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 Days Free Just an idea. but I have been reading these posts trying to keep up with everyone and how they are doing. It is so hard because you have to search through so many posts. So this is my idea. Keeping one topic open for everyone to post how many days they are free of pills. It is very important to share any success stories with us so that we can feel some hope. we need to see success stories (and failures) so we know what we are up against. This way it will be much more easy to check on the poeple we care about (or not), instead of searching through past pages of posts.
It is easy, let me go first.
Fergnation- 2 days, feel brutal today and that is probably why I have not wrote 200 words again today. Can't sleep (have taken ultram for four years for RLS, so my leggs are going crazy. Have the chills. But I am in a room with many windows and it is snowing so it is peaceful. Havent's started combing the city for pills yet, but I know that time will be coming.
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11 days for me. My lust for not wanting to deal with reality is the hardest thing now. I want to be anything but sober. Physically I am OK. Getting frequent headaches and occaisonal feeling of being hungover (thats best I can explain it), but for the most part I think I am winning the battle.
My Story - 17 Months ago I decided that taking Norco would be a fantastic way to pass the work day. I started with 1-2 a day, anything to break of the monotony of my work. I feel it actually made me work much better in the beginning, but towards the end, it was just making me lazy. I was up to about 4-8 a day at the end. I wanted my life back. I recently got married and feel the beautiful person I married deserved so much more. So here I am, 11 days clean, wanting to be dirty.
The physical part is pure hell. 4 days of pure hell. I thinkt he hardest thing I had to deal with was my stomach and not sleeping. Chills sucked too. Constantly feeling wet and cold. A bath worked great, but was very temporary.
As for the mental part, I think i will be battling that for the rest of my life. I'm always thinking that "this could be so much better if I pop a couple pills". No matter the situation. Such a false reality. Some things just suck and I will have to deal with it. Other things are great, and will give me a natural sense of a 'high'. That's what I look forward to now.
Stay strong everyone....
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6+ months here...just wanted to tell "kicked" that he's on the right track as far as events in life that "suck" and natural "highs". The pills got you high in the beginning...then you took them to feel "normal", but it wasn't normal...it was just "flat". Being off the pills, yes, things will suck here and there. BUT...the things that suck will only make the good times feel that much better...you know. I know what I'm talking about.
Peace and all that,
John
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day one for me. (as of 9am) every day is day one for me so far. :-( :-( :-( all i've been able to do so far is cut down. tomorrow i hope to report day 2. (again)
today coulda been day 3 (counting hours), but yesterday I decided to take "ONE" in the mornin and I was fine all day. I felt decent all day (minor aches, pains, laziness but no big deal) so figured "ONE" more. With that thinking, and giving into it, for some reason last night turned into the worst night in my recent history! I got extremely irritable, frusterated, I felt lost, I was cursing God out loud, I was so mad!!!!! The devil just had a tight grip on me? And just to prove how strong the devil is.. guess what? after such a horrible night....after 12 hours...I took ONE again! What a pisser!
Somebody wrote that "one" here and "half" there is just draggin it out.....yesterday proved that to me! Now I want to be done even more!
Thankfully i am to the point now where if I take 2 or more at a time, I'll resent it so much that I dont even do it! And less then that at a time doesnt really make me feel good, so I'm suck with quitting???
The addiction will not take second place in our lives! It will either take first, or NO place!
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Day #3. But first, BigJohn, 6+months freaken amazing. I wish more of you would talk to us on this board. but I guess once you kick it, listening to us wine and cry would be tiresome. but success stories mean so much to us in the early stage. At time I dont' see it happening, but there is proof out there that it can be done. BigJohn that is awesome. fkunorko- you crack me up. I am not laughing at you at all. but your comment about "day one for me and everyday is day one made me smile. Your honesty will get you somewhere. Honesty is where it starts. I have a good fealing that tomorrow will be day two. kickedtheaddiction- 11 days, you are almost there. 14 and you are withdrawal free and ready to take on the world, congratulations.
I am hurting, took four baths last night, was the only relief. Days are fine for me, but the nights are killers. If I could jsut sleep(but nerver could even before pills)I would be on my way. but one of the prices I have to pay. Good luck everyone
Fergnation
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Day 3 for me. Feeling great and over my minor withdrawel.But I'm pathetic. I just put in a phone call to aquire ten perks for the weekend. Starting the cyle once again. Hope to start over clean again on Sunday.
I envy all of you who have stopped and are working so hard. Good luck to all.
Benyitz
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You are NOT pathetic benyitz. It is just life. None of us can expect perfection, ever. You are trying and that is the most important thing.Just like anything else, we have to look only at ourselves and comparing does not one bit of good. We are ALL weak right now. That is why we need to offer our shoulders to each other so we can all keep standing.
Liz
just hold on
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day #2 for me...sleep I can tell is gonna be a dificult thing. I know there is something out there called ambien that works wonders! But i am somewhat skeptical. but then again, I have fought sleep my whole adult life anyway so fergnation I wouldnt consider it a horrible addiction if you took one ambien every night. Supposedly you never get imune to it and never need 2...3...4...twenty! (we know how that goes from hydro/oxy) Also, I took excedrine the headache medicine and I drink coffee. I dont care about that, just the hydro. day 2. moving on. i'll be working on day 2 all day. that is 24-48 hours. Tomorrow is saturday, I ALWAYS use more hydro on the weekends! but if I keep up the good work, saturday can be 48-72, and sunday can be 72-96!!! (but who's counting?) ME DARNIT!
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benyitz3 welcome. Nice to see you posting now. three days is awesome. If you party this weekend don't worry. you just made it through three days and if starting over again on Monday is what you do then great. Atleast the effort is there. Next week is the week. But be careful, your body just had a break for a couple of days, it might not want to start this on and off again stuff. But please come back again on Monday with your Day 1.
Fergnation
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Hey now...Had a great day today. Went to NYC to see Howard Stern's final radio show. It was awesome!!! Anyway...just wanted to reply to fergnation's post about hearing success stories and me and folks in my position getting tired of hearing whining and complaining...never!! It keeps me in check...6 months doesn't mean I don't get the urge...that's why I'm on here. I keep in contact with someone who is 4 years clean! I think THAT is "feakin' amazing". And when some of you get to where I'm at then you can come on here and help those just starting, thus the cycle continues. If anyone wants to email me..feel free..I mean it. I don't have all the answers but I know where you're coming from. I will always reply to you...might take me half a day but I will, I promise. I said before in earlier posts...I'm a former U.S. Army Ranger with tours in Desert Storm, Bosnia, Somolia and kicking the Oxy was the hardest thing i've ever done. I don't want to scare people off but shows how important it is to someday be drug-free and how big of a battle it can be. IF you fall off the wagon...pick yourself up...dust yourself off...look around to see if anyone saw...and get back on. Hang in there...peace of mind is closer than you think.
as far as Ambien...I don't recommend it during w/d. AFTER w/d have subsided then take a sleep aid. It was my experience that Ambien made things worse...w/d AND extra tired but still can't sleep. There's just no easy way around it...gotta take your lumps.
Peace and all that,
John
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28 hours now. I've always wondered when I cut back or stop taking them for a period of time. 1. my knuckles crack and are "ready" to be cracked more often. 2. i get those good long almost orgrasmic "dog" stretch yawn things more often. and I can crack my back. 3. I sneeze more often (none at all when using)
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ohh my gosh!! 32 hours and still going! that is the longest period of time i have gone without taking any for probably a year! i am takine excedrine though....and even that is starting to cause me guilt and shame and scaring me a little. either way, hopefully i stay strong. my stomach is brewing up a storm, but has not released yet.. its coming though, i'm not gonna go too far from a bathroom the next few days!
this will probably be a quiet forum over the weekend. I attribute at least 50% of my little success to this forum (yet, 100% to God)
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Wow congrats! I havent made it that far yet. I always have substituted with ultram. Dont even feel guilty about excedrin, especially when it helps with all those aches and pains. I wish it helped me. Good luck, you are doing great!
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I am scared to post so as to not jinx myself! After 24 hours I was jonesin bad. My back was in a constant spasm. I called everyone I knew and even went to a few people's houses. Nada. Zip. I took some advil liquid gels and some homeopathic stuff for nerves. Within about 1 hour my pain in my back was gone. Gone. Totally. I slept last night and my legs were not cramping at all. Tummy is still a little funky this a.m. but I feel I have crossed a hurdle. I was on a natural high to be pain free without the hydro and even higher for not wanting it. It was weird. Who knows how long it will last but I am riding it baby!
Liz
just hold on
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Awesome Aaron! Knowing weekends are bad for you, I am trying to get some posts in this morning before going out of town. Know I am thinking of you!!!
Liz
just hold on
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Ok, I had made it to day 3 then failed! D'ohhhhh. days one and two were so long and drawn out, and by the end of day 2 I had taken a lot of excedrine. so on day 3, i failed. Let alone it is the weekend.
Ready to try again though...All the way to day 3 and I didnt feel too bad really, except the jonesin and very slight aches.. So i'm going to hopefully start the week out on a good note.. in other words, I hope I only failed saturday, not saturday and sunday. Thus I can go into monday and be at day 2 already.
I've made it far enough to know that what i've read is partially true. The withdrawals for me are not that bad, but the mental and the DESIRE to NOT take any is the hard part. I just want to feel good, heck theres nothing better to do right? Most everybody I hang with is high or drunk anyway!
Anyway, I think I found another key to quitting...
You have to find things that you LIKE to do, but not only LIKE to do, but cant really do WHILE using. Find somethign that you no longer enjoy while using. Like for me, my dirt bike, my truck, and going to Church. I'M miserable with all three of those unless i'm NOT using!
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hey norko...oh well brother. Sorry to hear you "slipped". I'm not disappointed, it's just that you were doing so well. Look forward, not back. you made it 2 days or so...If your w/d's are not that bad physically then you are in good shape. People often say the mental part is the toughest but I dunno...Laying in a fetal position in agonizing pain, ****ping your brains out, wearing 86 sweatshirts but cold as ice is pretty tough. Stick with it...you got someone you can call when you wanna use? When you can't take "10 more steps"?
Peace and all that,
John
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