[pbs8218]

This morning at 10 am est, it will be 5 1/2 days for me. Some new things have come into play and wondered if anyone else has experienced these. First- I am FREEZING all the time. When my gas bill comes it will eat up all the christmas money i'm sure. I have many, many blankets wrapped around me like mu-mu's and it's become quite joke along with my wonderful grandmother's (i miss her soooo much) old sweater over it all. I'm seriously considering her big goofy hat too. You might mistake me for a homeless person. But on the serious side, it's really a problem when everyone is complaining it's so hot. The demons are trying to surface again like on day three but I'm doing my best to keep them away.

Also, as my family always has know in the past to stay away from mom on certain mornings, this morning was one of them. My back hurts, my head is confused, i havent eaten in days, absolutely NO appetite, I don't want to do anything. And all morning long, mom, where is this, where is that. God, I wanted to strangle them all. I told them all, I am your MOTHER, not your MAID. Their help once in awhile would be a help. Ive already texted my husband 6 times in the last 2 hours, bless his heart, but I know he'll snap shortly too. Any suggestions? When does the mental go way?????? That will drive me back quicker than anything.

[icandoitin08]

Originally Posted by pbs8218

This morning at 10 am est, it will be 5 1/2 days for me. Some new things have come into play and wondered if anyone else has experienced these. First- I am FREEZING all the time. When my gas bill comes it will eat up all the christmas money i'm sure. I have many, many blankets wrapped around me like mu-mu's and it's become quite joke along with my wonderful grandmother's (i miss her soooo much) old sweater over it all. I'm seriously considering her big goofy hat too. You might mistake me for a homeless person. But on the serious side, it's really a problem when everyone is complaining it's so hot. The demons are trying to surface again like on day three but I'm doing my best to keep them away.

Also, as my family always has know in the past to stay away from mom on certain mornings, this morning was one of them. My back hurts, my head is confused, i havent eaten in days, absolutely NO appetite, I don't want to do anything. And all morning long, mom, where is this, where is that. God, I wanted to strangle them all. I told them all, I am your MOTHER, not your MAID. Their help once in awhile would be a help. Ive already texted my husband 6 times in the last 2 hours, bless his heart, but I know he'll snap shortly too. Any suggestions? When does the mental go way?????? That will drive me back quicker than anything.

Stay strong, you will get through this. It does take awhile. You could even have the flu. You commented that you look like a homeless person all bundled up. Just think, If you would have kept using you could have possibly ended up homeless! I almost did. My husband wanted me to leave because I was draining all of our finances. Plus, two years ago we lost our home! Had to move in with parents for a while.
Appetite, are you drinking water? Can you have broth? crackers? banannas? What about the BRAT diet, banannas, rice, apples/sauce, toast?
You need to get your strenght up. This may seem impossible to you, but, take a small walk, even for 5 minutes. Get out in the fresh air. It will do wonders.

Mental, the mental will be there you are an addict, just like me. Last Friday night (remember I stopped on tuesday at 6:30pm) I fould a norco while cleaning my couch. I froze, my mind was racing. I began thinking like an addict. I figured I could not take suboxone saturday and take the norco in the evening. I went round and round like that for 5 minutes. Then, I took the pill to my husband and we flushed it together. Situations are going to come up and we have to deal with them without drugs.

Please let me know how you are doing!
Stay strong. I hope some of this helped.

And I say put the hat on. Grandma's are very comforting!

[pbs8218]

Originally Posted by icandoitin08

Stay strong, you will get through this. It does take awhile. You could even have the flu. You commented that you look like a homeless person all bundled up. Just think, If you would have kept using you could have possibly ended up homeless! I almost did. My husband wanted me to leave because I was draining all of our finances. Plus, two years ago we lost our home! Had to move in with parents for a while.
Appetite, are you drinking water? Can you have broth? crackers? banannas? What about the BRAT diet, banannas, rice, apples/sauce, toast?
You need to get your strenght up. This may seem impossible to you, but, take a small walk, even for 5 minutes. Get out in the fresh air. It will do wonders.

Mental, the mental will be there you are an addict, just like me. Last Friday night (remember I stopped on tuesday at 6:30pm) I fould a norco while cleaning my couch. I froze, my mind was racing. I began thinking like an addict. I figured I could not take suboxone saturday and take the norco in the evening. I went round and round like that for 5 minutes. Then, I took the pill to my husband and we flushed it together. Situations are going to come up and we have to deal with them without drugs.

Please let me know how you are doing!
Stay strong. I hope some of this helped.

And I say put the hat on. Grandma's are very comforting!

thank you cheryl, you are always good to put a smile on my face somewhere in the note. I just took an hour nap with gson and feel better. My husband talked to "friends" and they said it's normal to go thru the chills.

Where do you live that it's so easy to go for so many walks? Im in Ohio and its FREEZING here and ready to snow so they say. But we have a saying here in Ohio, wait five minutes and the weather will change. There's no way on gods green earth I can walk out there when I can't even keep warm in my house. I'm getting ready to take a nice HOT shower while he's still napping. Then it's back to the laundrey I only made a dent in yesterday. As for my eating, wow, this will come as a surprise- I am a recovering anorexic! thats a shocker- huh? I am very thankful to be VERY aware that I have a very addictive personality and in times of stress, I don't eat. I don't think I really have eaten anything of substance since I quit. But, after my shower, I'm going to make my famous flatbread, wierd lettuce, bean sprout, avocado sandwich! Not much of a meat eater, which is why im probably so iron and b-12 deficient.

Thanks for the laugh, I'll put the hat on for some comfort while eating my sandwich. Things have to get better from here! Peg

[icandoitin08]

Originally Posted by pbs8218

thank you cheryl, you are always good to put a smile on my face somewhere in the note. I just took an hour nap with gson and feel better. My husband talked to "friends" and they said it's normal to go thru the chills.

Where do you live that it's so easy to go for so many walks? Im in Ohio and its FREEZING here and ready to snow so they say. But we have a saying here in Ohio, wait five minutes and the weather will change. There's no way on gods green earth I can walk out there when I can't even keep warm in my house. I'm getting ready to take a nice HOT shower while he's still napping. Then it's back to the laundrey I only made a dent in yesterday. As for my eating, wow, this will come as a surprise- I am a recovering anorexic! thats a shocker- huh? I am very thankful to be VERY aware that I have a very addictive personality and in times of stress, I don't eat. I don't think I really have eaten anything of substance since I quit. But, after my shower, I'm going to make my famous flatbread, wierd lettuce, bean sprout, avocado sandwich! Not much of a meat eater, which is why im probably so iron and b-12 deficient.

Thanks for the laugh, I'll put the hat on for some comfort while eating my sandwich. Things have to get better from here! Peg

I live in Michigan. Here are the facts. We live in cold states. We need to buy the appropriate winter clothing. I learned that when I had kids. Now I have a hat, scarf, boots and mittens. If you bundle up and get out and walk your body will actually warm up, you will get the blood flowing! I love to walk when it is evening and snowing. There is something so peaceful about being out at night with the snow falling and hearing snow crunch under my boots. If you don't have warm winter things get yourself some. My kids love to play in the snow, I am sure your gkids do too. Think how fun it could be playing outside with them making a snowman or snow fort! It is a blast! You can actually work up a sweat!

You can do it!

[lilbri]

Walk up and down the stairs instead of going outside and take hot baths. Drink boost or enshure for energy. the hot and cold won't last to long. By the way it's freezing here in canada too. brian

[pbs8218]

Originally Posted by icandoitin08

I live in Michigan. Here are the facts. We live in cold states. We need to buy the appropriate winter clothing. I learned that when I had kids. Now I have a hat, scarf, boots and mittens. If you bundle up and get out and walk your body will actually warm up, you will get the blood flowing! I love to walk when it is evening and snowing. There is something so peaceful about being out at night with the snow falling and hearing snow crunch under my boots. If you don't have warm winter things get yourself some. My kids love to play in the snow, I am sure your gkids do too. Think how fun it could be playing outside with them making a snowman or snow fort! It is a blast! You can actually work up a sweat!

You can do it!

cheryl, did you get my email regarding michigan? Had to get that little bit in! I'm still good for some humor. Peggy

[money_chick]

Isnt it great when you move from counting hours to days?! I loved that part.

I'm at a point where I can almost claim two months! This is the longest clean time I have had in ten years, and I am thrilled.


I'm really, really proud of you. I know you were scared, but you have done it! You deserve a big round of applause!

[cagirl]

Hey Peggy...Your doing great!!!! I do not miss that cold I was born in Pa. where its freezing. I think I will stay here in Calif.... Yeah as for the chills they will go away....Keep up the good work every day gets better!!!! Take Care!!!!

[icandoitin08]

Originally Posted by pbs8218

cheryl, did you get my email regarding michigan? Had to get that little bit in! I'm still good for some humor. Peggy

Hi Peg, no I did not get it. Did you e mail? I have not checked my e mail for a few hours. Did you put on grandmas hat? Did you ever get warm today?

You are doing so great!!! I am going to go and check my e mail..

Cheryl

[pbs8218]

Originally Posted by icandoitin08

Hi Peg, no I did not get it. Did you e mail? I have not checked my e mail for a few hours. Did you put on grandmas hat? Did you ever get warm today?

You are doing so great!!! I am going to go and check my e mail..

Cheryl

cagirl, where in california do you live? My sister lives there where all the fires are by all the big wigs, she's loaded of course. She can read her newspaper by the light from the fires at night. Are you anywhere near there? In ONE hour, i am 6 days clean!!! I am soooo excited. I feel kind of mean posting that everyday, but I feel people need to know it can happen. That old saying "if I can do it, anyone can" is so true. I ALWAYS thought the death of me would be those pills. Thats how I lost my brother-in-law. He was my husbands best friend since the age of 14. It will be 3 years this January. He just gave in. Said he couldn't fight it anymore. Found him laying beside his garage. We both want to do in his honor- better late than never. Thanks for your support and listening.

I was just informed I'm doing something out of the ordinary. What exactly is your email? Send to me at pbs8218@gmail.com

[pbs8218]

Originally Posted by icandoitin08

Hi Peg, no I did not get it. Did you e mail? I have not checked my e mail for a few hours. Did you put on grandmas hat? Did you ever get warm today?

You are doing so great!!! I am going to go and check my e mail..

Cheryl

what is your email, if you don't mind giving out? Peggy PBS8218@gmail.com

[icandoitin08]

Peg, I sent a message to your e mail address.

Originally Posted by cagirl

Hey Peggy...Your doing great!!!! I do not miss that cold I was born in Pa. where its freezing. I think I will stay here in Calif.... Yeah as for the chills they will go away....Keep up the good work every day gets better!!!! Take Care!!!!

I was born in NY, raised in FL and have been living here in CA for almost 20 years and love it.. and yes after the first week of w/d you start becoming human again, I am in day 6 and the worst seems to be over.