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**ialwaysdo** · 11-21-2009, 11:46 PM

Thank you all for the kind words!!!! Its truly great to here from you guys!!

I'm very happy to hear you junked the klonipin Kid Monster !! We both just have to keep our focus.

I am very proud of myself.. As far as suboxone goes , I don't think I've ever worked harder on anything b4 in my life...I took the same extreme behavior that saw me take massive amounts of pain pills and focused it on subs..

Smoking always left me feeling dirty...I always said I only did it in relation to taking pills , and once that was gone I saw no point in continuing. I never enjoyed it without the pills , so maybey thats why it was easy??

Before I ever posted here I would read the horror storys of those who had a bad time getting off subs , and it troubled me. I didn't trust my sub doctor at all , he was so judgemental , and just the worst profesional I've ever seen. So I turned to this board , and I'm glad I did. I haven't been clean since July of 2006 ( for ten days ). Before that mid 2005, so now I gotta try to put my life back together, and I'll use the same strength I've found these last few months..

**swimsuit** · 11-22-2009, 01:37 AM

Good luck, ialwaysdo!!

**Robert_325** · 11-22-2009, 08:34 AM

Originally Posted by ialwaysdo

Thank you all for the kind words!!!! Its truly great to here from you guys!!

I'm very happy to hear you junked the klonipin Kid Monster !! We both just have to keep our focus.

I am very proud of myself.. As far as suboxone goes , I don't think I've ever worked harder on anything b4 in my life...I took the same extreme behavior that saw me take massive amounts of pain pills and focused it on subs..

Smoking always left me feeling dirty...I always said I only did it in relation to taking pills , and once that was gone I saw no point in continuing. I never enjoyed it without the pills , so maybey thats why it was easy??

Before I ever posted here I would read the horror storys of those who had a bad time getting off subs , and it troubled me. I didn't trust my sub doctor at all , he was so judgemental , and just the worst profesional I've ever seen. So I turned to this board , and I'm glad I did. I haven't been clean since July of 2006 ( for ten days ). Before that mid 2005, so now I gotta try to put my life back together, and I'll use the same strength I've found these last few months..

Cigarettes are some nasty gargbage.

I finally quit for good back in the 90s. I'm so squeaky clean today it even scares me.

You're doing great. Just keep doing what you're doing. In not time you'll be laughing about all this.

It doesn't have to chase you around forever. There can be some after effects when you finsish getting clean but NOTHTING you can't handle. I'm here if there is anything I can do to help. God bless.

**ialwaysdo** · 11-23-2009, 05:14 AM

hey cheekysod-

Best wishes to u as u are soo close to getting free of subs...A great way to enter in to the new decade 2010!!!

For me once I got to the 1 mg mark it became more easy than when I was on higher doses. I always thought the hardest part was going to be when I stopped completley. Not so in my case..We are here to help support u!!

I thought I would need other rx drugs to ease me off , but I didn't need them ( ambien would be nice tho ).. I wish I hadn't stressed so much for soooo long about sub detox...I never expected it to go sooo smooth...You're right there...

**ialwaysdo** · 11-28-2009, 06:53 AM

Its been about a week and a half and things are going well. My back has been troubling me here and there but this can't be perfect.

I'm sleeping much better of late and I don't have any cravings for pills. Its a so far so good situation. Its very nice not having this hanging over my head, not needing to make sure I have subs with me at all times to avoid being sick.

Everyone be well!!!!

**ialwaysdo** · 12-12-2009, 10:46 AM

I'm getting close to a month clean from suboxone , and I'm in good shape. I thought I would be craving pain pills by now , but that hasn't been the case..I'm really shocked about that , but it hasn't even been a month yet, though deep down I think I've just moved on.

I have alot more energy and clarity these days , and overall feel strong and expect to get stronger as the days pass.

**cheekysod** · 12-12-2009, 03:14 PM

hey mate,
thanks for posting how well you are doing, thats really cool, and gives me the encouragement i need, that its going to be ok.
im on .5, pretty close, next drop .25 then nearly off. woo hooo.

did you mention ambien coz of the lack of sleep. we dont get that here, but i could get hold of some sleeping pills of some sort, or i can get valium or clonazapam. just curious, i was hoping tho i wouldnt need anything else.
i have noticed i wake up real early, bit restless and crampy so i take my sub then and go back to sleep.

thank you ialways do, its great to see someone not too far ahead of me doing
BLOODY BEAUTIFUL BRO.

cheeky

**Robert_325** · 12-12-2009, 03:29 PM

Originally Posted by ialwaysdo

I'm getting close to a month clean from suboxone , and I'm in good shape. I thought I would be craving pain pills by now , but that hasn't been the case..I'm really shocked about that , but it hasn't even been a month yet, though deep down I think I've just moved on.

I have alot more energy and clarity these days , and overall feel strong and expect to get stronger as the days pass.

Almost a month clean is a miracle for an addict! Proud of you my friend. Every day will continue to get better until you peak out the way you're supposed to feel being clean. Congratulations! You never have to use again. That is awesome. God bless.

**ialwaysdo** · 12-12-2009, 05:01 PM

Thanks Robert , what you do here is very honorable and I have more trust in a person who has gone through this then a doc that took a course to prescribe subs...

Cheeky- I myself didn't sleep well at the end and could have used ambien.. I used to have a script for that and valium... I would say do what you need to do to get free of subs 1st and formost but , other rx drugs can be a slippery slope... Let me tell you when I was at .50 I didn't even know how close I was to being free...Its going to happen for you!!! I was very fearful of the detox but it was almost too easy at the end.... When you complete this you will be on a natural high!!!

The bottom line is the 6 months I spent on subs was a very dark uncertain time for me...The end was easy.. I don't crave them now but even if I eventually do I couldn't except the fact that all my work these past 6 months was for nothing... I would feel so guilty it wouldn't be worth it.

**ialwaysdo** · 02-27-2010, 01:35 PM

Hey everybody- Just thought I'd let you know how I'm doing...I have 3 months clean off subs! In 3 more months it will be a year since I last used pain pills! On the negative side of things, my back hurts alot, and thats the only time I think of using.. I use vix , and bayer , and am going to the gym to try to get my back stronger. I also am concerned about what damage I've done to my liver, from my use of pain pills...So guess thats all I got to say today...

**cheekysod** · 03-06-2010, 11:34 PM

i always do, im a bit late for this but better late than never pal...

CONGRATULATIONS, AWESOME JOB. KEEP IT UP.

all the best
cheeky

**ialwaysdo** · 03-13-2010, 01:27 PM

thanks cheeky...

however, I'm taking valium / ambien every night right now ( legally )...

my whole adult life I spent using either pot and or pain killers...i stopped smoking pot when I got off subs after using it my whole adult life...

so at night in my mind , after spending the day sober I convince myself I deserve to use the valuim/ambien...I look forward to it...I say to myself do what ever u need to do so long as your not taking painkillers...

But I don't want to become addicted to new pills...

So I'm very proud of how well my opiat recovery has gone but I'm not as healthy as I could be...

**cheekysod** · 03-13-2010, 02:29 PM

thats ok mate, as long as you are aware of it.

and being clean of opiates is a biggie. you should be well stoked.

yeh, my whole adult life, smoked pot, done opiates, not so much the pills, bit of a binger on them..

yay for you, i do same, like coz im doin so good, (not just now) i deserve something. ya know. i get that one for sure.

well good on ya, must be about 2-3 months for you ay. choice.

see ya
cheeky

**ialwaysdo** · 03-15-2010, 12:34 PM

thanks cheeky...

I got 4 months off subs now! I dropped the 20 pounds that I put on by being a lazy addict , by going to the gym, and eating right.

But yeah , at night I just feel the need to indulge , but like u said , at least I'm aware of it...

Hope your doin well brother!!

**cheekysod** · 03-19-2010, 11:33 PM

yeh i wouldnt mind losin the lazy 20 extra pounds i got as well.

good one.

oh and i's a sista. heh heh.

take it easy pal.

cheeky

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