Klonopinchick, I wish I was there to knock some sense into you! You started
methadone to kick an
oxycodone habit...hmm...Jesus girl, all you are doing is digging the hole a LOT deeper. Are you aware that methadone is harder to kick than the heroin, not to mention
Percocet? I have been struggling with methadone addiction for 5 years now. I would give ANYTHING if I could drop down to Percocet and deal with those withdrawals. This is EXACTLY how I got on methadone. Got tired if spending a 3rd of my income on OC. You see, I didn't want to quit then, was getting salesperson of the month, etc.
You see, I kicked OC's 3 times (wound up using again, but that had nothing to do w/withdrawals, I was just around it all the time and my willpower...well, I'm an addict and we'll move on). The last time was for almost a year, so I was WAY past all the withdrawal stuff, and I will tell you strait up that I can not do that now. I just cant kick the dones (nor do I know ANYONE who has, unlike OC or hydro), it feels as if you will never feel 'normal'. The half life is a lot longer, so the withdrawals are a lot longer. You don't have to believe me, research methadone withdrawal for yourself. Its terrifying information.
Anyone who tells you that methadone will help you (unless you will be managing chronic pain for the rest of your life or coming off IV use of heroin) is a liar. They either want your money, a.k.a. the "clinic", or they're trying to justify in their own mind their addiction.
Get off the dones NOW if its not too late, and know your limits. Trying to get buzzed mixing benzos IS deadly. My Aunt was a 20yr user, dead, dones and
xanax. My cousin, her son, 5yr user, dead, dones and K's.
Think for a moment. People OD on 20mg methadone all the time. Does that happen w/percs? no.
Getting worse is no way to get better, that is if you really want to get better.
Peace and God Bless