[heyhaze]

I have been reading the post and this is a very informative site, also very supportive. I never realized the amount of people addicted to pain meds. And what we go thru when W/d is so much the same, just blew me away.

I have gone thru w/d so many times I am sick of myself. I wonder if I will ever make it. The physical withdrawl is horrible, but it is the mental afterwards that takes me back to using. It seems to take forever to finally "feel" like doing the things you use to and "enjoying" it. I find myself saying over and over in my head, (well if I only had some pills I could probably get this project done). Gosh, I hate that!! There use to be a time when I was so motivated for life. I worked out, did crafts, gardening, went to church, there was contentment in my life along with sobriety.

I went on Campral to take away the cravings for alcohol, now I have to figure out how to stay away from the pills. I usually take hydro's or oxi's, what ever I could get my hands on. I am only about a week clean of pills. 7 wks clean of alcohol and about a week clear of cocaine. Talk about a messed up and confused mind. I am also on 20mg. Lexapro, 50 mg. clomipramine and Trazadone/150mg. when needed for sleep. Sometimes I think I am on too much psyc meds, and yet I am so proned to depression, boredom and sometimes I think maybe I am experiencing pre-menapause (I"m 52) ....I am really tired of psycoanalizing myself too. I just wonder if there will ever be a comfort zone for me.
heyhaze

Hey you know it boggled my mind too when I first came here and found all the ppl addicted to pain meds. The other thing that amazes me is that there are some ppl on here that seem to know more about withdrawl than Dr's. I have gone through W/D quite a few times and even went to see DR's about it and they know NOTHING! It was here that I learned about Suboxone and PAWS(Thanks to the 2 Daves!!) and the benefits of exercise and high protein in your diet to aid W/D. I only saw one DR in my life that knew what meds to prescribe to get you through the acute phase(clonidine,valium) the others had no clue. Anyway I find great comfort coming here and talking with ppl that know exactly what I am going through.....Krissy

[mpvt]

Glad to hear your doing well Kissybaby and I hope you stick around and share your experiences with the people that come for help.Way to go.......Dave

[Dave87666]

Im glad to hear that Krissy is doing well too,and glad that she sticks arounds and throws her input into the topics...Dave2 HAHA

I wanna tell you guys that me and probably a lot of others really look up to you two. Just from reading posts here and there I can tell that you guys have really over come lots of hurdles in your lives. Far more than most of us. And the fact that you are here to talk and educate is a gift in itself. You guys are truly an inspiration to everyone.....Krissy

[Dave87666]

Aww thank you Krissy you're a sweetheart

[bkfizz]

i love reading all of the 2 dave's comments. they are always very informative.They both know what we are all feeling.we should all be very proud of our sobriety. everytime i feel down, i think back to feeling real ********************py,and am happy to be where i am now. i only want to look forward and keep feeling better and better everyday. it will get better!

[Dave87666]

Yes Bkfizz it all gets better...You're correct we should we happy,and proud of our sobriety everyday!

I look back and just think that not even a year ago my poor parents paid a "surprize" visit to me at my house and found me in the kitchen searching for a vein,and shooting up...I've come a looong way,and so have many of us others so lets keep it up and be proud of ourselves!!

[mpvt]

Thank you for the kudos people it's very nice of you.I actually kinda fell into doing this as I started out on "We Speak Methadone". Someone from that forum sent me here for some reason or another and I've been here ever since.I remember spending alot of time in the "Pill Identification Room" for a long time just reading and seeing if I could identify the pills people were asking about.I got bored of that after awhile and started reading the posts in the other rooms.I realized that I knew alot of the answers to the questions people were asking so I started to respond to them.
I think it was about 6 months or so after I had started to answer questions that a poster came on and thanked me for helping her out.She was back in college and her marrage was going to be alright.
Well I have to say that made my day to read that.Now every once in a while someone will post as you two did today and it's just icing on the cake for me.Just to know that there are people that are in recovery here blows me away, I really get a good feeling coming here and offering my experiences.So once again thank you for the kudos as they are much appreciated........Dave

[harrietfly]

Hi all, I have taken the next step in getting off the pain meds and getting my life back. I have been on Suboxone for 3 days now and the w/d are gone but the suboxone makes me feel weird at times. I am down on myself for taking the pain pills for so long, especially telling myself I needed it to get things done. I now have to reprogram my thinking and try and straighten out this mess in my head. I have a new therapist that I came "clean with" and we have executed the plan. I know I will be going to the meetings and such as I move forward.

The biggest question I have is if I have to take the suboxone everyday? I am only taking the smallest dose and I am supposed to increase it this weekend, but I only want to take the minimum amount. I go see my doctor on Tuesday but if anyone can give me a heads up, that would be great. I just feel funny and I am not having cravings.

Any input is greatly appreciated!

[Dave87666]

harrietfly--If you feel fine at the dose that you're at then "id stay at it! Next time that you see your DR. let him/her know that the dose you are at is just fine with keeping w/d at bay,and helping your carvings(as long as it really is)...Also yes you're going to have to take the suboxone everyday because(sorry to tell you) you're going to get addicted to that as well and if you started skipping days then you will get "sick"its just plain fact! Good luck,and honestly if your habit wasnt all that bad and they have you on such a low dose of Suboxone then maybe you dont need it at all...If you dont need it then stop before you get addcited to suboxone as well....

Please dont think that I am putting down suboxone at all since I am a user and big time promotor for it,but if someone doesnt really need it then I dont think they should use it,and get hooked on it as well when its not necessary...Tell us how you do!

[harrietfly]

Thanks Dave! I was on 8 - 12 10/500 mg hydro - lortab a day on and off for about 2 years. I was in w/d when they gave me suboxone but after 1 day, it seemed to work wonders. This is day 5 of suboxone. So will i suffer the w/d from this even if i have only taken it for a minimum amount of time? If i stop taking this, will the w/d come back from the pain killers? Just curious. . . .

Thank you so much! These blogs really help.

[Annalee]

Originally Posted by krissybaby

I wanna tell you guys that me and probably a lot of others really look up to you two. Just from reading posts here and there I can tell that you guys have really over come lots of hurdles in your lives. Far more than most of us. And the fact that you are here to talk and educate is a gift in itself. You guys are truly an inspiration to everyone.....Krissy

The 2 Daves are just awesome. I don't post much here, but I sure do a lot of reading. And both of them are ALWAYS there to help all of us out! I admire them also!