desperate2bdone sub thread for Robert

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Today, 02:51 PM
desperate2bdone
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Hello Robert 325. This is Drew again. I am in the middle of my second day at 4.5mgs and am doing well for the most part. Sometimes in the evenings I feel bad but it has always gone away and after a few hours I am feeling fine again. I am so happy to be tapering! Stuck on this stuff was the pits! I get nervous, restless, and have sweats sometimes, but unfortunately I have been that way for years, so it probably isn't altogether attributable to the taper. This forum is the best. There are lots of people who care, and many are going through worse drug and life situations than I am, and they are still making it! It is good for us to guide and support one another, this likely maximizes the number of us who make it out of this to lead fuller lives as God intended us to. Thanks again. Here I go.....



Drew...I found your thread finally!! You are doing an excellent job!! Thank you for posting on my thread! I'm at day three of my first 25% reduction. So far, I'm fine. I don't think I've felt any withdrawls symptoms, yet. Last night I was up later then usual and I think I was starting to withdrawl, so I hurried up and went to bed. lol. Took my first dose of the day as soon as I woke up, before church. I, like you, do a lot of projecting. I'm so afraid of withdrawl. That's what has kept me on these flippin things so long. My fear of the "what-if's". My situtation is, NOBODY (except my husband) knows that I was ever addicted to anything. Therefore, nobody knows I'm in treatment, or tapering. So if I have drastic withdrawls symptoms, I could have a lot of explaining to do. Explaining that I don't want to do. It is so hard for me to admit that I am a drug addict. Everytime I do, I cry. I cried when I typed the first post on my first thread. I'm just so ashamed of myself. It truly, literally, makes me sick what I have done to myself. I feel like such a failure at life. I've let everybody down. My mom, my husband (although he would NEVER say that), and most of all, my baby boy. He deserves SO MUCH better than a drug addict for a mom. It discusts me that I've done this to myself. Completely. I have thought seriously about talking to my Pastor about it. I just feel that if I tell somebody about what I'm going through then I will be accountable and (in my mind at least) I will HAVE to follow through then. That's just how I am. I've always been the type of person that if I say I'm going to do something. I'm going to do it. Period. I just don't want to change the way he looks at me. Not that I think he will look at me differently, he's an AWESOME Pastor, it's just a fear I have. I will decide soon. Finding this thread is the best thing that has ever happened to me (besides my son and husband, of course). This thread, and people like you, has given me confidence and a sense of self-worth back. It's also giving me the motivation to kick this addiction once and for all. This place, and all the people here, are amazing. I want to thank you for posting your journey. It's amazing how just knowing your not alone helps so much. Truly amazing. I'm sorry, I'm rambling. Anyway - you are doing an amazingly excellent job. Stay strong, and keep up the good work. In a few weeks, we will be drug free. Isn't that a wonderful feeling???

I wish you the best. I will continue to follow your thread as you are not much ahead of myself. Good luck to you (although you don't need luck, you have something better, strong will and determination). You're in my thoughts and prayers!!! Keep up the good work!


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#28 (permalink) Today, 02:58 PM
Robert_325
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Hi...I'm SOOOOOO sorry to hijack your thread.

How do I start a thread of my own? I would LOOOOOOOVE to talk to Robert. I've been following his posts for a couple months now. I'm not going to tell my "story" on your thread, but can somebody (Robert?) PLEASE tell me how to start a thread of my own. PLEASE?? I'm SOOOOO ready to get off these flipping things. Seriously, like, really, I would pay you if you could help me off these. Ugh!!

Please??




I will copy and paste this and start a thread for you. Then tell me how I can help you, God bless.

[desperate2bdone]

Robert:

Thank you so much. I did figure out how to start a thread. It's titled "Seeking Help....Please? I've posted my "story" there. If you would prefer that I post here. I will do that!! You are an amazing person!! Thank you so much!!!

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Robert:

Thank you so much. I did figure out how to start a thread. It's titled "Seeking Help....Please? I've posted my "story" there. If you would prefer that I post here. I will do that!! You are an amazing person!! Thank you so much!!!

Hi Robert. I have a question. I'm on day three of my first 25% taper. I have 2mgs left for the day to take and I'm starting feel very restless. Is this a part of withdrawl? Or, is it just because I've sat in the house doing nothing but "play" on my laptop all day since I got home from church? It doesn't really matter if it is withdrawl. I'm just curious. Thank you for helping me. I don't know what I would do without you (or the other posters here). You (all) have given me hope to get my life back. WHEN I get off these things, with your help/program, you will forever be my hero.