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10-27-2009, 03:12 PM
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Opee,
One a day!!!!! Did you ever think??? I know I knew you could do it. I could tell this time was different. I bet you hardly have any issues when you jump off, I bet maybe a day or two of very slight discomfort and then bam, you are free!! You never have to use again or go through detox again. I am so proud of you. I am at 8 mos!! It is all just a bad memory for me. How has the taper been? Honestly? Was it hard or is it just the matter of sticking too it and not popping a few to get high? I think it would be good for people to know. I am really excited and curious to know if you even have any syptoms when you jump. one a day? Thats hardly anything at all in your system. Please do yourself a favor and make sure you bounce your source. That is important. Believe me, about one to two months out when all the physical is past and a distant memory is when that urge will really hit you, at least it did me. Just push it out of your head. Didn't take long to go away. Then again at about 5 months the same thing. Stay strong!! You are awesome.
Shawn, I hope you are taking notes! This is how you stay on a taper. You can do it. Your sense of humor will get you through!!  |
10-27-2009, 03:14 PM
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Originally Posted by caughtagain  Hey Opee, it looks like you are well on your way man! I just wanted to pop in and tell you how proud I am of you. Man time flys.... Your friend CA | Hey Pal,
Good to hear from you. Hope things are going well for you. Yeah, time does fly and it's easy to get wrapped up in your own stuff. Keep in touch, Buddy!
Opee |
10-28-2009, 10:55 AM
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Originally Posted by Freedom4me Opee,
One a day!!!!! Did you ever think??? I know I knew you could do it. I could tell this time was different. I bet you hardly have any issues when you jump off, I bet maybe a day or two of very slight discomfort and then bam, you are free!! You never have to use again or go through detox again. I am so proud of you. I am at 8 mos!! It is all just a bad memory for me. How has the taper been? Honestly? Was it hard or is it just the matter of sticking too it and not popping a few to get high? I think it would be good for people to know. I am really excited and curious to know if you even have any syptoms when you jump. one a day? Thats hardly anything at all in your system. Please do yourself a favor and make sure you bounce your source. That is important. Believe me, about one to two months out when all the physical is past and a distant memory is when that urge will really hit you, at least it did me. Just push it out of your head. Didn't take long to go away. Then again at about 5 months the same thing. Stay strong!! You are awesome.
Shawn, I hope you are taking notes! This is how you stay on a taper. You can do it. Your sense of humor will get you through!! | Thanks Free; I am taking notes along with the visual you gave me. Mmmm. I love me some football, beer, cheerleaders and the other stuff you said.
Thanks!
Sugar Shawn |
10-28-2009, 12:29 PM
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Two, four, six, eight, who do we appreciate? lol |
10-28-2009, 07:00 PM
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Ah Perc, what a welcome addition you are to this thread. Seriously, Man, you're doing good.
In answer to your question, Jen, I'll be jumping Saturday. I have 2 left and really don't even need them at this point, but it goes against my nature to flush them. I really don't think I'll have much of any W/D, to be honest. This has been like a 3-4 week process, but considering what it took to get me here, that ain't so bad. It may seem like I've been dragging this out, but I know my body and I know where I've been and I just wasn't taking any chances. Honestly, I never did pop a few extra to get a buzz, because I know that your tolerance never goes away. It will still take me 8 to get where I wanted to be (that sounds like such a junkie, I can't believe what I used to be....[shiver]), and that was 4-5 days of a taper. If I didn't know so much, I probably would have, but taking 4 would have been a waste. I've really been thru the mill on these things and have an incredible amount of street knowledge. A Dr. may disagree with me, but I know what's what. I would suggest to anyone reading, that even a month later, your tolerance isn't going to change, maybe very very slightly, if at all. These pills actually change the chemicals in your brain forever. Somebody correct me if I'm wrong, but I do not believe I am.
This nightmare is almost over, I really look forward to my Day One post (again....). For. The. Last. Time.
Regards,
Opee
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10-29-2009, 05:58 PM
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Opee; It was nice speaking with you the other eve. That's right friends! I really spoke to the man! I had butterflies! He had me at "Hello". Then when He said "how are you"? I fell out! Unbelievable! It made shaking hands with Mick Jagger and meeting the Pope, pale in comparison. Pope? Hmmmm. Anyways, I know now that if I died tonight, my life is complete.
Opee; Your 'jumping' Saturday. Your jumping from a sidewalk to a feather pillow. You know, know, know that it will be easy. You can do it, man! ( I'm patting you on the back in a manly way) I luv ya Bud! (I'm hugging you in a non-gay fashion). Keep us informed.
Peace
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10-29-2009, 07:35 PM
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| | Good Luck Opee - Perk - you crack me up!
Perk,
Just had to chime in and let you know - you have a real gift my dear friend - for making folks laugh - if we all had a friend like you to feed us your humor daily WE WOULD NEVER OF HAD THE NEED FOR DRUGS - you my dear man are a human "pain killer"!
Thanks from me and many more I am sure......
OPEE - YOU are the man - great job pal - a real inspiration to all - your story WILL save lives - thanks for your courage ..... Good luck on getting to the other side! There is a party going on over here - ...............
HUGS TTT |
10-30-2009, 01:21 PM
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| | Jumped Early - Day One (for the last time)
Hey All,
Today is the day. Day One. No point dragging it out any further, I'm as ready as I'm ever going to be. It's noon and I feel fine. From past experiences it really nails me on Day Three, it is what it is. I don't think this will be bad, but I've never tried kicking this way. Either way, tomorrow will be Day Tow and Sunday will be Day Three, and so on.
Thanks for all the support, Everyone, I'll be checking daily.
Regards,
Opee |
10-30-2009, 01:34 PM
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Opee,
WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO. Rock on my friend. You can do this. It is just going to be a mental thing for you. Exercise, exercise and more exercise, really get those natural endorphines kickin in!! |
10-30-2009, 02:07 PM
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Originally Posted by Freedom4me Opee,
WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO. Rock on my friend. You can do this. It is just going to be a mental thing for you. Exercise, exercise and more exercise, really get those natural endorphines kickin in!! | Thanks, Jen, I really have to credit you. You made me take a hard look at myself and helped me discover the reasons for my usage. You're a cool lady. I enjoyed your rants at sheslowlystops; richly deserved. I've never seen you so fired up or use coarse language, it was great. I'm glad she's banned. Loser, 'nuff said. Moving on, thanks for sticking with me.
CA - thanks, Pal. You took a vested interest in me, and I appreciate you. I'll be joining you shortly, this time ain't no bulls***!
One thing, I woke up with a massive charlie horse this morning! I was freaking out and thrashing, weirdest damn thing in the world. Scared the ******** out of girlfriend, she probably thought I was having some sort of bizarre seizure. All you can do is straighten your leg this way and that. It sucked, Man. My calves are killing me, I can't wait to go trick or treating tomorrow (first time without pills - wonder if I'll notice more than the pain in my legs  )........
Oh, in reading Robert's posts, I realized I have used foul language probably more than is appropriate. My apologies on that, I will be very cognizant of that in the future.
Talk to you all soon!
Opee |
10-31-2009, 02:21 AM
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Hi Opee
I have been busy at work this week but WOW look at you go...
Proud of you...
I have to laugh I can just see you hopping around the room with your charlie horse...With my fibro I get them all the time...if you can just try to walk them off..that is about the only way to get rid of them....
well be waititng to see how your doing tomorrow...
Talk to you soon, Melinda
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10-31-2009, 10:52 AM
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Hey All -
Doing OK. A little stomach discomfort and a head ache (2 Excederin took care of it) and some VERY sore muscles is all I have.
Yes, I acted very bizarre when I got that charlie horse. I woke bolt ipright in bed and started twisting all around trying to get rid of it. Almost as bad as the night sweats. It was a funny scene now that I look at it. Haven't had one in years, forgot how awful they were.
All in all, I feel OK. This was THE only way to do this, cold turkey is not a reasonable option for someone at my level who has a job. If you have 1-2 weeks to feel like dying at home, different story. I don;t have that luxury.
Have a great Halloween, can't wait to limp around the neighborhood tonight with Darth Vader......
Opee |
11-01-2009, 02:53 PM
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Opee; How ya doing today? Thinking about you. Prayers are coming your way.
Shawn |
11-02-2009, 07:56 AM
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Hey Opee, I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. You are doing it man!!! I hope today is going well for you. |
11-02-2009, 01:05 PM
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Hey All -
The first 2 days were too easy, they gave me a false sense of security. Yesterday was not a great (or even good) day and today isn't either. But, from my MANY previous experiences, Day's 3-5 are the worst, so I shouldn't be surprised. I can say I feel better then I ever have on a Day 4, but not great. Stomach discomfort, blahs, and zero energy. It means nothing, it changes nothing. If anything, it pisses me off more at myself and even strengthens my resolve, if that's possible. Maybe if I'd tapered another week...Who knows? Coulda, ashoulda, woulda.... I doubt 1 more week would have made enough of a difference to matter, I was just sick of it and ready to move, that's why I jumped 2 days early. Today is a little better than yesterday, so my withdrawls are exactly like they have been in the past timeline wise, just less severe.
As much as I hate to say it, but I have to be honest, if I had not done this S L O W taper (thanks again, Riff) yesterday I would have been so bad I would have made calls. Cripes, already had 1 call Sat night. I said, "Dude, I told you, I'm not interested, OK? I'm with my son. Have a great Halloween, I gotta go." And then yesterday, another calla, "got anything to trade [for Norco's]?" "Nope, sorry, Man, like I told you, I'm out." Had I not gone this route I would have spent a considerable portion of yesterday running here for this thing, then running there to trade it for another thing, and so on. God, it's just an intricate spiderweb of sources I have cultivated over the years. I thought they got it, but I'm not surprised no one took me seriously. I wouldn't if I were them.
In summary, yesterday sucked hard, today sucks, and I'm betting tomorrow will suck mildly. As I said, this is exactly like every other time, just way less severe so that it is manageable. In the past, like a heroin junkie, after @10-12 hours of my last usage, W/D would start to kick in and build to a crescendo @ Day 3-4. I am at work - training someone due to some personnel shakeups (PERFECT!) but making it through.
I am committed to this and I am doing it, as I said 3 or so weeks ago. Thanks for the inquiries, I'll update at least once daily. I got this by the A$$.
Opee |
11-02-2009, 02:38 PM
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Keep going Opee. You know the drill. IT WILL get better. your tough, so Tough it out. minute by minute man. we are here for you, Thanks for your honesty, I am sure it has helped many..... CA
Work the Process, understand the process, then kick the poop out of the hiccups you encounter. It's a fight, your a warrior. You know what you need to do, so do it.. Your friend CA |
11-02-2009, 08:45 PM
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Originally Posted by caughtagain Keep going Opee. You know the drill. IT WILL get better. your tough, so Tough it out. minute by minute man. we are here for you, Thanks for your honesty, I am sure it has helped many..... CA
Work the Process, understand the process, then kick the poop out of the hiccups you encounter. It's a fight, your a warrior. You know what you need to do, so do it.. Your friend CA | Just strapped on my Full Plate Mail, Brother. Come get some!!! |
11-03-2009, 07:09 AM
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Have a great day my friend. Look around, the world is much nicer without the fog. that is unless there really is a fog.... LOL but you get the point. You strapped a sack on, you Tapered and YOU WON. Right on Brother. Much respect. I could never taper... Props to you my friend.... CA |
11-03-2009, 10:44 AM
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Opski,
I am on my way home from Virginia., in dallas waiting for connecting flight. You have come so far. You have a great gal. You have a great son. You are a great man. Hang tough. Duke it out. You can do this. Life is waiting for you my friend. You are off the merry-go-round. Bad moments for sure, but you can beat them. The longer it goes, the less they are. It's a head game. You don't have enough in your system for it to be anything else now. You are a tough son of a gun to taper like you did... I could never have done that, no way. Plane is boarding soon so i will be back later from Cali. |
11-03-2009, 11:21 AM
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| | Day 5 - No Change
Thanks, All. Still feel blah, lethargic, etc. I must say, in all my previous detoxes, this is by far the mildest Day 5, but it still sucks. I did sleep last night, in patches. Fell asleep on the couch at 11:30, woke up at 12:30 and went to bed and fell asleep in 2 seconds. Man-o-man, I woke up at 2:30 with THE worst case of night sweats. One of my worst side effects when I am kicking (aside from stomach issues - we'll leave it at that) is the chills. I was freezing so I slept in pajamas and woke up at 2:30 absolutely drenched. Had to peel off my clothes and sleep on towels. Man, I hate that. But, I slept thru again until my alarm, but still exhausted.
Actually, I have taken VERY little Klonopin. I did Sunday, but not yesterday or today at work. It makes me too tired and foggy, but I will when I get home. In the old days I'd be popping them like Tic-Tacs, just trying to feel "something different." At this point, I just want that "something different" to be normal. Aside from my ADD meds, the only thing I have taken is a few Klonopin, a few Soma and Ambien. Not bad. I'm not just switching up pills to abuse, as I've taken the few I just mentioned sparingly.
Trucking on through, from past experiences, it rarely gets worse after Day 5, but this is unlike any other detox, so I really have no idea what to expect. Just pushing on thru life and dealing with it. I feel better than I do if I had a bad hangover, and I've worked a 12 hour day with one of those MANY times.
I am cool, I will make it. Talk soon.
Ciao,
Opee |
11-03-2009, 07:00 PM
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I see this thread has a 5 Star Rating. Not sure what that means, but 3,000 + views means something. It means alot of views without replies, which is fine. It took me 2 months of reading before I posted anything.
I am curious as to how a 5 star rating is applied and who applied it. Thanks, really!
Opee |
11-03-2009, 07:49 PM
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5 stars means you are bad a$$. You are helping people and giving hope. You are right there my friend. I know that you know that but had to remind you. Push on. You will feel blah for ahwile, I promise, I did. IT GOES AWAY AND YOU WILL FEEL NORMAL AGAIN SOON. I promise you. You can't imagine what it feels like and not have the first friggen thing you think of is those stupid pills. It is truley worth it and liberating. Hang tough my friend. I am going through this with you. |
11-04-2009, 12:41 AM
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...Dont worry bro people are reading and pulling for you! I have been reading this one for a while now. U have done this before, A few more 12 hour days with a hang over and it will lighten up. Keep it up man!
Ryan |
11-04-2009, 12:18 PM
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Ok, that answers that. "You are a bas a$$." Sweet, thanks.
Day 6, and it is better than yesterday, so the cycle is the same, just less severe than the others. I don't feel great, I don't feel terrible. Definitely better today. Off tomorrow, which is great.
Thanks for all the kind words and views, Guys. I really had no idea. As I've said, I came here to help myself, but if others are being helped also, so much the better.
Learn from me. Don't put yourself through this. It's a blast for a while, but the tables turn before you know it.
I am a bad ass in regards to my pill fight. I rather like that.
Doing better, things are progressing as they should. It's really just the blah's at this point. I am making it, slowly but surely (surely being the operative word).
Much Love,
Opee |
11-05-2009, 10:07 AM
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Hey All,
Went to bed feeling 50%, woke up feeling 70%. The worst is behind me. I'm off and it's g/f's birthday so we'll be out and about. Hope everyone has a great day. I plan on having one.
Cheers!
Opee |
11-05-2009, 10:49 AM
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Originally Posted by Opee Hey All,
Went to bed feeling 50%, woke up feeling 70%. The worst is behind me. I'm off and it's g/f's birthday so we'll be out and about. Hope everyone has a great day. I plan on having one.
Cheers!
Opee |
Hey dude! You've turned that big corner and I couldn't be happier for you. Each day will get a little better now. You've come a long ways this time and this one is going to be it. I can feel it!
You've been through lots here since you began with your first post but you've gotten back up and done it again when you fell. I think this time you're going to make it. Remember that YOU NEVER HAVE TO USE AGAIN! That is awesome! Be proud of yourself. God bless. 
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11-06-2009, 01:04 PM
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Originally Posted by Robert_325 Hey dude! You've turned that big corner and I couldn't be happier for you. Each day will get a little better now. You've come a long ways this time and this one is going to be it. I can feel it!
You've been through lots here since you began with your first post but you've gotten back up and done it again when you fell. I think this time you're going to make it. Remember that YOU NEVER HAVE TO USE AGAIN! That is awesome! Be proud of yourself. God bless. | Thanks, Man. BIG improvement today. I would rate myself at 80%. I'll take that any day of the week. Each day is better than the one before, and at the end of the day, what more can you ask for?
Good thing, too, because people aren't buying cars and I couldn't even afford these damn things even if I wanted to! Which, of course, I do not.
Thanks again, Robert, there's few people on this earth I respect more.
Opee |
11-06-2009, 01:40 PM
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Hey Ope,
Sound like you have made it. I am just thrilled for you. Doesnt it feel great not to be chasing those dang pills. You will feel better and better. Welcome to a better life. You did the work and you deserve it. Stay in touch. |
11-06-2009, 02:47 PM
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Opee:
I just wanted to pop on here and give you my support and respect.
I have been reading your struggle - man, opiate addiction is a **********!
You are doing great.
Again, I just wanted to let you know that many here on this site are pulling and praying for you.
mottam |
11-06-2009, 04:55 PM
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| | Day 8
Thanks, Mott. It has been a long, grueling month, I'll tell you that for free. Sometimes you just have to hit rock bottom, you know?
I don't care what you say (or even say to yourself) until you are 100% ready in your own mind, you will fail. Again and again.
This last month has not been pleasant. At all. Today was the first day of not feeling shaky at all. I look forward to posting at 11 days, it's the longest I've gone. The real milestone for me is 30 days.
I would not be where I am without ALL of you. I still have a long way to go, as we all know there is a big difference between getting clean and staying clean but if I shut my eyes I can place myself right back in that shower, shaking and vomiting, knowing I have a 12 hour work day ahead of me and I've used up every sick day/favor possible. I will NEVER go back to that place.
Thanks again for all the support and all the views.
Much much love,
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