[benyitz3]

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[BigJohn]

Yo Beny...listen to me now and listen good. STOP!!! It does sound like you're on the cusp of being physically dependent not addicted...there is a difference! The difference being that your head is not quite in the "jaws" yet. If your amounts are right(not calling you a liar but I know how "us" users can be) they're not that high and you have the ability to bail out. I used to chew at least 150mg or more of Oxy a day and it was a nice lady to quit. It was harder than Army Ranger school, I know. If your only symtoms of withdrawl are yawning and tearing, you are on easy street. Read some other posts, which I'm sure you have and scare yourself straight!!! That pretty wife, gorgeous baby, good job...GONE!! I didn't start out taking 150mg a day. You've already said you're getting moody and anxious w/o the meds. Wait until you **** your brains out for more than a week and can't move because you're in a fetal postion in intense pain. Sound good? Bro...you've made the first step coming here.
Couple more things...as far as alcohol and all that...just because one is socially acceptable over the other doesn't make it any more right. 2...you won't be hiding it from your family for long. Maybe you can confide in your wife while your relationship is still good. The power of not letting someone down can be motivational.
Have to say...the whole "overeating" thing struck me as strange. Everyone is different though. You gotta stop...for you, first and foremost. You can't take care of your family if you can't take care of yourself.

Peace and all that,

John

[fkunorko]

beny, I agree.... STOP now! EASIER SAID THEN DONE THOUGH! AGREED ALSO! I am a little further down the wrong road then you are though. You are probably able to stop and probably not have much withdrawal. Just tiredness! (unless you are lying about your frequency) If you need an excuse, you can blame being tired and lazy on the season! It wears you out. But dont use the holiday season as an excuse to take more! I started going down that road yesterday and it only got WORSE! I want to stop! I want to be normal! I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I read that your moods are in full swing, If you keep using, you will go from mood swinging up and down to just always sad or mad all the time! Even 10minutes after popping! You only 25? I'd say thats where my battle started, and now I have basically missed my mid-20s, 25,26,and 27 are all gone! At 25 though the struggle wasnt hard at all and I enjoyed every bit of it! Now I realize I wasted that time of my life on "feeling good"

Be glad you are married and have a good job! That is a total blessing! I am single dad, lonely as hell and a dead end job! No more excuses bro! They are all bs (i'm living them right now) and again, I want to quit!

Just remmeber, no matter how GOOD things are, there will ALWAYS be a an even better excsue to use. *gotta follow my own advice*

The thing about comparing it to a drink at the end of the day, NONSENSE! That reasoning alone is why I/we are battling! I (we) only fight with pills because they are SO easy, odorless, tasteless, discrete, and for me, FREE of charge.



DONT GET TO WHERE I AM, WHERE A GOOD DAY IS A DAY THAT YOU "ONLY" USED 30MG! DONT DO IT MAN, DONT!!!!!! IT F*CKIN SUCKS!


If none of that helps you, try this... Challenge yourself to stopping for...say...10days? Try that???? Or, just double your most recent period of non-use.
But why, you might ask, why stop when we dont have to? CUZZ IT TAKES AWAY SOMETHING THAT NOTHING ELSE CAN TAKE AWAY, YOUR SPIRIT!!