[Debpurpletiger]

Sorry for over-reacting. Not an excususe - I have beel ill the past week with flu, 2nd ap for Social Security, not greatest relationship and YES he knows about my addiction.....I'm probably on chance #16 - because yes, even tho I have a prescription for my pain meds, when I get emotionally stressed, I take extras. I am sorry I was not 100% honest. Actuall ALL is except yes, I am "relapsing"

I just don't like to be judged, felt like I was but bit the bullett and realized you were almost all exactly right.

I hope you accept apology, if NO, I understand.

[htoth19]

You don't have to apologize to anyone. Everybody has stress, everybody goes through sh!t sometimes. Everybody over reacts too. No big deal. When you need a friend, or support or both, we're all here.

~Heather

[Freedom4me]

Deb,
As heather said, there is no need for an apology. I am very proud of your honesty. Do you think that we can help you to try to reduce or control your dosages? I would love to be there for you as a support system and friend.
Jenny

[Robert_325]

Deb .... if anyone here has been in your shoes it's me. I won't even get into my past but we all have to start somewhere in this process. You just took a big step.

Admitting our fears and standing up and facing them is a huge step. Tell me what I can do to help you and I'm around every day. I'm glad you made this decision.

You're facing your demons and we've all had them/got them. I'm proud of you for what that is worth. You just did something really important for your recovery. God bless.

[cheekysod]

deb, good on you girl.

i have been where you are too. in the hot seat. it aint a good place when others can see stuff in ourselves and we cant see it. ive been to two rehabs, quite a few years ago now, and i was in the hot seat one day and i wanted to run away, they were all telling me stuff, and i got really angry, but they were right. and i couldnt see it. till they pointed it out. it sucked, but was good for me at the same time.
im really glad you are still posting,
at least you know people care enough to say something ay.
hope you and your boyfriend can work together, help each other.
i guess now your mind is in overdrive wondering what the next step might be, but good for you,
so you are in relapse. do you want to get clean.? and off the pills?
i guess thats the next one.

anyway, its very hard to admit what you did, you should be proud of yourself for having the balls to do that. good one.
good luck

[doc.rose]

Originally Posted by Debpurpletiger

Sorry for over-reacting. Not an excususe - I have beel ill the past week with flu, 2nd ap for Social Security, not greatest relationship and YES he knows about my addiction.....I'm probably on chance #16 - because yes, even tho I have a prescription for my pain meds, when I get emotionally stressed, I take extras. I am sorry I was not 100% honest. Actuall ALL is except yes, I am "relapsing"

I just don't like to be judged, felt like I was but bit the bullett and realized you were almost all exactly right.

I hope you accept apology, if NO, I understand.

No need to apologize! It is hard to tell the truth sometimes, and I commend you for your honesty. You have lots of support here, so use it if you need it!!

[TTTDogs]

Deb,

I am so glad you are back - I was worried about you - and was concerned my comments drove you away - that scared me......
Deb - your one post read - "Need help ........" I want you to know I am here to help - if ever and when ever you want - ......... I am living proof - you CAN get your life back - you CAN exist in a world without the "need for pills" - I understand you have real pain issues - but you will not realize your ability to deal with those UNTIL you cure the addiction part of the pain..............
My dear friend, I am here for you - I will never judge you - I had a 10 YEAR morphine addiction - a highly concentrated oral solution - prescribed for hospice patients - I will choose to live out my days drug free - able to FEEL the glory and even FEEL the pain......... please don't grow old FROM and WITH drugs - you deserve to realize your potential - to enjoy your dear friends and family and make yourself and those you love proud!

I am not sure where your head is right now - take your time - I AM sure of one thing for certain - WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU - I KNOW IT IS SCARY AND DAUNTING - BUT WE ARE HERE - ABLE TO HOLD YOUR HAND - WIPE YOUR TEARS - AND LET YOU KNOW YOU ARE WORTH IT !!!!

Standing by & Caring HUGS TTT

[TTTDogs]

Deb,

I am so glad you are back - I was worried about you - and was concerned my comments drove you away - that scared me......
Deb - your one post read - "Need help ........" I want you to know I am here to help - if ever and when ever you want - ......... I am living proof - you CAN get your life back - you CAN exist in a world without the "need for pills" - I understand you have real pain issues - but you will not realize your ability to deal with those UNTIL you cure the addiction part of the pain..............
My dear friend, I am here for you - I will never judge you - I had a 10 YEAR morphine addiction - a highly concentrated oral solution - prescribed for hospice patients - I will choose to live out my days drug free - able to FEEL the glory and even FEEL the pain......... please don't grow old FROM and WITH drugs - you deserve to realize your potential - to enjoy your dear friends and family and make yourself and those you love proud!

I am not sure where your head is right now - take your time - I AM sure of one thing for certain - WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU - I KNOW IT IS SCARY AND DAUNTING - BUT WE ARE HERE - ABLE TO HOLD YOUR HAND - WIPE YOUR TEARS - AND LET YOU KNOW YOU ARE WORTH IT !!!!

Standing by & Caring HUGS TTT