[JustWannaBnormal]

I am getting back up to where I can take 6 pills (10mg /325mg) per day, and I'm starting to get anxious, depressed, hopeless, etc. Because it is alll I want, it is all I look forward to. I want to stop...Or at least cut back. I've cut back before and I hate the w/d feeling, and I hate the way it starts to consume my every thought! On a bad day I taking 2 pills morning, 2 pills noon, and 2 in the evening....and a very good day is the days I take 2 morning, 1.5 noon, and 1 evening.

I'm sick of it and I just want to stop! I am starting to think that the only way I can stop is to move out of town and start my life over where my main source is not easy anymore. But I ask myself, is my problem really that bad? Is it really neccesary to move far away? I wont go to meetings, I know they help, but I dread every minute leading up to them. And I've popped pills right after meetings anyway cuzz its so easy. Right now i'm thinking that the only thing that will stop this nagging problem of mine is to move away!


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[JustWannaBnormal]

Ok well i first posted on here a few days ago, yesterday I only took 40mg, and today I am going to try the same....For anybody having trouble tapering, what might help is to be thankful that you have supply and are actually ABLE to taper. I think completely stopping cold turkey is unnecesary torture. Like shaving with a dull razor or something, why do that if you dont have to? Be glad that you are not just completely cut off! That would suck. At least get your numbers (mg) lower before you stop.
Welp, i'm going to sign off now...since nobody seemed to reply to me, wishing myself luck. goodnight yall.


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[mpvt]

Keep going Just.Get down as low as you can before you quit.Hang in there.....Dave

[JustWannaBnormal]

mpvt, thanks Dave...I'm going to keep posting on here, it is the onnly thing that keeps me somewhat in check.. Yesterday I ended up taking 5, so that was dumb..owell. but today I started out good so far (its only 8am though) I only took 1.5 instead of my normal morning 2. will see how it goes.


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[JustWannaBnormal]

ok it is only 2pm and I am up to 3 and a half. I feel normal right now. no aches no pains, no euphoric high as a kite feeling... i guess its been a pretty good day so far...probably end up taking one and a half more tonight, thus making it a 5/day day....thats my average. it just barely keeps me feeling ok. The 110 heat doesnt help, it really makes me lazy, as if w/d didnt already make me lazy enough.

I HATE HOW IT IS POSSIBLE THAT A COUPLE MG OF SOMETHING, SMALLER THAN A TICTAC, CAN MAKE SUCH A DIFFERENCE!!!



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