[Lost83]

Wow, he was doing ok without them and just taking the aleve. You don't need me to tell you this is definitely a problem for him. I pray you have the strength to do what is best for you and your family. He needs to choose recovery but it doesn't look like he is willing to go that route. I know it's not easy, I am in the same position and I chose to let my hubby stay because I couldn't bring myself to put him in a homeless shelter. But if it comes to it, I will. I can't go insane worrying about him all the time and I refuse to watch him kill himself. Stay strong!

On another note, I am taking my little one trick or treating tonight, I am so excited! I feel like a kid again myself.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by mikie7911

robert and lost,

ya'll are so kind to ck on me. here's what has been going on and please let me know your thoughts! he had just opened up his bottle the last time i posted and was only going to take a pill at night, well, then he started taking one in the am and one at night, which he pretty well has stuck to, but....there are days that he is back to taking 3 or 4 a day. i know to some that may not seem so bad, but, i've been through this before and that is how it always gets started. now, he is down to 48 pills out of that bottle of 120, ordered another bottle, and so the cycle begins. i had tried very hard to have the don't give a S...T attitude and not to be obsessive about counting pills, but i just can't get over my obsessiveness, (lost i know you understand where i'm coming from). last night i blew up and told him i would not go through this again, he said, well, when you see i'm taking too many, just let me know so i can slow down.....WHY do i have to be the pill police, doesn't he know when he opens that bottle that HE is the only one that can control it! most days he is pretty much himself, but when he takes too many, it just really p...es me off! what do i do????????? if it weren't for my kids at home, i know what i'd do but.......i'm affraid of what that would do to them. my youngest is in grammar school and i know that would just kill him, he doesn't know about the pills nor do i feel like i can explain that in a way that wouldn't warp his little brain.

please advise!

You already know how I feel about all this. I said it before that his insisting that he needed pain meds for sleep was an excuse to use.

There is no way that I believe it's best for children to remain in a negative environment like drug abusing parents. That is not the answer even if change causes them pain in the immediate future. They would get over it.

I wouldn't be a pill cop either. He is using that as an excuse to use too. I think he acts like a four year old personally. My advice from the past still holds true for today. Nothing has changed because you have allowed it to move forward. If you were my sister I would have to ask you just what the hell do you think you are accomplishing by continuing to allow this nonsense? Of course I am probably stepping into your private space but that is how I feel. I get so tired of seeing people being abused and taken advantage of by drug addicts who don't care. God bless.

[mikie7911]

robert,

i know exactly where you are coming from, you have not stepped on my toes in any way! i truely appreciate the honesty!

i'll keep you updated on how things go with me.