[JWOOD33]

I was one of the best there was, and it wasn't by chance. I worked hard for 11 years. I experienced all the ups and downs available.
I was a master of my craft. Why do I speak in past tense? How do I get back in How do I create the balance between greatness and being humble?
Bridge the gap between the great broker drug addict and the sober failure. my life is a mess and all the knowledge and ability seems to be wasted away by the past fouls I have all these questions and no one to ask. I look at my life now and don’t understand why. I know how it really is but why? Why give ability and greatness to some one who will screw it up every time. I have desire now but tomorrow when I wake I have to face the realities of failure. I want so badly to be the professional I was with out the drugs and being a fake liar. it seems if I have god and sobriety I cant have success and financial stability. I miss my home my license transportation ability to go out to dinner pay for my children's clothes & soccer I miss it all. I loved that Life. I guess it is like they say its better to loved and lost than to never to loved at all.


Sincerely,
Johnathan L. Wood Sr
Trinity Mortgage
depressed
Ex- Mortgage Broker