[bev49]

I'm saying 2 prayers Kath.... plus keeping my fingers and toes crossed....

[kathleen5hockey]

Thanks Bev, I am a wreck!

[kathleen5hockey]

SHE DID GREAT!!!! Am so proud of her, we all have told her that. She met some old friends. The bf is a jerk. Kept calling her while she was in school, no more phone for her while at school. He then started a fight with her. Have told her he is controlling and be be aware. She must make her own decision regarding him. I don't like him.

Anyway, let's focus on the good. She did GREAT!!!!! I am one happy mom! She just asked me to look for a website for school while talking to bf. Told her no, get off the phone and do it yourself. It seems like there is a fine line between helping and treating her like a baby.

Thank you for all of your prayers.

[Lost83]

I am so stoked for her that she did well in school, very awesome!!!! You know I agree on the bf subject. Good luck for her 2nd day tomorrow whoo hoo!!! Wish I were still in HS sometimes but wouldn't change my life for anything.

[Robert_325]

Kathleen ... Lost is giving you good advice. You are making progress with Amy. Don't allow the turkey to cost her improvemrnt.

[bev49]

Yay Kath!!!!! I'm so happy the first day went well. I'm crossing my fingers for the rest of the days )..... Youre a good mommy

[kathleen5hockey]

Another good day for Amy! She looks beautiful and is laughing again. Some boys were flirting with her, made her feel good about herself. Girls were complimenting on her clothes. She is like her old self. Home every night, bf sees her for maybe an hour then leaves. The only problem she has is her old best friend who dumped her is in the lunch class. I told her to sit with her back towards her, talk to the other kids or read a book. Yeah, easy for me I'm not there. Told her the more the girl knows she's upsetting Amy the worse she will be, Amy must be the bigger person and stand tall. Keep praying.

[kathleen5hockey]

Update: Amy had a migraine yesterday so did not go to school. When I called her out the secretary told me at least 10 other girls have called with the same complaint. She did go today with a smile on her face. Keep her in your prayers.

[Lost83]

Migraines are no fun!! Had severe migraines since I was 5, luckily I got glasses back then and they subsided, probably only had 2 or 4 in the past 20 years. Hope she is feeling better!

[kathleen5hockey]

Amy is doing wonderful! She didn't feel good again but did go to school. She gets RLS at night (withdrawals?). After she takes Suboxone she is little miss speedy. Cleaned my whole house for me! I give her alot of credit. She has been to he-- and back. Just hope some kids start asking her to parties and such. Would help to get away from bf, although she is home at 8-8:30 every night. We spend the evenings together talking, watching tv, etc. Hubby and I were talking and wondered how we survived the past 3 years. It seems so long ago. God is with us. She has become more spiritual, she always was the one to say Grace at meal and go to church, she is doing it again. Keep on praying!

[Lost83]

I am so happy for your family!!

[kathleen5hockey]

Hey Robert or anyone else, any idea why I keep finding empty pen shells around? Does the Suboxone make you speedy?

[Lost83]

1st: Robert please do not get down on yourself for the few people who think they know it all. You have been there, done that, and CHOOSE to spend your time helping others. It's amazing the impact you have had on so many peoples lives and you deserve all the accalades that come your way although I know that's not why you do what you do.

Kathleen,

I would take Roberts advice seriously, I was suspicious about your post yesterday regarding the w/d's but didn't want to speculate. From the info you have given it appears that something is going on with her...

[kathleen5hockey]

Robert, I trust you. I need to hear the truth. Even though things have been good on the outside, in my gut something is wrong. She's to happy, you know to the point of sickening. Her pupils were very large last night, today didn't go to school. I found her in my change jar looking for quarters and when I gave her money for cigs she didn't come home with any. I love my daughter more than anything but I just have a feeling.

On a good note, yesterday was my birthday and was the best one in many years (before addiction). My son got me a beautiful Swarvoski (sp) crystal necklace, he was so proud of himself, even got up early to give it to me. Amy wrote me the most beautiful note on how she wouldn't be who she is without me. All in all the family treated me the way I deserve to be treated.

[kathleen5hockey]

lost, can't get it to work, you try with me.

[bev49]

Happy Belated Birthday Kathleen. I'm so glad you had a good family day.... I am really sorry about Amy... Relapse happens and when you feel something in your gut, its usually true... I hope she gets it together really soon.. You cant email anyone on this site at the present time. Hopefully that will change soon

[kathleen5hockey]

Thanks Bev, I am not positive that she has relapsed. Some of it is me wanting her to move on, get a job, get her licence, etc. Will keep you posted.

[bev49]

I so hope she hasn't. Guess what. YOU don't deserve it, Kathleen. Keep me updated.

[kathleen5hockey]

And it starts again. She has missed 2 days of school in 2 weeks and yesterday left early because a boy called her crack head, xxxxxxxxxx. Today she did go back. Just a gut feeling. Am hiding my money again, could have sworn I had a 10 in my wallet, not anymore. I think she is using again. All the signs are there. Face breaking out, money missing and to boot she tells me she's going to a party with the girl that helped get her hooked to the needle and pimped her out! I know she is lonely, there lies the problem. The "regular" kids don't want to hang with her but the druggies are always there to take her money and love on her. I pray to God I am wrong and just paranoid. I had my little girl back for a while.

Anyone know what "mad dog" printed on a celaphane piece of paper means. What kind of drug is it?

Robert, I miss you.

[Robert_325]

Kathleen .... you can post to me. I'll help you as I'm able. I'm going to do my best to help a few people. God bless.

[melinda7.5]

Hi Kathleen
I'm not very fond of the public school system,My daughter Hated it. she also has two friends one does her school on line and the other goes to an alternative school and they all get good grades and don't do drugs so there are good kids other places...high school kids can be so mean I don't think Amy will be given a fair chance...Have you ever thought about checking out the collage and seeing if they have some kind of program she could continue her school.
I could not do regular school when I was young if you don't fit in they just give you hell and Amy seemed to be doing better over the summer and when you two were spending time together and then she started back in school and it started back up...
maybe I'm wrong but I just know what regular school did to me...

talk to you later, Melinda

[MaisieC]

Originally Posted by kathleen5hockey

Anyone know what "mad dog" printed on a celaphane piece of paper means. What kind of drug is it?

Does it look different from a heroin bag? I know that used to be a "brand" of heroin.

[bev49]

I thought mad dog was a type of wine prevelant in High Schools because its cheap and REALLY has a kick to it but I looked it up and the lable says MD not mad dog so if you saw my post about that, its inocrrect. Heroin has all kinds of names, Mad Dog seems a logical name for heroin. Do you know what a heroin bag looks like? Is the name stamped on? Empty pen caps are used for all kinds of insidious drug activity, from being a part of a home made bong to snorting drugs and/or smoking crystal meth. Empty pen caps around the house is not a good sign, Kathleen, I'm so sorry.

[kathleen5hockey]

Melinda, I agree with you. I didn't want her back in the hs. I wanted her in alternate, she would have graduated this yr from alternate but now it's 1.5 yrs. Amy always had a dream of getting back with her old gf. I didn't like hs either, people always picked on me and made fun of me, so I understand what it feels like. Have told her this also.

The wrapper I found looks like a piece of gum wrapper but I notice it was stamped with mad dog.

Now she is complaining of stomache problems again. If she has an STD I will definately cut the thing off her bf.

Thank you to all for standing by me during this he--. Welcome back Robert, don't know what happened but I have always trusted your judgement. You are batting 100% for advise.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by kathleen5hockey

Melinda, I agree with you. I didn't want her back in the hs. I wanted her in alternate, she would have graduated this yr from alternate but now it's 1.5 yrs. Amy always had a dream of getting back with her old gf. I didn't like hs either, people always picked on me and made fun of me, so I understand what it feels like. Have told her this also.

The wrapper I found looks like a piece of gum wrapper but I notice it was stamped with mad dog.

Now she is complaining of stomache problems again. If she has an STD I will definately cut the thing off her bf.

Thank you to all for standing by me during this he--. Welcome back Robert, don't know what happened but I have always trusted your judgement. You are batting 100% for advise.

I just needed a few days off Kathleen. It's not even worth going into why I left for those days but I'm back and here to stay. Plus I've been dealing with lots of personal knee problems. I appreciate the vote of confidence. I'm here for you anytime I can help. God bless.

[kathleen5hockey]

Glad to have you back. Amy was good this weekend, she didn't go to the party with all of the old druggies. She stayed home and watched a movie with her dad. She went to school this morning so it's a good day. Just wish one person would be really nice to her and ask her to go for coffee or something. She did go to church with me on Sunday again. God is great.

[Lost83]

Hi Kathleen! I am glad it appears she is getting back on track. One day at a time.

[kathleen5hockey]

You are correct. Another day sober is a good day, then tomorrow will be just a little easier to stay clean.


Hey Lost, where are you? Are you ok?

[Lost83]

Hi Kathleen,

I'm here! I've been following your posts just haven't been able to respond due to technical difficulties I suppose. Anywho, moving forward... sounds like she did relapse and it happens, hopefully it will be the last, only time will tell.

[kathleen5hockey]

No school again. Last night she was complaining of a migraine. Told her to take Advil, it seemed to work. I have noticed that when she eats alot of junk food she gets bad headaches, think it's all the preservatives that she has a reaction to. I get the same reaction, therefore don't eat junk food but I am an adult. She told her father that bf would drive her to school but at 9 she was still sleeping. Didn't call her in. She doesn't get it, in Jan when she turns 18 things will be changing. Oh well.

On a different note, went horseback riding yesterday, yes, doing it again, had such a hot flash that I had to leave, went home directly to bed and slept 12 hrs. Ladies, anyone have this problem?

People were right when they said have your kids young, me in menapause and her in addiction, what a combo!