[Dagen]

After years of pain med use/abuse, I decided it was time to hang it up. As they say in NA meetings "If you use drugs, you end up in an institution, jail, or dead". I've done two of those three in my time and didn't want the third.

I went to a local detox clinic and stayed 6 days. Withdrawl wasn't as bad as i'd thought it would be, I was given Suboxone for 3 days of the six, however I still feel bad. I have no energy or strength but the good news is that i'm not craving.

I've been to a few NA meetings and hearing about everyone's drug use in the past makes me crave, so i've put them on hold for now.

If you are taking pain meds on a regular basis, becareful, it's easy to get wrapped up in them. The two I was prescribed daily turned into twenty in short time. (obiviously I had to resort to other ways of getting them since doctors don't prescribe 20/day).

if ANYONE has been through this recently and isn't on Methadone currently, my question is "when does feeling normal return?"

Thanks for any feedback.

[matt4848]

well.. I am on day twelve, away from suboxone - similar w/d symtoms.

I still cant say I feel anywhere near good, but I can sleep when I try, and with hot showers, and the right nutrition, and EXCERSISE. I know its the hardest thing to do, but any excersise at all, even 10 pushups, will get the endorphins flowing just a little bit, to releive the pressure valve of withdrawls.

I'm still struggling through it on day 12, but every single day is getting better. I still just cant seem to break that mental 'OMG this SUCKS' feeling, but it is getting better.

The first few days, I couldnt even sit longer than 10 minutues or sleep longer than 45 minutues, but now 12 days later I can say it is MUCH better. I know I am still feeling the symptoms but, there is nothing or no one that will ever make me touch it again, and that seems to help.

There is no real answer as people will tell you, but the absolute worst of withdrawls can only really last about 6-7 days, in my experience.

The minor withdrawls and that 'I never want to do ANYTHING' feeling seems to last for a few weeks.

Its the hardest thing I have ever had to do, however IT CAN BE DONE.

All you can do is say 'tomorrow will be better'

and keep a positive mind, if you have to start getting angry at w/ds. I dont wanna recommend anger to do anything stupid, but getting angry at my withdrawls and what I have done seems to help push me through each day.

Know, these will end. Dont think, dont guess, KNOW they will end, and honestly when you think about three years of abuse (me) compared to what three or four weeks of recovery?

Thank god he didnt create withdrawls to last as long as the abuse itself. Our bodies are simply miraculous, if you give it a chance to heal.

I just keep saying to myself over and over, -not this time.

hope this helps
matt