[smileagain]

I swear to God this site is the only thing that keeps me sane. It's 18 days for me today. And I swear a few times I almost said The Hell With It. My seventeen year old sometimes wants to play "Dad" he's got my younger son working out and on a diet but it has to be HIS WAY no one can even talk to him, then he complains about my middle son, (he's having problems in school he's 15) which I'm taking care of and also we think he may be smoking a little pot also I'm already talking to his father about that) But Brian who is the older son flips out sometimes with the YELLING (just like my ex-husband) which means back to anger management for him) he has a heart of gold but he does get way to angry. Then the HUSBAND. He told me no more ultram. I went into his truck (I had a feeling) no ultram but a bottle of pills with no label on them (he got them from someone he works with) I know their generic they are white tablets kind of oval on one side a square box with a M in the middle and on the other side 1721 does anyone know? My husband said they are Darvocet. Regardless I told him I went into the truck because I needed a dollar bill for lunch money for my youngest I only had a 10 dollar bill (he keeps his wallet in his truck) and he said You don't want me taking the ultram so I got these, besides I don't have to tell you anything. I'm in pain and need something. I said to him, your not in pain now. You haven't used the heating pad, you haven't said anything that's BULLSH$T. Then his coldhearted comments started. Guys I'd drained, I'm tired, I've had it. I work full time, plus trying to take care of the house, and all the sh$t i just told you about. I don't know if i can do it.
Last night my heart was pounding, i was shaking i just don't know what to do. Please help
Smileagain, Eileen

[kyhomegirl]

Hi smileagain, Wow congrats on 18 days! I'm sorry you are going through such a bad time right now. It would be really hard to be clean and have your husband not. Try to just focus on your recovery and your kids. It wont do any good to yell at him about him using or anything else, because unless he wants to quit he wont. My husband used to scream his head off at me about my pills, and I couldnt care less. Even though I did want to quit, him yelling at me and checking up on me made me want to do it more. Now he has cooled down about it, but if I was to ever get in trouble because of it he wouldnt bail me out. Anyways, life can get really hard, I dont have teenagers, but I am having a hard enough time with 3 little kids. Sometimes I dont know if I can do it anymore, but I do. I hope that your situation gets better. You are doing really good, you should be proud of yourself. Let your husband work his own recovery, and you work yours. Try and have a better day ok?

[lizery]

http://www.pharmer.org/node/2102


I found this. I don't know what that is though.

Liz


just hold on

[smileagain]

Thanks Liz,
I found out because of your research it is darvocet. But what a nightmare over here. I don't think i can take much more girlfriend. I ready to lose it. I never thought someone i loved could be so cold hearted, so down right mean, rotten, its unbelievable. Anyway, i miss talking to you, think of you all the time how are you doing?
smiles

[smileagain]

Hi kyhomegirl,
Thanks so much for the reply, it really means alot. I know what you mean that the more i tell him to stop the more he won't. But my point is which i tell him is that he is a different person. And I have had it. I can't take it anymore. And if it's not the pills like he says (yeah right) then something else is very wrong. He finally went on antidepressants a few months ago and he even admitted he felt better but he is just unbelievable. But thanks for the words of encourgement. I really appreciate. Talk to you soon
smileagain

[seahawks]

Smileagain.Im real sorry but i dont understand this addiction to ultram,i use to use pecocet,vicodin e.s.diludid,heroin,now im on methadone.But in the older days before the heroin etc.If a doc gave me some darvocet or ultram.ID be pissed and just throw the **** away.Ive never heard of anyone getting hooked to ultram its not even a narcotic.Darvocet is but a class 4 very low addtive rate.The amount you would have to take would kill off your liver before youd get abuzz off it.IVE thrown away many many scrips of ultram and darvs,i took them never did nothing for me.What part of the country do u live in? But if you say that stuff is addictive get some clonodine an librium.It will make it alot easier.But i dont see how a non opiate can get u hooked.Believe me ive been around the block,and this is the firt time ive heard about ultram being addictive if i ever tryed to sell that to someone theyd kick my ass and visa versa.I must be missing something all my family members r pharmisists.They said WHAT]]]] DAVE Im not trying to put anyone down i just dont get it.

david

[kyhomegirl]

Um seahawks, did you read the post ultram/ultracet/tramadol? It can be very addictive. Dont ask me why, but I was very addicted to it, and so are a LOT of other people. I know lots and lots of people that would trade percocets for it, would pay $$ for them, and ask for it from Dr.s. Maybe not everybody, but there are 8+ pages about it under Featured Drugs forum. Maybe you should read it.

[lizery]

I think that ultram is considered a non-narcotic but I also know that some people do get hooked on it.

I found this

Tramadol (TRA-ma-dole) is used to relieve pain, including pain after surgery. The effects of tramadol are similar to those of narcotic analgesics. Although tramadol is not classified as a narcotic, it may become habit-forming, causing mental or physical dependence.

http://www.drugs.com/cons/ultram.html


Smileagain, I am doing ok. Just going through so much with family problems. I am just trying to get through all of this until the summer when I will have a little more time and hopefully by then I will find a little house for me and the kids.


Liz


just hold on

[smileagain]

Ok Liz, as you know me too with the family problems. Just got done reading the posts under generic or name brand. All I can say is WOW. I'm glad you two were able to work it out.

kyhomegirl, thanks for filling in dave about ultram, couldn't go thru that again.

To kyhomegirl, liz or anyone who reads this. It seems that not many people respond to my posts. It kind of hurts. Any suggestions.
smiles

[lizery]

ugh! I lost my post ( I think )

Smileagain,
About the replies to posts, I am not sure why sometimes people post more. I try to read everything and post as often as I can. A lot of times I don't get right back to something unless I am arguing with zippy ( j/k zippy) LOL. Do you have my e-mail? rosesgrow1@gmail.com. I check that often. Have a great day love!



Liz


just hold on

[sweetchikk05]

It sounds to me like he has a problem and doesnt want to admit it, stay on him and make sure he isnt overdoing it, you could always put him into rehab to make sure hes being truthful, tell him if you can do it so can he and its only fair...keep your head up hunny

Liz Ann