[ialwaysdo]

Hi everybody,

I began taking vicodin in late 2005 , and by the end of the year was addicted. From January 2006 til July 2006 I was on 100 mg a day. I REALLY didn't know what lay ahead for me. One day my dealer informed me he couldn't get pills cuz his guy was out. I took my last pills on Saturday July 1st and the next day I was ok. I awoke July 3rd in full blown withdrawl and called out of work. I spent July 3rd and the 4th in the most pain I've ever known ( you guys know what I'm talking about ). However after 2 days of hell it was over and I forced myself back to work. Then about 10 days later my dealer had vics and sure enough I jumped back in. July 21st my beloved dog died at 8 years old. For me these were the worst days of my life ( nothing compared to the pain thats out there I know ).

Eventually I switched to snorting oxys,roxys,ect..( 350mg/400mg a day)..I had those nights where I wasn't sure i would wake up the next day. This pattern went on until the summer of 2008 when I went on suboxone. I didn't quit cause I wanted to, only cause it was costing me too much cash. After about 40 something days on subs I went back to pk's. For the next 7 months or so I bounced back and fourth between pain pills and subs. On my 30th birthday in early May I decided it was time to turn the page.

I started taking 8mg ( maybey 10mg ) and have been on the subs for 5 months. At the 2mg point I started having the most trouble droping mg's. Last week I got to 1mg and feel my body responding better.My w/d isn't as bad as it has been throughout this timespan. My sub doctor seems to want me on these orange f***ers as long as possible. I really think sub docs make more money the longer your on subs, so thats they're concern. I have about eight 8 mg pills left and don't want to go get more. My original sub doc got nailed for sexual assault and my 1 visit to the new doc was the worst expierence I've ever had with a doctor. It was like I was Larry David on Curb ( if u watch that show ). am I the only person who feels like there are smoke and mirrors with suboxone? Well I know I'm not from reading the posts. I know we all have to pay the piper and I want to soon. i feel that if I don't have the subs mentally it will help me do this. And I will try to ween to at least .50 hopfully.25 and then every 3rd day take that dose. Thanks for reading. Input welcome....Goodnight..

[klopper22]

It may be the 'same old story', but it will be new to someone and help them out if by no other way than somehow relating to your situation. Good luck.