[hkyjon33]

Hello everyone !!! Well, its been a long time since i have posted anything, but im here to tell you all that i am doing well. I had a couple back slides and such but all in all i am doing very well. Begining and the middle of the year i was drinking pretty heavy and saw a phychiatrist and that was just b/s ... just substituding one for another...she had me on zoloft and valium and i learned real quick that no matter what is in front of me, i will abuse it.
For those who dont know me, i was on a lot of Vicodin a day ... i stoped that but picked up a soma and valium and drinking problem ... well needless to say i lost my relationship with the one that i loved the most 1 month before we were suposed to get married and lost everything i owned and all my childhood friends ... i got kicked out to my fathers house b/c i was down and out and owned my own buisness and ran it into the ground... well now i am clean, and have been that way for almost a half of a year... ive started up the buisness again but construction sucks ass out on the west coast. I have been working on myself day by day and am living proff that ANYONE can do this... i know that it is clisque but seriously, i was in REALLY DEEP and now that i am sober, i feel waaaay better metally and physicaly.
I havnt seen my family in years (last time i did, i was doped up all the time) and i have slowly surely seeing all of em and they are all saying the same thing, MAN U LOOK GREAT !!!! my personality is back, my spontianiousness is back, i dont have to worry about scoring anything b4 i go anywhere or do anything and that is like a million pound weight off my mind body and soul. I know i will always be an addict and if i touch anything, i will go back so i just keep myself out of the situation. I found that is the best way to do things. I have started playing sports that i havnt played in years and have lost over 60 lbs by eating right and exersizing (the healthy way) i know that tommarow is a new day and i dont know what it holds, but i do know this, i will be sober to remember it =) ...
Anyone who reads this and needs suport, just know that i am here for you and so is all the peeps that log onto this website are as well ... i found a lot of suport here especally thru Mel and Robert =) hello to both of you btw !!!! i hope you guys are doing well .. i love you guys !!! you guys made me realize i wanted to become better and i seriously dont know if i can ever repay you guys for what u have done =) thank you thank you thank you .... anyways, DONT LOSE HOPE !!!! U CAN DO IT EVERYONE WHO IS GOING THRU IT !!!! WE ARE ALL HERE FOR U !!! Please know that there is light at the end of the tunnel ... it seems like it will take forever, just know that it gets better minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week and month by month ... plz understand that ... u can do it !!!!!!!!

[notanotherday]

i needed to read that today. i'm on day 9 and it's been nearly as hard as the first 4 days. i have felt hopeless today, though i've not given up or given in. but i really, really wanted to.
so thank you for that. and congratulations!

[Robert_325]

Hey man! It's really good to hear from you again. I remember you very well. It was so crazy when you first posted. We talked for a while and then I got hit with the hurricane in Houston if you remember.

Melinda had just been clean a short time (a few months) and you were the first person she worked with after she got clean as I was gone with no electricity in Houston after Hurricane Ike hit us. Then as it worked out after I came back after the hurricane Melinda and I got together and now we're engaged to be married. I was truly blessed with her.

I moved to Seattle and we are living here now together. So Melinda and I both spotted your post as soon as you posted tonight. We were laughing as you were the first person Melinda worked with and now we're engaged all this time later.

It's good to see you doing well and still clean. It feels good when we see people like you so many months later and you're doing so well. We are proud of you and happy your life has changed so much for the better. Hope you stay in touch.

You should share your story some around the forum. Lots of people could stand to hear some good positive posts like you make. Good to hear from you my friend. God bless.

[hkyjon33]

GOOD JOB!!!!! DONT GIVE UP !!!!! day 9 was still a bad day for me ... just remember that there is a malise that u will go thru ... its not a quick fix ... i thought it was and that is how i back slid .... i really can just tell you that u have my FULL suport and DONT GIVE UP !!!! you are doing really well. Just remember that if you give in, u waste the 9 days of hell u have already been thru and no one wants that .... you are really right around the corner from feeling better .... day 11-12 was right when i started to feel real good about this ... you will go thru moment of weekness and your mind will play some crazy tricks on u. YOUR DOING GREAT !!!!!! Keep up the good work and dont give in !!!......great job so far !!!

[hkyjon33]

Originally Posted by Robert_325

Hey man! It's really good to hear from you again. I remember you very well. It was so crazy when you first posted. We talked for a while and then I got hit with the hurricane in Houston if you remember.

Melinda had just been clean a short time (a few months) and you were the first person she worked with after she got clean as I was gone with no electricity in Houston after Hurricane Ike hit us. Then as it worked out after I came back after the hurricane Melinda and I got together and now we're engaged to be married. I was truly blessed with her.

I moved to Seattle and we are living here now together. So Melinda and I both spotted your post as soon as you posted tonight. We were laughing as you were the first person Melinda worked with and now we're engaged all this time later.

It's good to see you doing well and still clean. It feels good when we see people like you so many months later and you're doing so well. We are proud of you and happy your life has changed so much for the better. Hope you stay in touch.

You should share your story some around the forum. Lots of people could stand to hear some good positive posts like you make. Good to hear from you my friend. God bless.

OMG !!!! CONGRATS!!!! i remember everything like it was yesterday .. i remember the day that your power went out i was having really bad w/d's and needed to talk to someone and Mel came to the rescue !!! She was a god sent. Know one knew in my personal life but u 2 knew everything and really helped me out. When i outted my addiction, everyone bolted from my life but u 2 were always there. I mean, people that i have known for 25 years wanted nothing to do with me but 2 strangers were always there to help me. Thank you so much i love you both !!
The Lord works in mystirous ways and its no wonder 2 of his angels got together ... congrats on the move as well =) ... im going snowboarding in washington this winter and seeing a cuz in everett .... Thank you guys so much btw again !!! i would have never got thru this with out u guys ... im sorry i havnt kept in touch as much as i like but i went thru a lot and needed to find myself =p ... i love you guys and i will deffinatly keep in touch =) ... Congrats again !!!!!! u guys were ment for eachother =p

[melinda7.5]

Hi hkyjon
I pulled up your old thread...we are so excited to hear from you...
let us know when you come to Washington we would love to meet you somewhere and take you out to dinner...
you really made my night it is so good to talk to you
I'm so happy for you
Talk to you soon, Melinda

[hkyjon33]

Man, i just read some of my threads and man that brings me back ... i was so down and out and it just got worse ... im soooo glad that i am out of all that ... my wife btw wasnt my wife at that time ... it was so close that i called her that but we broke up 1 month b4 we were supose to tie the knot ... its for the best thou and the Lord works in the mysterious ways... i would have left me too ..... i was REALLY bad .. wasnt remembering days, taking anything, drinking.... even when i all i was on was the zoloft, it would make me black out b/c the Dr perscribed to much and Lexipro on top of that ... That really brings back memories ... 6 months of hell on top of the years b4 that .... crazy i didnt learn my lesson with all of this ... but it was all for a reason and like i said in my 1st posts, it wasnt in vein =) ... i love my life right now and really the only thing i would change is the economy and not having to work 3-4 jobs just to stay a float ...
I will deffinatly tell you guys when i head up the the NW !!! I would love to meet you two and have dinner with you guys .... you guys are truly angles !!! i love the both of you....i cant wait to see you guys !!!! Anyways, i will deffinatly keep posting now that i am better. ... maybe i can help someone like you guys helped me =) ... god bless the both of you and everyone reading this =) IT FEELS SO GREAT TO BE CLEAN !!!!!!!!!! Everyone should do it =) man, i cant wipe this smile off my face.... im glad u guys are still around ... have you talked to Sis in a while ? she was a big help as well and i love her for that =) ... THANKS SIS if your around ... anyways ... have a great night ... ttyl

[Freedom4me]

Hkyjon,
What a great post!! You made my day. I have been clean from vicodin since Feb. So I do know the feeling. I also know how much help and support I got from this site when there was just no one else to talk to. Hope you stay around and post once in awhile. It is always encouraging for people just taking that first terrifying step to see that it is possible for them to have a happy and productive life without the pills. Keep up the good work. Great to see you.