I don't know if drug dreams are a signal of relapse or not - I just accept that sometimes, they come. It could be that we're under stress, and subconsciously, we have fear of relapse. It could simply be that it was such a part of our day-to-day existance for so long, that our subconscious can't help but go there.
I've been clean over 6 years now, and still one pops up occasionally. Generally, I feel relieved when I awaken, as, even in the dream, I resist the temptation. It can be a positive - a reminder. I lost both my parents this past summer, and that's when the drug dreams recurred - Mom was on heavy-duty meds, so they were around me. My disease is ever there, way back in my mind - and it came forth in my dreams. A reminder... of where one pill could lead me. That was a good thing. |