[jarhead_33]

Hmmmmm, where to begin. Last August (2007) I broke my neck and was introduced to my sweet sweet vicodin. At first, it did it's job, taking the pain away and allowing me to sleep and function. Then, I started taking them more and more to get the "high". Now, I've done my fair share of drugs in the past, especially Weed and LSD. I haven't touched it in over 15 years, more like a high school thing. This "high" from Vicodin was completely different on so many levels. For one, my mood never changed while smoking weed, by mood, I mean temper, I would blow up at my poor wife and kids for no reason. All I could think about was "where are my pills?", "how many do I have left?" and ""When can I order my next batch?"!! Nothing else, not my kids football games, not my marriage and not my work. It was routine. Wake up in the morning, pop 3, pop 3 after lunch, pop 4 after dinner. I would become an expert in doing "pill math" in my head. Do ya know what I mean?
Anyway, I tried to quit a couple times, but not really try. My doc would say, you need to lay off of these for a bit and prescribe me Ultram for a coulpe weeks. I would always go back and say "This isn't working" knowing I needed that high, that (euphoric feeling). My doc has been giving to me for the past year now with no questions asked. I could go get a bottle now, no problem. 8 days ago I took my last pill. This time its gonna work, because I want to get off of the pills. I love myself and my family too much. The first 7days sucked, bad! The craving is definitely still there, I dont think it will ever go away. I do have a problem. My dad is getting a full knee replacement surgery this Thursday and I will be taking care of him. Yep, you guessed it, full access to Vicodin and maybe some stronger stuff. I just need keep the strength. I make it into a personal fight between me and this %^&$ing little pill. Ok, I know I've dragged on, but like I said, just needed to talk. Here's to day nine. Oh yeah, My son has his Christmas play today and I'll be going sober. Doing anything sober was out of the questiona couple weeks ago. For everyone on here figthing this addiction, keep the strength and love yourself first. You are my heroes!! Semper Fi!!

[OXYmom]

Jarhead- Way to go! Day nine cold turkey is a true accomplishment. I don't know you but as a wife and former pillhead, I am very proud of you for making this life changing decision. You are very strong. I have some questions for you since you are new here.
How long have you been married?
Did your wife know you are an addict?
How old are your kids?
Do you have a plan for staying sober?
Do you have access to AA/NA?
Did your parents know?
What kind of job do you have?

I like to get others' stories so that someone "lurking" on here can read and relate. Just answer what you want to.

Welcome to being clean. I will have a month tomorrow since my last oxy. I am experiencing everything new again without the pill fog. Some days sure are tough, but we can make it!

[jarhead_33]

OXYmom,

Thanks for your support. I answered some questions below. I kept it brief though. 1 month huh, that sounds so far away. Congrats, I'm proud of you. I'm here if you ever need anything.

How long have you been married?

I've been married 11 years

Did your wife know you are an addict?

An adict, no, a user, yes, told her I would stop taking them, then I started hiding it from here. She does not know I am going through this now.

How old are your kids? 4, 5, 7

Do you have a plan for staying sober?

My plan is to keep talking with people like yourself to keep my mind on it. I completely changed my lifestyke. I've started exercising and changed my diet. That really helps, for me at least.

Do you have access to AA/NA? I do, haven't gone, but I do have access.

Did your parents know? No

What kind of job do you have? Computer, technical.

[lilbri]

What about your neck. Is that ok now. Brian.

[jarhead_33]

Yeah, the neck is fine now... has been for months.

Damn you Vicodin!!!!!

Thanks for asking.

Your story sounds so familiar I was almost a mirror image of you. I too got hooked on vic and I took neglected my wife, my family anything just to get those pills. Feel free to read my story at Veteran Vicodin Addict...This site is a great place for support, I quit cold turkey just like you and probably went through the same thing you did. Sober is great I am now at day 24 and it seems like a lifetime ago.
Keep it up and stay strong.

[Junkie781]

wow, that's great that you've quite vicodin, congratulations and stay strong....not much to say tonight just trying to hang in there with quitting oxy's....day 4 and I feel like dying.

[OXYmom]

Originally Posted by Junkie781

wow, that's great that you've quite vicodin, congratulations and stay strong....not much to say tonight just trying to hang in there with quitting oxy's....day 4 and I feel like dying.

I remember those days. I am talking about when I would go cold turkey quitting the oxys. You are tougher than they are. I am very happy to hear that you are 4 days sober. That is a HUGE accomplishment when going cold turkey. Just a few more days of feeling really ********************py and then just hang in there and post on here when you get the cravings. You can do this.