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Detox advise without rehab for Oxycontin
Detox advise without rehab for Oxycontin
I am really desperate and in need of some help or advise. I have no one to talk to and I am literaly sitting here crying my eyes out. I became addicted to norco after a legitimate back injury and managed to get myself up to 40 10/325 pills a day. I was told by my doctor I was a walking time bomb. I forced myself to go to rehab and managed to quit norco for good HOWEVER on day 5, I just couldnt take it anymore and ended up taking 1 Oxycodone. It started out as just a little bit to get me over the Norco. That even sounds stupid hearing it. Any way I have been taking the Oxy for 6 months now and am up to 3 -80 mg. tablets a day. I found out when I went to rehab I did not really have any support, so no one in my family or my husband knows about this they all think I have just quit the norco and I am just fine. I do not have the option of going to rehab again because I have two little kids and have no one to help me with them at all. I have only 20 pills left and do not have access to anymore so I am forced to quit. I see this as a blessing in disguise however I am so afraid of what is instore for me and I am having panic attacks and have become so depressed. When I quit taking the Norco it was the absolute worst pain I have ever been in in my life!!! I would rather have 3 c-sections in a row than go through that again. Over the last 2 days I have forced myself in taking half of what I am accused to and I am dying. I dont have a choice I have got to quit for me and my children. I am so desperate for someone to talk to about this because I can not talk to my husband or family they have already shown me how dissapooijnted they were in me when I was addicted to Norco I wont be riticuled again. Funny I have a Masters Degree in Counseling and helping others with this kind of desperation but I can not help myself. Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can cope with the withdrawl symptoms and anxiety attacks? Please any suggestions are welcome. Thanks for listening.
Hey Sadgirl...Okay first I'll start by telling you that I am a recovering >>>>>> addict,also have many degree's(chemical engineer) so dont feel stupid,I've also felt that way because I'd say"how can I be a >>>>>> addict while being such a smart person)but addiction can hit anyone ya know?
Now to help answer your question I suggest finding a Dr. to Rx you suboxone(suboxone.com has a Dr. locator).Suboxone will help get you through the w/d like you would'nt believe!You also dont have to worry about going to a methadone clinic all the time or anything because after the first visit or two you only need to see the Dr. once a month(unless you find a scammer just in it for the money) IF you happen to get one of those Dr.s then just move on and find another Dr. that is'nt like that and you feel comfortable with.Trust me I know how rough opiate addiction is,and this stuff will help you out,its not going to get you high or anything(even though its 40 times stronger then morphine)..It will also make it so you cant use opiates because it has a blocker in it that will not only block any high that you could achieve through opiates,but also make you so sick that you would'nt even want to try and use again while on the suboxone(trust me I tried before).I hope that this info helps you,and wish you the best with your recovery!Let us know if you do go this route,it can save your life.
P.S. stay on this board,it also helps out with staying clean,and you're a smart woman that can help contribute to others that are in the same boat...Again good luck!
You are not alone
I had a baby with a C-section in early May of this year; and then had to go back in hospital because my doctor messed up on that.
With my last birth I had a bottle of Vicodin that sat on the shelf for literally 2 years; had no worries about addiction because I heard horror stories about Vicodin so I pretty much took it only for cramps.
My doctor prescribed this drug I never heard of before called "Percocet" because I had a pinched nerve (my baby was sitting on my pelvis)
I then took it AFTER my pregnancy, the strongest there was.
Well.....guess what? I don't smoke weed, have never become addicted to ANY drug, and "yes" thought I was infallible to this type of thing.
I got to the point that I couldn't function unless I had a least 2 in the morning. I tried to quit, and my whole entire body ached, and I couldn't even function. Not good when you have a 3 year old boy, and a newborn to take care of. I turned myself in to my doctor, because she still would prescribe it for me; but when would it ever end? She put me on a "protocol" to detox.
She prescribed Vicodin, (SPECIFICALLY Taken as directed) then Tylenol#3
It really sucked hard. But I got off it without horrifying symptoms.
TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR. They prescribed it; and if you are forthcoming; they will help you. It's their job......Don't worry about them judging you.
ALSO....don't try to buy it illegally.....I am giving this advice because many people just get ripped off...(yes, I tried that too) It's a no-win situation.
If you are LUCKY people will just take your money....If not, they will give you something that could wreck your day, your health, and could end your life.
I've been where you are at...and the worst thing is; YOU are judging yourself more than anyone else is judging you.
It's a long process, but just you writing your blog means you really want to get some kind of help, and you will get it. Hang in there sweetie. Nancy
I feel for you...
I understand where you are coming from SadGirl....it's so much easier to cope with taking care of the house and family when you have a little buzz going.
I also understand that you can't be sick with withdrawls...you have a family to take care of.
Take Dave's advice and look into the Suboxone....you're in the right place mentally to make this work.
Good Luck and Keep us posted.
Hey sad girl,
everyone has given you great advice. I just wanted to add that i too am on suboxone, week 4 for me, i have a family whom needs me as well. I can assure you that i am fully functioning and only WD for less than a day. reason being you have to be in a state of mild withdrawl to start the suboxone, and then, INSTANT relief. My suggestion would be to find a suboxone dr. now. DONT WAIT for your pills to run out...that in itself is hard for an addict to deal with. Make your appt for when you have 1 days supply left, that way the mental anguish will be minimal and should your appt be cancelled or you cannot obtain the pills you have a 24 hour window.
Please dont think badly of your self...this board has hundreds of memebers and there are more boards just like it. You are not alone. Your are smart, smart enough to know it is time to quit and take control back of your life...because for all of us that little pill holds way to much power. So take it back. You can do it. I am doing it and so are others, i am here...to listen and to talk, what ever, whenever, you need.
stay strong and lighten up on yourself-
wow. your post struck me for some reason.
ok.... for the sake of your chirdren you HAVE to reach down into your gut and find every bit of strength in your mind body and soul that you have right now. YOU CAN DO THIS. stop saying you are addicted and start telling yourself you are quiting. start tapering down your dose EVERY day. you can't feel sorry for yourself right now. you have to get yourself together for your kids, your husband and for yourself. there are NO other options. i am not trying to sound harsh just direct. i know what you are going through is hard, i have been through it too. i am 21 days clean. it took everything i had to snap myself out of my depression, anxiety and in general just feeling sorry for myself durring my detox. YOU CAN DO THIS! infact YOU ARE DOING THIS. you have to start living these words. do not let yourself spiral down. my heart goes out to you. stay positive, and focus on your kids.
To everyone who replyed to my cry!
Thank you all for your words of encouragement and words of such intellengence it has meant the world to me just to be able to communicate with people that understand and are not judgemental. Thank you!
I haven't been on this thread but I am an oxycontin addict ( up to 240mg a day when I have them) When I don't I take roxicidone. I don't know what to do. My family doesn't know about my addiction and I can't run out because I can't have w/drawal and try to act normal in front of my family, jusct can't do it. I am interested in trying Suboxone but I'm completely scared to leave my medication behind forever, whats happens if that suboxone doesn't work for me and then i can't go back. I'm afraid I'll lose my mind. I have to do this process alone and no support at home.
Why do you think you wouldnt be able to go back? First off i know it will work for you...second you can go to a sub dr. for your script...then give it some time...when you are confidant that it is working...call your dr or go see him and tell him that you have decided to deal with your pain with out the narcs. It really is not hard to do with the subs. I too am a mom and cannot be out of commision with wd's...NO ONE knew i had a problem...NO ONE>..i do know how you feel. Imagine how awesome it will be to not have to ration pills and dr. search....so freeing....and it will alow you to be an even better mother than you already are...you can do this...
I really do want to be drug free but I am terrified. I'm a 20 year addict going from a few pills of different sorts all the way up the the top with oxys. Whatever I do I will have to do completely alone. NO ONE in my family except my brother knows and he doesn't know how bad I am. The other few people are ones who have helped me keep this habit. I am going to search the phone book for a addiction speacilaist. I only see one pain doctor, they do urine tests so if I doctor shop I'll get thrown out.
Hi Binda!!If you have a 20+ years addiction then suboxone may not do it for you.Usually when someone has been addicted that long the receptors are badly deformed and methadone is needed.This of course is up to you and if your determined to try suboxone then by all means go for it.Anything is better then abusing opiates as you know I'm sure.
The cost of methadone is cheap compared to suboxone (buprenorphene) so if finances are a problem then the methadone may be a way to go.Anyway you definately need to try one of the two and the sooner the better.Start the brain on it's way to healing and producing it's on endorphins (hopefully).Good luck....Dave
I know I need to make a change, I'm just scared. I haven't always been a serious oxy addict, maybe the last two years. Before that it was lortab and percs. I've gotten out of control and I don't know what normal is anymore. I'm tired of living my life centered around whether or not I have pain medicine. If I at least did it in moderation I might see hope for myself. I've kicked a activan habit on my on years ago but this is tough.
I have been a drug and Alcohol counselor for 17 years, I have been clean and sober for 21 years and I have found myself Dependant on pain killers twice. The first time was due to compressed discs in my neck, I fought the pain for awhile taking nothing but Advil, eventually and after 6 trips to the emergency room in severe screaming pain I gave in and took an Oxy, I took one for the next 3 days after that. The fourth day I decided I was ok and didnt take any, the next day I was very ill and thought I had the flu and went to the doctor (I had no idea I was addicted, I only took them for 4 days!). Being an addict even tho I was clean for many years, my body picked up where it left off 21 years ago. I became addicted very quickly, even the doctors were in disbelief I could become addicted so quickly. The symptoms only lasted 3 days but i was very sick. My prayers are with you I know how hard it is. The second time was after neck surgery and I became dependent on Diuladid (You think I would have learned) But I was taking only one pill a day and my mind told me it couldnt happen again (DUH!). I have been weening off with Vicodin and am down to 1 10mg pill a day. For some reason I become addicted very fast and harder then most who are taking a small amount as I am. After this I SWEAR it will be a cold day and I could be dying before I take another Narcotic. I learned my lesson. My prayers are with you.
Hey new member
sounds like you've been there done that. I too can get addicted quicly to whatever crutch I have. I've quit smoking on my own, I've broke a activan habit on my own but this has me really tight. I actually got up enough nerve to call and make an appt with a addiction specialist. I know for a fact that I can't do this w/out help. I'm going to try really hard.