[Jonesing]

Yesterday was gonna be the day. I'd finally had enough of pills controlling my life. I've been taking rx pain pills for about two years steady. My pain clinic prescibes me roxy 15 and fentanyl patches. I've become so addicted to it that my 3 week supply last about 10 days now. Then its a week and a half of looking for and scheming for enough pills to last until my next appt. I went to the local methadone clinic and was told my addiction was not serious enough to qualify for methadone. The counselor suggested suboxone from a local doctor. There are three approved docs in my area, but after talking to two of them I gave up. The first one treated me like a degenerate, and the second said I could not get a appt. for a few weeks. Instead I bought 20 methadones from my supplier. Gonna try and wean, see how it goes. 20 doesn't seem like nearly enough to work, but i'll try. PLease pray for me. I had no idea how hard getting off rx pills was going to be. I've used drugs since my teens and have sucessfully quit crack, meth & weed but nothing compares to rx withdrawal. I'm working up the courage to tell my wife, she will absolutely support me I know, but its still hard to admit you are an addict. This forum has been very helpful.

Jonesing

[Jonesing]

Day one went well. I took 50 mg's. of the methadone and didn't jones at all. Gonna try for 40 today. Thanks for the response msti5000, i'm going to try this without a Doctors detox, but if I fail I will seek help. Thanks again for the response.

Jones

[Jonesing]

Msti5000,

I don't know if i'm doing good or not. I made the metahdone last me nearly a week by only taking enough a day to not be sick. I had back pain like the old days before I took pain meds everyday. I don't know if my back is that bad, or if it was a part of the withdrawal process. I convinced myself that I needed the pills, but i'm only taking them as presrcibed. Today is only day 2 but I actually took less than presrcibed yesterday, I feel good about that but not sure if i should ? Does it sound like i'm rationalizing to keep using ? I could probably handle the pain and use non-narcotic meds and therapy. I even danced around the subject with my Doc ( without telling him I felt like an addict) and he thinks the bebefit of pain meds used as prescribed outweigh the risk of addiction. Does he want more money or does he beleive that and is counting on me to not become an addict? I'm still very confused about all this.
Enough about me, are you doing well ? Hope you had a good vacation.Thanks for your understanding and encouragement with these responses.

sincerely,
Jonesing

[Tinner]

Hi Jonesing,

You have to hang in there bud you can beat this addiction we can beat it together I'm on day 3 of Suboxone and I'm doing GREAT

I noticed that you said there was 3 approved Doctors in your area but only tried 2. Give the 3rd one a call. I called the first one and the closest one to me. I was told that it would be a week before I could get in. I then told the woman on the other end of the phone that I'm addicted to pain pills and have been for 11 years now. I want off of these now and that I would not make it if I had to wait a week I said this appointment isn't for a sore throat or to much toejam between my toes when I wear wool socks. [)]lmao[)]

I'm an addicted to RX pain pills and it's ruined my life! She put me on hold and then asked me if I could be there by 1:30 the same day. So don't give up Suboxone is working great for me and there is that 3rd Doctor you didn't try.

Good luck and keep me posted


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