[phelpss]

That's a lot of emotion to be shouldering . Depression is so tough on a person's spirit and it can cause everything to feel so hopeless. And you're right it can cause alot of isolation. The pain can be so great that there simply is no way to adequately express it to others.

You're not a freak. There are a lot of people struggeling each day to find some way or some thing that can help them just breath through deep hurt and keep walking. Don't assume that because other people have their outside face so intact that they are any better than you. They just have the dance down and can keep the illusion going.

Give your self credit for each day you make it through. Be kind to yourself ......PLEASE ... Because the kind of emotions that you are batteling are huge and so often the people around you don't appreciate what you are dealing with and fail to respond in the way you need.

Wherever you are.....I hope you can hear this.