle well - so well, as it was my life, years ago. The mind games are horrible - that's our toughest struggle. But we can get past them, I promise.
Having tapered down to just one pill by the end, the final plunge into full recovery is not going to be that drastic to your body. It isn't like plunging off from the highest diving board... instead, you're just kind of slipping into the water. (Bad analogy!) Much of what you're feeling physically now is also being sick on top of it, period. Your body isn't reacting so much as your mind is.
Right now, your biggest problem is all right in between your ears. And our minds can be our greatest asset at this time - or our greatest liability. I'm sure, if you plan to work in this field, you know far more than I do about this kind of thing. But what I've learned, I learned the hard way, by practice. And you're finding out that there is world of difference between book learning and life learning - and yes, this experience is going to be invaluable to you as a therapist. No book could teach you this!
With practice, and lots of it, I've learned some techniques to control my thoughts, to a great extent. I didn't even realize I had that choice before. I was a person who beat on myself mercilessly in the past, and never even realized I was doing it, until I paid attention to that voice in my head.
Upon consciously listening, I was stunned - to learn I was speaking to myself in ways that I couldn't possibly talk to another person, but I did it to me! So it took a lot of attention to 'catch' myself berating myself - and replacing those thoughts with more positive ones. Think how you'd talk to a client if they were going through this. You'd be encouraging, uplifting and positive - you certainly wouldn't say to them, "Hey, this is impossible, you can't do this, it's going to be terrible, you'll hate this."
Well, we believe the things we tell ourselves - so if we're telling ourselves this will be awful and impossible to master, that's what we'll believe - and also, what we'll create.
Keep in mind, the addictive mind is going to be working overtime right now - your disease is going to scream in your ears to try to get you to go back to addiction. It's a far more powerful disease than we ever realized - as it has basically kidnapped not only our bodies, but our minds and emotions. To stay clean, we need to learn how to change that.
To start switching the thinking, I suggest what worked for me. I had to work on my attitude. I started with simple steps, like writing (not just thinking!) out a gratitude list of all the things I was grateful for in my life. If I wasn't 'feeling' grateful, the list was pretty forced to begin with: I'm grateful for my eyesight, I'm grateful for my legs, etc. But in time, it came easier, until it just flowed from me. Gratitude. A grateful heart is going to alter our thinking into more positive thoughts.
If it helps, write down a list of pros about getting clean. Seriously - look at it on paper. Then look at a list of the pros of staying addicted. (You can do the same thing with the "cons," if you wish.)
Please try out an NA or AA meeting, as Teri will tell you... it's an amazing source of support and guidance. It helps so much to be among others who are going through the same thing - and to know we are not 'bad' people, just 'sick' people, with a chronic, progressive disease - who are trying to get well. With acceptance that this is a disease, we become able to 'forgive ourselves for allowing this to happen' -- as it really wasn't something we had a clear choice about. We had that pre-disposition to addiction before we ever took that first pill - and we never knew where it would lead.
Be gentle with yourself. Reward yourself for every triumph. Reward with whatever works best for you: a bubble bath, a massage, a shopping trip, a banana split... lol... anything! We need to remind ourselves that we are on the right path - and accomplishing it!!
My thoughts and prayers are with you, SuperMom...
Hugs,
Ruth
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11-07-2009, 10:14 AM
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Originally Posted by supermomhelp OMG....how bad will the wd be after being on only 1 for a few days of the taper???
I'm questioning why I am doing this. My head hurts, I'm achy all over, my stomach is a mess, I'm shaky....sigh...I'm not liking this and I'm only a day in... | Hi Supermom
just let some time pass after a couple days you will start to feel better and you can put this all behind you...just tell yourself you have the flu kick back and take care of yourself and I promise things will get better...
talk to you soon, Melinda |
11-09-2009, 10:33 AM
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GOOD MORNING!~
I'm here, I'm alive, and I have no pills in my system....I had a little set back this weekend, but did not fully relapse, at least I dont' think so...long story, I'll try to catch you up 
As many of you know I've been sick, thought it was a cold but had the lurking suspecion it was bronchitis again...well, it was. I went in on Saturday and was diagnosed. No big deal, except I was given a cough syrup with codine along with antibiotics. Now, mind you, I had taken my last full vic on Thursday morning around 7am or so. Saturday I was coughing so bad I was throwing up, couldn't breathe, etc. I talked with Teri (my guardian angel) and she tried to explain to me about how it could set me back if I took it, and she was absolutely right. But I DID end up taking some of the cough syrup through the day on Saturday.  Sunday I started feeling better, lots of cold ease, fresh air, theraflu etc....Today I'm at work just taking antibiotics and drinking lots of tea. So I guess then I really can only count my X's from Sunday?!?!? Not really sure there....what do you guys think?
I have to say out loud to you all, YOU ARE ALL SUCH BLESSINGS!!!!! I couldn't find the will to hardly reply to emails, to speak, to do anything but curl up in a bath and let my thoughts consume me. Teri especially, kept writing to me. Even if I didn't reply, she just kept right along coaching me, inspiring me....hour after hour. Makes me tear up even typing it. The words from herself as well as ALL of you, no matter how small you think they might have been, were absolutley INSTRUMENTAL in getting me here today. I am by NO means cured. I am still sick with this illness, still an ADDICT. But I am one day closer to being freed. And you all are the ones that were helpful in freeing me....so I THANK YOU...and I send a HUGE HUG to you all. I love you for believing so much in me, especially when I had no belief in myself.
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11-09-2009, 06:55 PM
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Thank you Ruth....everything single wonderful thing Teri has said about you is so true. You have a way with words.
I think you are so right in what you describe about the words we say to ourselves. That little voice we have, telling us we are bad, we NEED the pill, jus this once....that voice is our own. We have to accept it that it will be a part of us, and learn to not only resist what it speaks to us, but also to replace it with that other voice, the one that pushes us on. That voice is different for each of us I think. Mine comes to me through my fathers eyes and my daughters tone.....I imagine the two of them coming through loud and clear, reminding me why I'm doing this. I dont know why, but they are the two that I feel I've affected the most.
Thank you for all your words.....they continue to stick with me daily. Quote:
Originally Posted by ARTIST658 Hey there SuperMom,
BRAVO!!!! You are doing it, hon!!! Hard though it is, you are succeeding!
Teri (TTTdogs) suggested I see if I can offer a little reassurance to you, as you are at such a key turning point this weekend. I just read through (MOST!) of your thread - and my heart can feel your struggle. I know that struggle well - so well, as it was my life, years ago. The mind games are horrible - that's our toughest struggle. But we can get past them, I promise.
Having tapered down to just one pill by the end, the final plunge into full recovery is not going to be that drastic to your body. It isn't like plunging off from the highest diving board... instead, you're just kind of slipping into the water. (Bad analogy!) Much of what you're feeling physically now is also being sick on top of it, period. Your body isn't reacting so much as your mind is.
Right now, your biggest problem is all right in between your ears. And our minds can be our greatest asset at this time - or our greatest liability. I'm sure, if you plan to work in this field, you know far more than I do about this kind of thing. But what I've learned, I learned the hard way, by practice. And you're finding out that there is world of difference between book learning and life learning - and yes, this experience is going to be invaluable to you as a therapist. No book could teach you this!
With practice, and lots of it, I've learned some techniques to control my thoughts, to a great extent. I didn't even realize I had that choice before. I was a person who beat on myself mercilessly in the past, and never even realized I was doing it, until I paid attention to that voice in my head.
Upon consciously listening, I was stunned - to learn I was speaking to myself in ways that I couldn't possibly talk to another person, but I did it to me! So it took a lot of attention to 'catch' myself berating myself - and replacing those thoughts with more positive ones. Think how you'd talk to a client if they were going through this. You'd be encouraging, uplifting and positive - you certainly wouldn't say to them, "Hey, this is impossible, you can't do this, it's going to be terrible, you'll hate this."
Well, we believe the things we tell ourselves - so if we're telling ourselves this will be awful and impossible to master, that's what we'll believe - and also, what we'll create.
Keep in mind, the addictive mind is going to be working overtime right now - your disease is going to scream in your ears to try to get you to go back to addiction. It's a far more powerful disease than we ever realized - as it has basically kidnapped not only our bodies, but our minds and emotions. To stay clean, we need to learn how to change that.
To start switching the thinking, I suggest what worked for me. I had to work on my attitude. I started with simple steps, like writing (not just thinking!) out a gratitude list of all the things I was grateful for in my life. If I wasn't 'feeling' grateful, the list was pretty forced to begin with: I'm grateful for my eyesight, I'm grateful for my legs, etc. But in time, it came easier, until it just flowed from me. Gratitude. A grateful heart is going to alter our thinking into more positive thoughts.
If it helps, write down a list of pros about getting clean. Seriously - look at it on paper. Then look at a list of the pros of staying addicted. (You can do the same thing with the "cons," if you wish.)
Please try out an NA or AA meeting, as Teri will tell you... it's an amazing source of support and guidance. It helps so much to be among others who are going through the same thing - and to know we are not 'bad' people, just 'sick' people, with a chronic, progressive disease - who are trying to get well. With acceptance that this is a disease, we become able to 'forgive ourselves for allowing this to happen' -- as it really wasn't something we had a clear choice about. We had that pre-disposition to addiction before we ever took that first pill - and we never knew where it would lead.
Be gentle with yourself. Reward yourself for every triumph. Reward with whatever works best for you: a bubble bath, a massage, a shopping trip, a banana split... lol... anything! We need to remind ourselves that we are on the right path - and accomplishing it!!
My thoughts and prayers are with you, SuperMom...
Hugs,
Ruth
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11-10-2009, 04:58 AM
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Good morning, SuperMom!
I'm sorry to hear about the setback this past weekend, and pray you are feeling better. It's a really 'dicey' thing when we're confronted with legitimate problems requiring medication. It's next to impossible for our minds to discriminate between needing the drug and wanting the drug. And regardless if the reason was legitimate, we are left with that substance IN our bodies... influencing our minds, affecting our emotions - and that certainly feels like a setback.
No need to worry about how many X's are on the calendar, hon... lol... we only have today. We can only focus on staying clean for ONE day - that's about all we can control. The important thing is not that you 'damaged' your clean time, it's that you made it harder on yourself to get the thinking back in place that you need to focus on recovery.
Once we introduce a mood-altering substance (like codeine), our emotions and thinking go completely backwards for a while... sometimes, for good. That's what happened to me back in 2001 - I'd been clean for over 11 years, and one prescription is all it took to steal my recovery; it was another 2 years of struggling before I could stop for good once again. I wouldn't want to see that happen to anyone else. It's an awfully dark and lonely place, knowing we have a serious problem and feeling absolutely torn about having what it takes to turn things around.
Recovery and addiction isn't like a revolving doorway - that we can step outside for a moment, take a pill for that particular ailment, then get right back inside that door when we're done needing the medication. It doesn't work that way easily - or successfully. Once we are outside, back into the disease, we are under its control, not our own.
That's why it's so important to maintain a daily attitude of 'constant vigilance' about our recovery. We can't afford the luxury of allowing our disease to get any foothold on our minds or emotions.
So - getting back to that one day at a time principle, how are you doing - today???
Hugs and prayers,
Ruth
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11-10-2009, 09:58 AM
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I'm doing good today! It's been since Thursday that I've had a pill and Saturday since I've had the cough syrup. Cough is getting much better , it's starting to break up in my chest. Taking my antibiotics still and lots of tea!
WD symptoms physically are gone...none to speak of at all. (knock on wood) But the mental game is there, still playing out in front of me every now and then. It's not as bad as I thought yet though. I'm just playing it day by day.
So today is my 3rd X for anything in my system!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! |
11-11-2009, 09:55 AM
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Hump Day! Doing okay I suppose. Having a lot of stress in my life right now with my husband. He's questioning everything I do. Everything I say, all my friends everything in my life. I realize that he should not trust me 100% but he is taking things to a disturbing level. He goes online and checks my phone records everyday, swears that there is something going on with a friend of mine and myself. (she's a lesbian and has had a lot of mental issues in the past year of our friendship. she's kinda one of thos toxic friends that I can't help but still be friends with. she does not abuse drugs or anythign, just plays alot of dramatic mind games)
I don't know how to approach him with this. I dont' know if we are going to be able to recover from this with me. I think it may be too frar gone. |
11-12-2009, 08:12 AM
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Good morning, Supermom,
Breatheeee, honey... you're going to be ok. This is tough stuff you're going through - the physical withdrawal, the new raw emotions AND being confronted with the consequences of your past drug use... it's overwhelming at times. I know, I have been there - it's frightening and stressful at a time that we feel we can least deal with anything frightening or stressful.
Here's a part when meetings can be a lifesaver. I know it's hard to get the courage up to go to one, but trust Teri ("morphine prison") on this... you'll be so grateful after you do it. You'll be surrounded by people who have walked in those very shoes, felt those same feelings and gotten through it without returning to drugs. You'll be among 'family' in a way you haven't known before. You don't have to participate if you don't want to - no one is there to judge you, as we are all nervous wrecks going into our first meeting!
As for hubby, that's hard - I know. He doesn't trust you, given what's happened. He's probably scared, too - and doesn't know what to believe. Give him time to do his own healing, as trust doesn't return quickly. We, as addicts, tend to make the people around us more than a little crazy by our behavior -- we don't even realize how much, until we're well beyond the drugs. When we were under the influence, we didn't "feel" the impact of what our drugs were doing to our families - but our families didn't have that drug numbing their feelings. They were stuck feeling completely overwhelmed, angry, scared... and whatever else.
It's generally suggested in NA that we don't make any major decisions during our first year clean. No major changes in relationships, jobs, moving, etc. - as we can't really trust our stability to making that kind of decision. We need to focus on getting clean - and staying clean - and trying to develop habits and behaviors that are condusive to staying clean. The best way to do that? Meetings - meetings - and more meetings! Until you try it, it's next to impossible for me to describe how or why they help.
There are also 12-step groups (Naranon or Alanon) for family members to pursue their own recovery and healing. That kind of group would probably help your hubby tremendously; but it's hard to suggest that to him, until you're pursuing your own meetings... Those groups will help him to deal with his own feelings and distrust - and find ways of allowing you to recover at your own pace, without adding to your burden.
Try not to let these obstacles throw you from doing what you need to do right now. This is going to take time to work itself out and in the meantime, what is MOST important for you is to take care of yourself. "First Things First" they say in the program... meaning... focus on your recovery ahead of anything else right now - nothing will work out in any meaningful way, if you lose sight of that priority.
God bless,
Ruth
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11-12-2009, 09:49 AM
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Originally Posted by supermom help Hump Day! Doing okay I suppose. Having a lot of stress in my life right now with my husband. He's questioning everything I do. Everything I say, all my friends everything in my life. I realize that he should not trust me 100% but he is taking things to a disturbing level. He goes online and checks my phone records everyday, swears that there is something going on with a friend of mine and myself. (she's a lesbian and has had a lot of mental issues in the past year of our friendship. she's kinda one of thos toxic friends that I can't help but still be friends with. she does not abuse drugs or anythign, just plays alot of dramatic mind games)
I don't know how to approach him with this. I dont' know if we are going to be able to recover from this with me. I think it may be too frar gone. | Hi Supermom
well I think it is time to set your hubby down and have a little talk..yea ok you may have screwed things up but your fixing them now so you need to tell him to back off and let you show him you can do this with out being treated like a child, tell him you need his support not a father figure...
I would say I love you but I need you to have my back right now help me pull myself up,,,,I think if you sit him down and tell him this he will feel more like a part of your recovery and not threatend by it...
keep us posted on how you are doing
Talk to you soon, Melinda |
11-12-2009, 11:49 AM
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Today has been such a hard day already....I feel so anxious, tired, mentally gone. I am having a difficult time right now... |
11-12-2009, 02:38 PM
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Originally Posted by supermomhelp Today has been such a hard day already....I feel so anxious, tired, mentally gone. I am having a difficult time right now... |
Oh hon, I feel for you - it's an awful spot you're in... take it really slow, take on nothing more than you absolutely have to, when you're feeling like this. Tell yourself that your biggest accomplishment that you NEED to do today is to stay away from a single pill - that's it. Anything else can wait. Nurture yourself and your recovery, as when we feel that way, we're in a dangerous spot, at high risk for slipping back into the pills. Tell hubby how you're feeling - and ask for him to help to support you JUST by not piling anything extra on you today. Breathe in, breathe out - each minute is another minute closer to the life you want to have, free of any drugs. It WILL get easier, I promise. Much easier. Please, please, don't give up before the miracle happens... you are worth it.
Mega hugs,
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11-13-2009, 09:38 AM
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Didnt take anything....drove by the pharmacy 4 times yesterday while in and out of town. I won't lie, I thought about it. I keep thinking, I have this huge exam, I have this huge interview, I can do JUST one. I need just one. Just for this one huge thing. But then I keep this other voice with me that says, how GREAT it will be when I get through this one HUGE exam and this one HUGE interview without the need of a pill....without a false me. It will be just ME this time. Let's see how I do....
Ugh....this is harder than I imgined though. When exactly am I considered over to the other side?????? |
11-13-2009, 05:04 PM
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So, today is Day 7....one whole entire week without any pills of any sort!!! I'm elated. ANNNNNND....I wanna rush right out and pick up my script! But I won't. It's just my mind playing tricks on me, and I know that, it's just hard.
One thing that I desperately need to know is WHEN does your stomach get back to normal?!?!?! I would have thought that by now I'd be over the physical, but I have the most nervous stomach ever..... |
11-13-2009, 05:49 PM
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Originally Posted by supermomhelp So, today is Day 7....one whole entire week without any pills of any sort!!! I'm elated. ANNNNNND....I wanna rush right out and pick up my script! But I won't. It's just my mind playing tricks on me, and I know that, it's just hard.
One thing that I desperately need to know is WHEN does your stomach get back to normal?!?!?! I would have thought that by now I'd be over the physical, but I have the most nervous stomach ever..... |
A week clean is outstanding! You deserve to be proud of yourself. The easiest part is going without for a few days. Anyone can do that, but sticking with it, STAYING clean, that is the real miracle.
After a week the very worst physical part of this should be behind you. Beyond this it's mental/emotional challenges.  Remember that you never have to use again. That is very cool! Don't use NO MATTER WHAT and this will improve every day. You can do this supermom! You're so close to being past the worst of it. Focus on the good things that are about to happen in your life. Make yourself the most important part of your life and you'll soon be able to visualize all the really cool things that are about to happen for you. Good luck and God bless.
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11-15-2009, 01:36 AM
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yay for supermom. keep on the right track pal.,
you ARE on the other side, and stay there,.
another X on the calendar
be real proud of yourself, and go for it.
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11-15-2009, 02:21 AM
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A nervous stomach may be more psychological than physical, And the psychological takes longer than the physical to get better but you've come so far, done a great job, supermom and you should be real real proud.... |
11-15-2009, 02:35 AM
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Supermom,
You are doing great. I am really proud of you. You are on this journey for a reason. If you can find the meaning of that reason, like I did, then you will find the secret to staying clean. It;s like the movie City Slickers and Curley talks about the "One Thing". I hope you have seen it, lol. |
11-15-2009, 05:58 AM
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Morning SuperMom,
YAYYY on one week!! That's absolutely wonderful, hon. As I read of your pharmacy "drive-bys" you brought me back to my own. Sometimes, it just felt like those pills were calling me by name. That "quick fix" of immediate gratification was so very hard to fight. My suggestion? THINK IT THROUGH - ALL the way. When the temptation comes (and it does!), make yourself think through exactly where those pills would take you. The euphoria would last such a short time, and be followed by a long, painful nightmare. We have to remember that - we have to know, down deep in our soul, that there is NO relief left in pills.
I must admit, I didn't do it right the first time - or the second or third - I became a chronic relapser. I kept going back to pills ... and re-lived the nightmare, again and again. The result of picking up again was NEVER good - it never produced the desired effect. But I was a hard-headed woman, determined to show that I was different, that I could handle it, that there was some 'relief' left in a pill. You don't have to put yourself through that misery, honey. You never have to go through this "first week" again!
As for the nervous stomach, I'd probably try something like omeprazole (prilosec) or immodium, depending on the symptoms you're having. I do believe that will ease in time, so long as you stay away from pills. When we get clean, ALL of our body has to re-teach itself how to operate normally, without a pill - and that takes time.
The other side? I smile. For some of us, the "other side" is a clear moment that we realize... the worst is behind me, and I'm actually feeling hopeful and good about the future. For some, it's a gradual thing. It's the return of HOPE, the return of JOY, the return of PEACE to our lives. It's not that the 'struggle' is completely over, it's that we realize we have turned a corner - and what lays ahead is something to look forward to, not fear!
Personally, like Teri, I found an endless supply of that "other side" through regular NA meetings. The HOPE I've gained through NA meetings was nothing short of amazing. And I do admit, I've become a "hope junkie" now - that's my substitute drug... 
Hopeful hugs,
Ruth
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11-22-2009, 03:47 PM
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| | Supermom, just checking in.......
Hey Girl,
Just checking in to see how you are doing ------------
Just to let you know I - (we) care!
HUGS TTT |
11-23-2009, 04:47 PM
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I'm still here. Still battling. Still taking it one day at a time. Wish I could say that I feel great and I'm fine but I'm not completley. It's still so hard...especially since I've been so sick. I can't get this chest cold, bronch thing kicked. Dr. said it didn't look like pneumonia but I'm just miserable.
As for the wd...still sucks but days are good and better everyday. I am TRYING to talk myself into/out of a meeting tonight ....I can't seem to get the courage. And there's only a few hours left....ADVICE? |
11-23-2009, 04:58 PM
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Supermom,
With the flu season being so bad I think others might be better if you stay home until you are healthy. Would hate for you to get someone sick. I love the idea of you going to a meeting. It would be really good for you if you think you need the support. I personally use this site as my support. I am so busy and I travel a lot for work so I have a hard time finding the time for meetings, plus I am chicken and private about this old monkey!! lol I know that Robert swears by them and I believe him. He hasn't busted my chops for not going to one thank goodness, lol. (just joshing Robert!) But when you feel better and you feel like the support would be helpful I would definately look into it! Take care. You are doing great. Lots of things to be thankful for right? Happy Thanksgiving girl. |
11-23-2009, 05:04 PM
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hey supermom
im off work with the flu today also. its not even flu season here.
i felt it start yesterday, the tickly throat, and i was like oh no i know what that means.
and i coughed all night.
so im feelin it too mate, hope you come right soon, i took the day off so i dont spread it round the kids i work with. but methinks i probably got it off one of them anyway.
oh well.
thinkin of you
cheeky |
11-23-2009, 05:09 PM
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Hi girls
I went to one meeting...It was ok...I think that they could be helpful tho...
everyone was real nice and you don't have to say a thing if you don't want to..
but I think you all know how much I like to talk so you know I was telling everyone my story...now we go to celebrate recovery and my daughter goes to the young adults program she has never done drugs but it is about anything you may be struggling with , LOL she was just like me telling anyone that would listen to her story....even about me  ...
so dont be scared just get out there and see what your missing...
Talk to ya later, Melinda |
11-23-2009, 05:22 PM
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cheeky AND super,
Hope you are both feeling better and over this damned flu. I was one of the lucky ones who was eligible for the flu AND the swine flu shot. No one else I know has been able to find a swine flu shoot around here. In my case, age and chronic lung disease and diabetes and heart disease allowed me to get it. My doc actually called and notified me that I had to come in for it. So, while I might die from any of the aforementioned diseases, I will definitely not die of flu or swine flu this year .
Mom, I LOVE your honesty, as in "im elated...... and I wanna run out and get my script".... Don't we all truly feel that way on some level deep down? But you didnt do that and stuck with the plan and should be so incredibly proud of yourself for doing that. While I've done meetings and found they were never MY thing, I can say from my heart, they work wonders if you let them. Support and no doing this alone are the most important things.
Cheeky, you just keep doing what you're doing. You're truly so so close. I have all the faith in the world in you, my friend.
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