Drugs, Teen, and Friends? PLEASE HELP!

[AlexBlin2]

Im a guy 17 years old, and some of my closest friends are these three girls. We have all only been friends for a 5 months but became very very close friends very fast.

I started doing drugs because i felt sad or something not really sure why I think.
I started doing drugs 4-3 days ago and I was doing weed and this pill. I know its illegal and im stopping! I regret doing drugs sooo much!



TODAY: Today like yesterday I took the pill again .

I went home for lunch to smoke weed. When I got back to school I was all jacked up on the pill and weed. I looked really sad, worried, parodied, sweating on my hands a lot, kept looking around, not really making eye contact. My friends kept asking me what was wrong, but I kept avoiding the question. They could all tell something was really wrong, and not normal, I haven't been acting normal for the past 3 days about. (about how long I've been doing drugs)

Clara asked what was wrong but I kept avoiding the question. I told them it could change things between us, and that they will think of me differently. I finally told her and my two other friends who are girls. They were shocked because I've never done drugs in my life before and I'm always happy and fun to be around. After that I told them I'm going to stop because its messing my life up. They agreed that I should and we went are our classes.

After class I saw Clara in the hall we usually talk for like 8 min after class before our next class. This is all after I told her I was doing drugs and I was all jacked up on it at this time. I she walked right past me and didn't even look or say anything. I said hey Clara and tried to get a conversation going, but I could tell she didn't want to talk to me. So i said I'll talk to her later.


THIS ALL HAPPENED TODAY: Everything above, when I got home i felt like I messed everything up my great friendship and everything that I had with them. I feel like they think of me differently. I only did drugs for like 4-3 days and it already messed a lot of stuff up..... I told them all I was going to stop right away and I am, I already though away all my stuff.


MY FRIENDS: FEEL LIKE I LOST THEM IN 1 DAY
I was jacked up on the pill and weed when I told them and pill last's for a entire day. Did I lose them as friends? What's going to happen? Im confused what did I do? I feel really bad like I messed all my friendship up. Im going to stop immediately because my friendship means so much to me. Do you think they will want to be friends again? What should I do other than stopping? Did I hurt them? I plan on apologizing but dont know the best way. Were all 17 years old I'm the only guy in the group of us, I HIGHLY REGRET DOING DRUGS! I wish i could go back in time!.................



EFFECTS:

Pill:
Lasts: 13-15 hours
Makes me feel dazed
Makes me feel dizzy
Makes me not hungry ( haven't eaten in 2 days, just not hungry)
Makes me have deep thoughts
Makes me space out really big
Makes me always having to move my legs up and down
Makes me have muscle twitches
Makes me feel like im going to fall over sometimes
Makes me feel these weird brain spasms
Makes me look like theres something wrong (facial expressions)

WEED:
Makes me dizzy
Makes me relaxed
Makes me paranoid
Makes me always looking around fast
Makes me sweet a lot
Makes me look sad
Makes me feel kinda dazed


When these two things are added I feel so different, and I act/look so different. I know some people may say its good but I think its bad and im stopping before I mess anymore of my life up.

Please read about MY FRIENDS I feel like I lost them!

[Catrina]

If these are real friends, then you have not lost them. If they turn their backs on you, then they aren't true friends. My advice to you is to speak with them as soon as possible and explain what you've been up to and that you want to stop. Tell them that you are going to stop. Ask them for their support and apologize if you've hurt them. I'll bet that because they do not do drugs, they don't want to be around you because it changes you from the inside out, where it really counts. We are not the same people when we are high than when we are clean and sober. They became friends with you because they like the real you, not the druggie you are becoming and that's what is happening.

You are sooooo young and abusing drugs gets out of control more quickly than you can ever imagine. No drugs means NO drugs. That means you have to be done with the weed too. Whatever we use to alter our minds affects our judgement. Even though you tell us that you are taking only 1 pill a day, you have got to trust me that it will increase and it will happen without you even noticing at first. One day you'll take that one pill and if you are still awake those 13 hrs later and you have another one in your pocket you're going to decide to take it. You'll tell yourself that it will only be this once. That's how it all begins and before you know it, you'll be taking as many as you can get your hands on and you'll be doing it everyday. It will take more and more of the pills taken at the same time and they will start to last less and less long. This means that instead of that pill lasting 13 hours, it will last 10 hours, then 6 hours, then 4 hours. I swear to you that this happens to all of us once we begin to take those pills every day for awhile. If this scares you, I'm glad. It should. Addiction is not someplace you want to go at any age but, at the age of 17, if you don't kill youself first, you have alot of years ahead of you that will be pure hell if you don't recognize the danger you are in and stop it. NOW!

I'm curious to know what that pill is. Do you even know? Is it a painkiller, a tranquilizer? Can you tell us the strength of the pill? If you don't know, see if there's any numbers and other markings like letters on it and what color it is. If you can't figure out how to identify it, others on this Forum will help you. How long have you been taking them? All of these things will help us to know how deep you are and we might be able to tell you what to expect when you stop taking them. No matter what, though please, please stop. Today. Just stop. Depending upon your answers to my questions, stopping may make you feel sick for a few days but then you will start to feel alot better and you can put this HUGE mistake behind you.

I bet your friends will be very happy to support you and to help you. They just don't like the person you are when you are using drugs. They want YOU back and probably don't like the person you are when your are taking those drugs. Give them a chance to be your friend by being honest with them and asking them to help you.

I am an addict and I wasted 20 years of my life abusing drugs. I haven't taken any pills except for aspirin for a little over two years. I tell you this because I want you to believe that I know what I'm talking about. I am not guessing about how your story will go if you keep taking those pills. I KNOW because I am an addict and I KNOW exactly how your story will go. Good luck, honey and do the right thing.

Please answer the questions that I've asked so that we can help you and then keep posting so that we can keep track of how you are doing.

Peace,

Cat

[MetalDuckMFC]

Do you even know what the pill was? I sure hope so. If not, you could have just taken some Tylenol that someone told you was Vicodin, or something. And about weed, that is all about opinion. Personally, I have no problem with it. A lot of people do. But you're 17. Experimenting is what kids do. Not saying it is right, but it IS normal. The fact that you hadn't touched a drug before this is commendable, to say the least.

Now, this all sounds like normal, teenage drama. I am sure it will blow over, as most teenage drama does. That all being said, this forum is for people who have become completely physically, and mentally dependent on narcotics. People who have spent years, sometimes decades, abusing heroin, and pills of all kinds, and who wish to get clean. You don't know a lot about narcotic pills, like CNS depressants (pain pills, Xanax, etc), but they are INCREDIBLY addicting, and can ruin lives. You couldn't possibly understand the pains of physical withdrawals, or the psychological ???? that comes next. I implore you to read a few of these threads, from page 1 on. Then you will understand just how easily drugs can ruin lives, and how damn-near impossie it is to get clean after a few years of daily use. Maybe then you will TRULY understand why loved ones, like friends and family, could be incredibly worried, and disappointed by your behavior.

The good news is that, after 3 days, you will have NO problems quitting. The horror stories you'll read about detox and withdrawals don't take effect until you've used multiple times daily, for a year on. So you won't feel any pain whatsoever, and no adverse side effects. I beg you to just drop it all now, before it gets to that point. You haven't lost friends. You're all just kids, and walking past you in the hall without saying hi is their way of expressing concern, and disappointment. Just stop now, and everything will go back to normal.

Again, though; what pill did you take?

[AlexBlin2]

My friends kept asking me what was wrong and I told them today what I've been doing pills and weed. They seemed shocked and surprised, I told them im stopping right away and they want me to stop. I feel like doing this I pushed them away.

I know drugs are bad and I feel like I messed so much stuff up, especially when I drive I do stupid stuff that will end up getting me killed, things like that I started being mean to my family and becoming displaced I seemed. I know im young and I regret even starting drugs, I only tried them because I wanted to see how it was and I got hooked on the pills they were the best, the weed was a little extra. I'm stopping now and hopefully my body/mind will return back to normal.



The pill I took is a prescription pill its called Fluorinetine. Its not prescribed to me and I'm not suppose to be taking it. I took like 40mg of it and I felt sooo different and felt out of place, when smoked the weed it just added more effects to it and made things like 3x more feeling.


So the Pill is Fluorinetine: (took 40mg) I looked at all the effects it has on you and im shocked, I'm not even sure why I did this to my body, I feel like I put my body and my brain through hell! Im not doing that again! I haven't even eaten in 2 days im not really sure whats up with that!

Im not sure what Im feeling right now but I kinda want to take the pill again but I'm not going to. Maybe because its wearing off im not sure. Thanks for answering! About how long will the pill get out of my system? and are there going to be any side effects from stopping right away? After its out will I go back to being normal like have a normal thought, and not feel how I did?

Thanks so much for your advice! I know some of you other guys who have done drugs for a long time and I just got a little bit of that and I regret it so much! I can't imagine what you are going through! Thanks so much for the help!

[AlexBlin2]

Again, though; what pill did you take?

The Pill I took was a prescribed Fluoxetine for my younger brother. He has some medical issues I guess. I took 40mg thats 2 pills of 20mg. I just didn't feel normal/right state of mind when on it things just felt weird.


Sorry if these forms were for hardcore addicts who want to become clean. I'm sorry for posting on here, after reading some other the other peoples threads I cant imagine what you guys have gone through! I thought this was for a form for like all drugs users or something. I guess its not and sorry for posting on here this is like pathetic compared you guys. Anyways thanks so much for replying back for such a little thing that seems so big to me but is yet so small to you. Thanks for replying back I just don't want to get hooked/addicted to drugs because it can change a person in so many ways. I just want to be my self and not do drugs.

[ablue877]

I started drinking and getting high at a much younger age than 17 so the best thing to do while you still can is STOP. Because gradually it will go up into worse and stronger drugs. You have to take so much to feel that high and a day comes that its not enough so you take more and this goes on and on until you find something else stronger and then the same process starts again until you wake up one day and you are snorting 10+ hydros & as many roxies or oxies you can get just so you can get thru the day. And it's hell to get off opiates if that is what you are taking. I was addicted to meth & compared to opiates...well the withdrawals are nothing. I came off meth & was off for 5 yrs and then had a surgery that damaged nerves in my leg & lower back so was then put on vicodin. I had to take it to be able to even move around and do day to day things that I needed to do. Eventually my tolerance built up so had to go up to something stronger and when that happened it all went downhill. I was taking anything that I could find to not hurt and when the time came that I wasn't hurting like that & I didn't need such a high strength narcotic....well I didn't have a choice then because I laid down one night thinking I"m not going to take anything because I feel fine so I don't need it & I wake up in the middle of the night with my legs killin me, cold sweat, shaking just sick as hell & at that point I was like beating myself up over it...I knew about addiction and had been there before. How did I let myself be so stupid and not realize what was happening. & at that time I couldn't find a place that offers help that didn't cost 6 to 700 dollars so I just kept using until it got to the point that I wrote about at the beginning of this. I was taking enough opiates that I'm lucky I'm alive to be able to write this. I have been clean for almost 3 months now and I'm 34. I spent that many years of my life just wasting it in drugs. So don't go down that path...you have so many years ahead of you...live them to the fullest...

[MetalDuckMFC]

That is just Prozac. An SSRI medication for the treatment of depression. In is completely non recreational, and I guarantee that any effects you felt were strictly placebo (made up by your mind) effects. That being said, NEVER take pills from other people, ESPECIALLY not your little brother. Your brother NEEDS a constant dose of that stuff for it to work. He has to reach a therapeutic level, and then maintain it. What if he runs out before his next refill, and loses that level, and has to spend 2 weeks getting back to it. Two weeks spent depressed.

I know that you're not a pharmacy tech, and INCREDIBLY I'll informed on pills, and I don't expect you to understand what I am saying, but it is a general rule to NEVER touch someone else's prescriptions. FOR any reason.

That particular pill you took actually did NOTHING to you. All those "symptoms" you were described were from the weed alone. Not every yellow pill bottle gets you high. In fact, very few actually do. If you ever plan on taking something you know NOTHING about, at least do some research online. The only recessional pills are opiates (pain pills; percocet, vicodin, morphine, Dilaudid, Opana, etc), benzos (anti-anxiety meds; Xanax, Valium, klonopin, etc.), and ADD/ADHD meds like adrenal and Ritalin. Just, PLEASE, research pills if you have to take it. Like I said, you didn't actually get ANY effects from taking Prozac. You just thought you did.

Sorry, that HAD to be said. But please don't apologize for posting here. Your problem is not small. No problem involving drug abuse is small. I only pointed all that out so you'll read, and be more informed. You only took drugs for 3 days. I promise, you didn't cause any damage. I am glad you stopped now.

You can post here for any reason. Any questions, concerns, etc. Please, feel free to post. Most of us are VERY knowledgeable, and more than willing to share experiences, and information.

Tell Clara, and your other friends, that you came here looking for help, and what you've learned. Maybe then they'll believe that you're not gonna do it again.

[ablue877]

[QUOTE=AlexBlin2;349030]The Pill I took was a prescribed Fluoxetine for my younger brother. He has some medical issues I guess. I took 40mg thats 2 pills of 20mg. I just didn't feel normal/right state of mind when on it things just felt weird.
QUOTE]

the pill you took is used for depression, anxiety, & other mental health issues which taking that and smoking weed will bring you way way down. You don't need that. You are on the right path just by coming here and asking now continue with it and stop what you are doing. You have too much living left to do. You are still young, Enjoy it!!

[MetalDuckMFC]

There are a few typos in my last post. I meant recreational, not recessional, or whatever I said, and addersl, not adrenaline. Sorry, posting from my iPod Touch, and it's difficult.

Also, I wanted to point out that I am only 22. And I have NEVER been to school for medicine, or pharmacology. The only reason I know so much about pills is because of bad decisions that I have made for years. Since I was 17, I took pain pills EVERY day. I am only 22, and am now clean for 4 months. It wasn't easy. Do NOT do the stuff I did. I was your age, bro.

[MetalDuckMFC]

With SSRI's, like Prozac, you have to reach a therapeutic dose before it takes effect. Meaning, you have to maintain a steady dose for 1-2 weeks before you notice any changes. He couldn't have felt it after taking it once. Which is why you coulda hurt your lite brother in the long run. If he runs out early, and loses that therapeutic level, he may need to start over. And that could be up to 2 weeks of dealing with the problems those pills are supposed to deal with.

[kathleen5hockey]

You have come to the right place. We do not judge here. You are young, we all do stupid things at that age. Please talk to your close friends, stop doing drugs now! Your future is so bright, do not dull any of it with drugs. Good luck!

[crazin]

Sorry, that HAD to be said. But please don't apologize for posting here. Your problem is not small. No problem involving drug abuse is small. I only pointed all that out so you'll read, and be more informed. You only took drugs for 3 days. I promise, you didn't cause any damage. I am glad you stopped now.

Alex,
EVERYTHING MetalDuck said is ABSOLUTELY CORRECT. I just wanted to add a little bit to this one specific thing he said. It is SO important to understand that NO drug abuse problem is small. Every single one of us started out the same way, with what many consider to be a "small" problem. Addiction will grow like wildfire, and before you know it, it has consumed EVERY aspect of your life. I have mixed thoughts on the pot, but for the most part agree with MetalDuck (so long as it stays experimentation). Experimenting with pills is a whole other ballgame, and it throws up red flags that you would even try it. If that had been a "high powered" narcotic or benzo, you could very well be dead right now! Dump it all and never look back!

[AlexBlin2]

I know its only been one day off the drugs and I know I wasn't on the drugs for very long but in that short time it messed a lot of stuff up! I would like to know the best way to fix this.

When I was on the drugs I felt really paranoid, dizzy, felt extremely confused, didn't eat for 2 days, and I just wasn't my self I was always shaking uncontrollable, and it felt like I was going to faint some of the time. It all seemed so fake to me but yet it was all so real, it seemed like time just went by and every thing was a blur. I did some really stupid while high on the drugs.


What I want to fix:
My friends know that I was taking drugs and I told them how it effected me. I told them I stopped and I truly regret taking them. I also said, I feel like I hurt all of you and that hurts me so much more! I also said I know your mad at me for doing this and you have every right to be. They asked me why I did it, I said I dont know why to tell you the truth, I guess just to see what it was like. They know this is the worst and only bad thing I've ever done.

Clara when I was talking to her, she hung up on me and didn't want to talk. I texted her and said I was really really sorry and you have every right to be mad at me and I know this was wrong and im just sorry! I texted her that she then replied back with 'STOP'. So I stopped.

My other friends and Clara said they feel like they lost the trust between me and them. They feel as if they can not trust me and I understand why and they are mad at me and said they will forgive me but in time. Clara, she's extremely mad and hurt I think. She saw what it did to me and how messed up it became. They said they can't trust me any more and they want. They said if I keep doing this im going to lose them as friends! I told them I stopped and I dont want to lose you guys as friends, I told them again how sorry I was!


How can I get my trust back with my friends mostly girls right now all the guys were like just stop and they were chill about it. All my friends who were girls are pretty mad at me and feel like the trust is lost they said. How can I get the trust back? I stopped and I feel much better until talking to them and it makes me hurt like 10x more because of how bad I hurt some of them. Im a guy and I don't cry very easily and I was really almost about to cry..... I felt soo bad I just want to know how can I get my trust back with the girls who are my friends are Clara especially.



ALSO: Clara's birthday is next week, I was going to back her a cake and bring it to her during lunch for her birthday! I planned on doing that before I did the drugs. Clara invited and 2 other of her best friends to her party just the me her 2 best friends and her. But im not sure if Clara still wants me to go her party is in like 2 weeks. It's her 18th b-day and I already feel like I ruined it! I really want to make all this up!


I really want to get all my trust back that I lost, and my friendship whats the best way? I feel really bad for all this!



I'm never doing drugs again, in such a short time so much was lost.

[MetalDuckMFC]

Like I said, all that shaking, dizziness, etc were because of the weed. The Prozac you took from your brother didn't affect you in ANY way, physically, or mentally. Prozac is NOT recreational. Just because it is a pill doesn't mean that it will get you high, in fact. That was ALL because of the weed.

This drama with your friends is normal teenage drama, and it will pass. You didn't do anything horrific, and you need to calm down and let it pass. You're blowing this WAY outta proportion, for NO reason whatsoever.

[AlexBlin2]

This drama with your friends is normal teenage drama, and it will pass. You didn't do anything horrific, and you need to calm down and let it pass. You're blowing this WAY outta proportion, for NO reason whatsoever.

Yeah your right, sorry I just don't like were the stuff has gotten me. Thanks for the advice.

[crazin]

I just don't like were the stuff has gotten me

Alex,
Take a lesson from what you said here, make up with your friends and move on.

I've had weird feelings linger for a few days after using pot. It's hard to explain, but things just feel a little "off". Apparently, this doesn't happen to everyone and some people claimed it wasn't possible. It really freaked me out the first time it happened, and people telling me it couldn't happen only made it worse. I just wanted to let you know that if you do experience it, it's nothing to worry about and will go away. I remember overreacting and over-analyzing everything while this was going on, which is why I mentioned it.

[kathleen5hockey]

Alex, it is hard being a teen. Friends are very important to you. Please us this as a learning tool. If your friends forgive you ok, if not, make new ones. My daughter had problems with her friends, couldn't get over it, turned to drugs and is in jail, she turned 20 yesterday. Please, look around for another diversion NOT DRUGS!!