[JWOOD33]

was one of the best there was, and it wasn't by chance. I worked hard for 11 years. I experienced all the ups and downs available.
I was a master of my craft. Why do I speak in past tense? How do I get back in How do I create the balance between greatness and being humble?
Bridge the gap between the great broker drug addict and the sober failure. my life is a mess and all the knowledge and ability seems to be wasted away by the past fouls I have all these questions and no one to ask. I look at my life now and don’t understand why. I know how it really is but why? Why give ability and greatness to some one who will screw it up every time. I have desire now but tomorrow when I wake I have to face the realities of failure. I want so badly to be the professional I was with out the drugs and being a fake liar. it seems if I have god and sobriety I cant have success and financial stability. I miss my home my license transportation ability to go out to dinner pay for my children's clothes & soccer I miss it all. I loved that Life. I guess it is like they say its better to loved and lost than to never to loved at all.


Sincerely,
Johnathan L. Wood Sr
Trinity Mortgage
depressed
Ex- Mortgage Broker

[Cats Meow]

I hope you're not looking for an excuse to use, Idk what to tell you, we wouldn't have half of all the great rock music if it weren't for drugs and alcohol, same boat, when most of the great musicians became sober their creativity vanished. Maybe you should consider doing something different, maybe your happiness lies elsewhere, maybe it's another of life's great mysteries?
Thanks for posting.

[shellister]

Wow, can I relate---I got through college, great jobs, traumas, everything while using.....I am barely sober, again and feel like I can't even go outside at times! I have a daughter, yet was 'forced' to sign over temp. custody and can't seem do get back. I also lost license for 6yrs and just got it back...can I tell you its like I'm institionalized! I don't even go anywhere, I am soo used to not being able to--SICK! Well, all we can do is hang in there and keep trying, motto is 'giving up is not an option'. But do feel your pain JWOOD33.