[mattyzhell]

I have never been to these kind of web sites before but I'm at the end of my rope. I have been to rehabe 4 times and meetings and tryed just about everything and nothing has worked for me! I'm 24, I lost my house, my son,my job ect... I take 8 mgrs of klonopin on a good day and about three bars of xanax. I'm bio-polar and that's how it all started. The doctor put me on xanax when I was going down some hard times and it never ended. I started going to more doctors and getting more and more pills and so on.

I suffer from the worst kind of panic attacks you could ever believe and my life is nothing but a bottle of pills. I'm sick of not being able to walk out the front door to get the paper without grabing a xanax or not even being able to ride in a car without knowing where the nearest hospital is. These pills have ruin my mind and taken controll of me more then I ever thought could happen! The panic attacks are the main key as to why I take this garbage everyday and I have no controll over my mind any more! I'm asking any one out there if they have any advice,support,words of what way I should go and how to get off this ******************** and deal with these panic attacks then please hit me up! I'm looking to do this in a home setting in I can. please if you have any advice write back.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by mattyzhell

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I have been to rehabe 4 times and meetings and tryed just about everything and nothing has worked for me! I'm 24, I lost my house, my son,my job ect... I take 8 mgrs of klonopin on a good day and about three bars of xanax. I'm bio-polar and that's how it all started. The doctor put me on xanax when I was going down some hard times and it never ended. I started going to more doctors and getting more and more pills and so on.

.................................. I'm looking to do this in a home setting in I can. please if you have any advice write back.

Read what I have pulled from your post. That is pretty scary. You are too young to have all this going on. I can't tell you anything specific to do except that you really need to discuss this in detail with your dr. Your benzo dose is high, but lots of us have taken more as you probably have too. You need to be under your dr's care when you detox from the benzos. Be prepared to really twist off when you stop the xanax and klonopin. Not trying to be negative, but this is serious. I was taking about the same klonopin as you but about twice the xanax. I had electric shocks and all kinds of bad symptoms. Your dr can help you, or if he can't find a dr who can, especially with the bi-polar diagnosis. This could all be overwhelming. You are making a wise decision to stop this now before it goes any further but I really think you should do this while under the care of your dr. Good luck.

[trayanne]

First of all, you need to know that you are not alone. Can you tell me what your experience was like in rehab and why you think it didn't work? Did you go there for another drug other than Xanax or Klonopin or were those addictions the reason for going into rehab. It sounds to me as if your medications are not being managed properly. You really need to talk to the dr. who is prescribing these meds to you. Taking two benzos is dangerous especially in those doses. Is the same dr. prescribing them to you? If your current dr. doesn't help you PLEASE seek another. You are so young! From experience, I know that the Xanax adds to & magnifies the anxiety & panic attacks...especially when we are at the addiction stage. Try to focus on other things...it is so difficult I know...the pills are always the first thing we think about...taking one before we even get out of bed. We have to try to control the meds...& stop letting them control us....one day at a time. There are many people here who have been through the same thing so keep posting as it does help to know that we are all in this together. Please try to see your dr. asap & if at all possible please start looking for a new dr. that can help you with a safe taper.
Many blessings & know you are not alone!

[Robert_325]

Main thing is to do a taper with a long acting benzo like a valium. It will ease the w/d symptoms. Check the Ashton Manual in a google search. It's a recipe for benzo detox. Your dr should not have a problem with this I wouldn't think with all that has happened to you over the last few years. Good luck.

[cynthiabarragan]

Originally Posted by mattyzhell

I have never been to these kind of web sites before but I'm at the end of my rope. I have been to rehabe 4 times and meetings and tryed just about everything and nothing has worked for me! I'm 24, I lost my house, my son,my job ect... I take 8 mgrs of klonopin on a good day and about three bars of xanax. I'm bio-polar and that's how it all started. The doctor put me on xanax when I was going down some hard times and it never ended. I started going to more doctors and getting more and more pills and so on.

I suffer from the worst kind of panic attacks you could ever believe and my life is nothing but a bottle of pills. I'm sick of not being able to walk out the front door to get the paper without grabing a xanax or not even being able to ride in a car without knowing where the nearest hospital is. These pills have ruin my mind and taken controll of me more then I ever thought could happen! The panic attacks are the main key as to why I take this garbage everyday and I have no controll over my mind any more! I'm asking any one out there if they have any advice,support,words of what way I should go and how to get off this ******************** and deal with these panic attacks then please hit me up! I'm looking to do this in a home setting in I can. please if you have any advice write back.

Why are you taking klonopin? Are the xanax being prescribed? When you have a panic attack. Take a deep breath and ask yourself why, first. Is it because you are hooked. I will give the only advice I know, Go to your GP and get thrown into a hospital. Not a psyche ward, a med surge under a doctors 24/7 care. They have meds to get you off of this stuff. If you are truly, truly desperate, go to the er and explain that you need to get off of these medications. Nobody should live their life for a bottle of pills. Tell them you want to be in the hospital not a psyche ward. Doing this on your own is DANGEROUS. Please go to your doctor or er. Peace.

[ORIONXPS]

First off, before I tell you my situation. I want you to know that you are not in to deep. You are still young enough to beat this. I have been on Klonopin for about 10 yrs now along with some other heavy med's. At one point in my life I was taking 16mg a day. Probably more. My Dr. told me that 6mg could put down a elephant. So don't feel so bad. You are not alone. In the past I have tried to quit on 3 or 4 different occasions. The first couple of times it wasn't all that bad. Mainly just felt like a flu that would not end. Fournatley for me at the time, I was working out like a beast in the gym and maintained a rather healty diet. Still couldn't beat it once I was able to identify that it was the withdrawl NOT the flu that was bothering me. The last time I tried it nearly killed me. Now, I just live with the fact that I will be on it for the rest of my life. I tapered my dose down to 2mg a day. I know people that were addicted to this and they did beat it with professinal help. I don't know where you live, but there is a really great rehab program here in Baltimore that got my friend off of it completley. Hang in there. You are too young to suffer like this. I hope this helps you. I really feel for you.

[walking5]

If you've been in and out of rehab four times I'm guessing you've had a limited amount of success if not more in your quest to taper off Benzo's.
So you know it is possible.That your psychological addiction might out weigh your physical addiction, that you can go without them, or at least of a reduced dosage.
I'm sure you've been told how imperative it is to taper off a little at at time for along time.
If not you need to be told. Extremely slow!! Don't shock your system.Control your withdrawls by doing this more than they control you. Remind yourself that as you become scared,enraged,confused that if absolutely necessary the bottle is at arms reach.But how are you going to be objective? I can't. I'm a 10 year klonopin addict. I know where you are.
Just to walk out the door....exactly!!!I've said it word for word.
Doctors amazingly with their "education" have there heads up there ass regarding benzo's.
The same doctors that got me hooked cut me off abruptly.I don't trust them for ********************!
Avoid your triggers as much as possible.
I know this seems impossible when everything becomes a trigger, but it's not.It's going to take a long time.Remind yourself of what these pills have done to your life, your mind, Get mad at them!
I educated myself on the withdrawl symptoms before actually going through them.For me that was a bad idea.Kind of like looking down a cliff before you jump head first. Don't look down if you don't have or want to.
I'm still on 2 to four mg of klonopin a day as well as abusing valium along with it.I have successfully in the past slowly tapered down to almost nothing.It's very hard, but more importantly very possible!!
Good luck.Please keep me updated.The high for me,however you want to call it is not what it used to be.I can't take enough.They have consumed me.My concentration.My mind,personality.You can do it,you just have to make a decision and be dilligent.Way easier said than done.It can be done,it has been done many many times!

[walking5]

P.s
I abused alchohol,weed and benzo's every day for eight years straight.
I forget why. But one day I go the urge to quit marijuana and alchohol cold turkery.
A very stupid thing that put me in the hospital for weeks,but four years later I haven't had a drop of alcohol or puff of weed . Not one!
Alchohol is the second most addictive substance under benzos.
So for actions to back up my words it can be done.The human spirit is amazing.

[melinda7.5]

I to took klonopin,oxy40mg,perc,vics.something slaped me in the face and i knew i had to quit so first i quit the oxy.then the klonopin.it was hard but i did it.im still batteling the vics.but i will win that battle soon