and I am an Addict.

And Im not going to hide behind things or be defensive any longer.

I apologize.

I DO hope that ALL or SOME of my advice to others may have been of some help......

Thank you all.

[hkyjon33]

Hello there ... By no means was i labeling you, trying to attack you or belittle you by my post and i think that you realize that. I just know that if i heard that someone might get shot, i would warn them =p (extreme comparison but effective) I heard a really good saying when i was in detox... once an addict, always an addict....and no truer words have EVER been spoken. Im still an addict and i have been clean for a while (not that people that are clean are better than anyone else b/c we are only one swallow, drink, snort,smoke,shot away from going back).
I am sure that your words have helped many b/c others know that you know what they are going thru. At least with me, i didnt and dont like people commenting about situations that they have never been thru or dont know much about. Im glad that you are being honest with yourself b/c none of us know you like you and at the end of the day you dont have to answer to any of us that are on this site, but you do have to answer to yourself. Be sure that you are doing this for yourself and not because you feel attacked.
If there is anything that you need and think i can help, plz dont hesitate to ask me. Im there for ya and you will be in my prayers ....

p.s. it might sound like i am being an a$$ but im really not trying to be ... im just short, sweet and to the point on top of lack of sleep =) im sorry if i offended you and plz tell me if i have b/c those really are not my intentions....

[cheekysod]

hi deb, yeh i get in trouble all the time for being too straight up,
call it like i see it.
i know sometimes people get a little p!ssed with the way i put things, but i can't help it, it all blurts out,
too honest.
im glad you didnt disappear on us though, good on you.
like above poster, please don't hesitate to ask any questions.
ive been on lots of morphine, opium, heroin, and lastly methadone, before the subs, so trust me i know exactly where you are.
and remember my post, i have a few friends in same boat as you. even tho they are rx'd their morphine, and benzos, they still have a helluva habit.

its a shame more doctors dont realize what they do to people, write, write, write, and as for all the fake conditions psychiatrists are coming up with, man, seen a doco on american pharmaceuticals, add, adhd, sad, all of these things, bi polar, man life is bi polar.
anyway im off track, im just glad you came back.
good luck on whatever you do.
cheeky

[TTTDogs]

Deb,

You have just taken a HUGE step in your life ................ we are all proud of you - and we are all here for you - just speak up when/if you are ready - we are ready to help you thru this!
You can't imagine how great it is on the OTHER SIDE - I just wish I would have started my recovery 10 years ago - but heck - better late than never -

We have your back SIS - just hollar when you are ready!

Proud HUGS TTT

To read all these replies this morning was very inspiring.

I may not have a lot of words for the next few days and no offense intended to anyone.....I just have a lot of thinking to do.

Thank you all for your concern.

[sheslowlystops]

Good luck, Deb. I hope you are doing okay!

[htoth19]

Hi Deb!!!!! I knew you wouldn't leave us!! I'm always here for - well, mostly the cheerleading purposes lol....BUT I am always around if you want to talk too. I'm really glad you decided to stay. That really is a huge step, deb.

~Heather

[newyorkgal]

I just have a statement/question that has nothing to do with this thread really. I've written to Deb on another of her threads and congratulated her for taking a big first step.

I was reading Cheeky's post about American doctors and all the made up conditions that have meds to fix them. Our pharmecutical companies have come up with a pill to treat every ailment, real or imagined. My question is this. What did our parents/grandparents do? How did they manage their pain/depression/anxiety, etc. Did they even have the word depression or anxiety in their vocabularies? We all have to take responsibility for our own actions but boy, the drug companies and the doctors, all lining their pockets at our expense, sure don't help things. We are led to believe that you don't have to feel a thing in life, unless its good and that meds will make you feel good at all times in all ways and that is so not what life really is... Just me thinking out loud...If not for the massive availability, would there be so many of us in the same boat?
NYG