[icandothis]

hi all ive been reading these threads for about a year now trying to muster up the courage to quit using. ive been using since i was 16 now going on 19. i am on day 3 of withdrawals and planning on staying clean. i quit once before about a year ago and was clean for a month and a half or so then ended up relapsing. i am determined to get my life back on track and be successful in this life. i was using about 120-180mgs a day. i want things back to the way they were before all of this and i know it wont be easy but like i said im determined to do this. support would be great seeings how im too embarressed to tell my family and friends.

[supermomhelp]

You came to the right place. The people here are so supportive in tapering or cold turkey...you just need the WILL...posting, going to meetings, talking, understanding...you need all of the components. But when you've made up your mind, you CAN do it!!!
I'm so proud of you for making this first step! HUGS

[icandothis]

Originally Posted by supermomhelp

You came to the right place. The people here are so supportive in tapering or cold turkey...you just need the WILL...posting, going to meetings, talking, understanding...you need all of the components. But when you've made up your mind, you CAN do it!!!
I'm so proud of you for making this first step! HUGS

thanks so much i do have the will but it gets weaker day by day im just doing my best to stay strong.... its hard tho... i tried to go to a meeting last night but of course there was no meeting at the church where they are held.... it just seems like when i try to do something right something comes up that makes it harder....

[mottam]

icandothis:
Welcome. Roxies (30mgs.) were my opiate of choice. I understand where you are at and where you want to get to.
Post and tell us a little more about yourself, and ask us how we can help.
There is a LOT of good people on here with sound advice.

I am heading home for the evening now to have dinner. I will look for your posts and if I can help, I will. Just posting, my friend, helps big time. It gives you an avenue to get things off of your mind, and let others, like a cyber N/A meeting, respond to.

Best of luck.
mottam

[icandothis]

Originally Posted by mottam

icandothis:
Welcome. Roxies (30mgs.) were my opiate of choice. I understand where you are at and where you want to get to.
Post and tell us a little more about yourself, and ask us how we can help.
There is a LOT of good people on here with sound advice.

I am heading home for the evening now to have dinner. I will look for your posts and if I can help, I will. Just posting, my friend, helps big time. It gives you an avenue to get things off of your mind, and let others, like a cyber N/A meeting, respond to.

Best of luck.
mottam

well i work full time in food service making decent money for my age but unfortunately almost all the money id make went towards drugs i just want to turn my life around while i still can..... i recentely got my GED and now im working on getting a grant and going to college.... those little blue devils have withdrawn me from my friends, family, and society in general... and it scares me because all of the kids i grew up with (well most) are going down the wrong road and i want to help but i have to help myself first....ive also lost a few friends to overdoses and jail and i know this sounds lame but ive broke down crying thinking about my life and all the people ive hurt and the ones hurting themselves....... i also lost the greatest girl in the world because of my addiction, i know im young but she meant the world to me and i dont think she would ever take me back..........

[mottam]

icandothis:
I saw on another thread you made it to day 4 - Congrats.
I also understand what it is like to lose friend to addiction; overdose and jail.
One of my "old" friends is permanently institutionalized due to the brain damage from his heavy usage.
Also, I am a married man with 2 young children. The wife and I are having a rough go of it lately. Addiction can ******** a lot of things up.

The only advice I would give you is this:
Focus on YOU right now - the rest will play itself out, for better or worse.
Do not get discouraged. If you stumble and fall (hopefully, you will not), pick yourself up and keep moving forward. Understand what your triggers are, and keep building a strong support group.

Keep us posted. - Great job.
mottam

[Cats Meow]

Just decide to quit and go cold turkey, you're so young that your body will bounce right back in no time, sure, it's going to take a week, and its hard, and you'll know what hell feels like, but you will survive it, no one ever dies from w/d (you just think you will). Don't waste anymore time, just do it, and get it over with.

[icandothis]

its day 6 not feeling too bad just laziness is all.... had some mild stomach cramps earlier and havent had to use the immodium today..... it looks like im approaching the finish line and there is no one in front of me.... it is so crazy that when i quit about a year ago the w/d was way worse and i was on a way lower dose 90mgs tops... oh well not complaining just saying....

[mottam]

Great job - keep pushing through.
Please remember that it is at this time that relapse happens the most. We begin to feel really good, and our minds trick us: "Just one, no big deal, I can handle it".
I know you are strong and this will not happen.
Keep a positive support group, and watch out for those triggers.

mottam

[supermomhelp]

Originally Posted by icandothis

its day 6 not feeling too bad just laziness is all.... had some mild stomach cramps earlier and havent had to use the immodium today..... it looks like im approaching the finish line and there is no one in front of me.... it is so crazy that when i quit about a year ago the w/d was way worse and i was on a way lower dose 90mgs tops... oh well not complaining just saying....

How are you doing today~???? Still here...can't wait to hear how your days going!
HUGS

[icandothis]

Originally Posted by supermomhelp

How are you doing today~???? Still here...can't wait to hear how your days going!
HUGS

im doing pretty good day 8 today im just really tired all the time but other than that no w/d im even sleeping almost all through the night.... i think i can feel the depression setting in.... its just so hard gettin back into the swing of things after being on drugs almost everyday for the past 2 or so years

[supermomhelp]

I totally agree. I'm not really having the physical symptoms but the mental are overwhelming sometimes.
I go through things in my mind all the time during the day. What could I have done different? Why couldn't I just keep it controlled and then I'd still be popping pills and happy!
BUT...it's a bandaged happy. It's fake. It's not all the real emotions that are brought forth once your on the other side. You experience the good AND the bad, and sometimes its hard to really FEEL all the stuff again.