Good day to all and I thank you in advance for any comments/suggestions.
I'm a 30 year old male, healthy/fit and naive to all prescription drugs. I lead a very healthy lifestyle eating well and exercising regularly. I DON'T suffer from depression, however, for the past 4 years life has become progressively more stressful due mainly to finances, but other things as well. This has caused mounting Anxiety which got progressively worst with time. I've never had an Anxiety Attack, but being a psychology major myself, I knew I had all the symptoms of Generalized Anxiety Disorder. After careful consideration I chose to see a Psychiatrist since I knew if any drugs were prescribed he/she would be most qualified to prescribe correctly.
Important to note is that for the past 8 years or so I've been taking Ephedra containing fitness tabs. At first it started for when i hit the gym. It worked wonders because while on them I literally destroyed the gym. Then I began taking them for my College day "all-nighters" since they gave me endless energy and focus. However, sometimes the Ephedra gave me so much energy that I was in a super-anxious state, felt very wired, and had way more energy than I knew what to do with! I would say it was the equivalent of 10 cups of coffee all at once. Needless to say I would get so anxious that I started a cycle of Anxiety/Avoidance behavior. Meaning I'd feel the anxiety come on due to my daily tasks and I'd do anything to avoid the tasks. I know much of this was owed to my Ephedra use. Today I suffer the financial consequences of all that procrastinating and avoiding. I now face a mountain of debt and a mountain of generalized daily anxiety to go with it with a good stable job that unfortunately cannot carry the weight of my current financial state. So I decided it was time to get on track with my problems and since stopped taking Ephedra products about 3 months ago. Besides some lack of energy I can't say its been too bad.
After explaining everything i've mentioned above to my Psych, he diagnosed me with GAD and put me on
Lexapro 5mg/day and
Klonopin (.25mg) when needed. I know very well what a Benzo is (do to the nature of my work), so I chose to stop taking the Klonopin after only a week. By nature I hate depressants (but love stimulants) and Klonopin killed my anxiety but it killed everything else with it...I was a zombie and too tired to care about anything. The Doc was actually pleased to hear my opinion on Klonopin so its completely out of the equation. He also agreed that Ephedra has contributed greatly to my GAD and glad to hear that I stopped completly.
So this is where I'm at today: I've been taking Lexapro 5mg/day for exactly 41 days (6 weeks) and I honestly can't say either one way or the other what I'm feeling if anything. Sometimes I feel like I'm a little easier and social at work but its such a faint feeling that I think maybe its just the Placebo effect and I really am not feeling anything real. I feel some reduction in my GAD and task avoidance behavior but again, nothing clearly noticeable and possibly just placebo effects. I've not gotten any real harsh side-effects: no weight-gain, definitely no suicidal thoughts, no additional anxiety, no mood-swings, nothing. The only clearly noticeable effect is a reduction in sex-drive which I had to spare before so not even this has been a problem.
So overall I'm very confused. IS THIS WORKING AT ALL? IS MY DOSE TOO LOW? AM I EVEN TAKING LEXAPRO OR JUST A SUGAR PILL??? I'm being sarcastic on the last one but really, I feel like everyone else on the forum board definitely feels something either good or bad but I can't say either way what i feel if anything. My doc INSIST I stay at 5mg because jumping to 10mg he says will make me wired and anxious. WHY DOES HE THINK THIS? Everyone else on these boards starts at 10mg, why did he start me at 5mg??? I know its a long post folks and if you've read through thanks so much. Any suggestions/comments would be greatly appreciated. Thanks and GOD BLESS ALL! Good luck to everyone out there,
Scuba_guy