Feeling Guilty

[CamoToy]

I have been taking Hydrocodone in various amounts for about 2 years now. Origionally it was for a hip problem and I kept the dosage low. 3-4 a day, 7.5 mgs. I had surgery in October and afterward I found myself taking more and more. My Dr has decreased my dosage to 5 mg and I havent called to try to renew my script in 2 weeks. I have 1 1/2 pills left and I am done. I started this week only taking a half each day. I am feeling the results, both negative and positive. I can feel my body craving the pills but I am fighting it. I am cold and generally feel pretty depressed. The main feeling though is guilt. I think about the time I missed over the past two years with my wife and my daughter. Everytime we would go somewhere, I had to make sure I had my damn pills. When the bottle would get low, i would get a sinking feeling and start wondering what the Hell I was going to do. Well, I decided last weekend to quit for good. Tapering down to almost nothing has helped I do believe. I was going to take Tramadol instead and use them to taper but they give me a headache and blurry vision. (Why they are prescribed as non addictive I will never know) I hope I have done the right thing and done it the right way. My wife and daughter deserve better than what I have been to them lately. Can I expect serious WDs after my last half? I am thinking it should be minimal and I tried to schedule it to fall on the weekend. Any advice/ criticism would be appreciated.

[melinda7.5]

Hi camo
You did the right way ..I did it the same way and I am fine..jump off as fast as you can and you will start to feel better..I promise.. and as soon as you can get in a little exercise it will start your endorphins working again..
keep us posted on how your doing !!!
talk to you soon, Melinda