[killer-oxy]

Hi - here is my story - short-version. 2 years abuse.

Began with Perc's - before long was taking 20-25 per day but getting sick from all of the tylenol in them.

2nd year - began oxy's - didn't take me too long to get up to where I am today which is at - 3 to 4 80 mg (green)
PER day. Yes, kill a horse I suppose. I also take valium to which I have been on for about 6 years and physically addicted to them too - the W/D are same in BAD way - just a whole lot Different than off oxy and longer.

BUT - I have NEVER gone full-blown W/D off the OXY. I am in Canada. I am flying out to L.A. Tuesday on the red-eye to go to a dr. to get on the Subutex.

ALL comments welcome (unless they are going to scare the ******** out of me as I am terrified as it is). I am SO bad that I don't feel *normal* unless I GET at Least 4 80's in me a day - evenings are the worst. With that much in me, I function Very well, work very well, etc...it is SO strange. If I cutback - I have ZERO energy--if I take, I have Lots of energy - I just don't understand how a *downer* is an *upper* for me.

Actually - I DID go through W/D once, it was inbetween just starting the oxy's, up to about 40 mg/day which is a far cry from where I am at NOW. I was clean for 35 days with No drugs and it was NOT fun. I had gone to a rehab in QC for booze but did everything but the valium s I had a dr. RX for that.

QUESTION -are the W/D worse the MORE yur body is used too? I am thinking yes...but don't now for sure....

I also understand one needs to be in W/D to even begin the sub...so fortunately I will be with a GREAT friend down there during this time...as I a SO scared.

PLEASE - tell me a little bit of what to expect...just please at this point do not scare me too death as I am likely to chicken out...na, I can't--I HAVE to stop - I WANT TO STOP-- like all of you at whatever stage - I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

I am SO sick of being a slave!! to this drug.

Thank you!

[killer-oxy]

P.S. BTW - I have never used a needle. I chew them or snort them.
Don't know if that makes ANY difference. I am also mentally addicted to the *action* of snorting, I will even snort tylenol with codiene, anything - just so it goes up my nose.

Also, sadly, up here in canada their only *answer* is to slap people on Methadone. I don't want to go on that - not ever and certainly not for life - which is how it ends up here - lifer's.

Seems to me no difference. Just a slave to another daily habit all your life.
I SURE hope t o hear from some of you b4 I leave. It is Sun at 11:30 pm here and I leve at 5 am on Tuesday morn.

[brndout]

Hi its OK and if its done the right way you will be fine and off the subs in about 8 weeks maybe less if you start the right way.Please go to the forum called Featured Drugs and click on the second permanent sticky called Suboxone/Subutex therapy by Robert325. Read this and post to Robert325.I think he is offline now but check back somehow before you do the induction.Some Drs do it in the office and some write a script.I know things go better if you are in withdraw _26 on the COWS worksheet-and you take the smallest ammount of Sub necessary. Please dont worry ,everything will be fine and you have already made the first important step.People on this forum will help you. Let me know whats up. Linda

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by killer-oxy

Hi - here is my story - short-version. 2 years abuse.

Began with Perc's - before long was taking 20-25 per day but getting sick from all of the tylenol in them.

2nd year - began oxy's - didn't take me too long to get up to where I am today which is at - 3 to 4 80 mg (green)
PER day. Yes, kill a horse I suppose. I also take valium to which I have been on for about 6 years and physically addicted to them too - the W/D are same in BAD way - just a whole lot Different than off oxy and longer.

BUT - I have NEVER gone full-blown W/D off the OXY. I am in Canada. I am flying out to L.A. Tuesday on the red-eye to go to a dr. to get on the Subutex.

ALL comments welcome (unless they are going to scare the ******** out of me as I am terrified as it is). I am SO bad that I don't feel *normal* unless I GET at Least 4 80's in me a day - evenings are the worst. With that much in me, I function Very well, work very well, etc...it is SO strange. If I cutback - I have ZERO energy--if I take, I have Lots of energy - I just don't understand how a *downer* is an *upper* for me.

Actually - I DID go through W/D once, it was inbetween just starting the oxy's, up to about 40 mg/day which is a far cry from where I am at NOW. I was clean for 35 days with No drugs and it was NOT fun. I had gone to a rehab in QC for booze but did everything but the valium s I had a dr. RX for that.

QUESTION -are the W/D worse the MORE yur body is used too? I am thinking yes...but don't now for sure....

I also understand one needs to be in W/D to even begin the sub...so fortunately I will be with a GREAT friend down there during this time...as I a SO scared.

PLEASE - tell me a little bit of what to expect...just please at this point do not scare me too death as I am likely to chicken out...na, I can't--I HAVE to stop - I WANT TO STOP-- like all of you at whatever stage - I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

I am SO sick of being a slave!! to this drug.

Thank you!

Hi killer oxy
I have never done the subs but boy did I have a oxycontin habbit...
And also klonopin...and your right getting off the oxy was allot easer than the benzo...you just need to do a slow taper on them...
I just wanted to say hi and wish you good luck...
We will talk to you soon,Melinda

[killer-oxy]

Short version of long haul :}

I set everything up after I 1st posted.

I traveled over 3000 miles (yes, that is Not an extra zero) to get help with sub. I stayed in the area for 2 weeks.

After the 1st intake dr. visit - I was given a script for oxy to tide me over to *sub inuction* day.

I put myself into a 20 hour detox state and showed up at dr. office one big blubbery mess.

1st dose - 2mg - suboxone - 45 minutes later; be4 I even noticed - my friend was looking at me and said - "XXX - How do you feel?"

I had been talking...I looked up at her and in astonishment realized that I felt FINE - I felt **Normal**.

I said so and she cried and said that I already looked SO much better. Then I cried out of JOY.


We stayed there all day to get me through the induction phase. Came back 2 more days in a row. Dr. then decided dosage - went back one more time and left with my script.

It has now been since April 18th since I have been on Oxy and I NEVER EVER want it again. I cannot fathom a reason to Ever go thru that hell again.

I am currently on 6 mg/per day. Plan on staying here for 2 more weeks and then wean down.

Any advice?
Is that a high dose for you?
Any comments for me?

I was on 6 to more 80mg oxy's/day when I went for help.

I am so grateful there are NO WORDS for it.

CLEAN - what a word.

I feel/am focused, I can cope, I can DO what I set out to and Finish it....just SO much....

If any one wants to get off that evil drug - PLEASE give the suboxene a try! I do NOT see how it could fail unless one were allergic to it or something weird.

[KWELLEYE]

hi im 31 and live in canada.i have 5 kids and a wonderful husband i was on ox's too..i took about 200 mg aday along with perks..tylenol 3's and anti-depressents i switched to morphine now 60 mg aday and it works but i wish i had oxy's..they take away the pain and give me enrgy but ur right it is a slave pill and the w/d r terrible..i think u should seek med help if u have to stop...u might end up more ill then u really should be...hope u do good and ur not alone there are lots of us in the same situation..GOOD LUCK XO

[blackrainbow]

I sure am glad I found this site too... All the others I came across had little to no info and couldn't help me really. You will be ok... Good luck*


- blackrainbow