[max243]

Hello. my name is Max im 18 and graduated. I grew up in a christian home life living and loving the lord. I have been taking concerta sense 7th grade. I had an interesting 6 years being on concerta. I always feel out of it. I space out all the time. I barely can't sleep at night. I have very bad mood swings. I barely eat. I never gain weight but muscle. I have been on 18m for 3 years. had some depression thoughts. i turned into emo straight up cutter and black gothic clothes. my family and parents were wondering what the heck was going on with me. I became a freshman. I was fine. No suicidal thoughts. I was really funny and sweet and that coolest kid to have around.
Sophomore year came and it came again. I became emo again. I never knew who i was. i was always controlled by this medication. I couldn't ever remember what i did. I sometime couldn't remember myself and how i was.
I still spaced out and had cloudy. always sleepy and had my mood swing back again.
junior year came alone. I was awesome. Till the middle of the year. Had some break downs from family pass on's. But always believed in God.
I got through 3 years with no problems in education. Did my own work not knowing though how i did it or knew what i was doing.
Senior year and my hopefully best year of high school. It went down hill. My mind was tricking me and i was dating 2 freshman's. The first one i had no interest in but i was being tricked into liking her. Same of the last girl friend i feel for
I was a month of being the happiest guy in the world. thought i had everything. The day came and it has been a month being together.
Got outta wrestling practice and it was over.
Still everyday now my medication is tricking me. I see someone and my mind tricks me and makes me think i love her. I space out all the time. im always depressed. angry. blaming myself for what has been happening even though its not my own fault. I talk about death and hating life.

One thing i have found out. doctors are wrong if they say concerta doesn't cause acne. Since the first day i have started it i have started out with acne. not basic it's called Asist acne in the blood. It's hard to get over and get rid of
It's in the inside not the out side.. My cousin took concerta too. He started to break out. He soon switch over to adderall and says he feels better then before. I have a really low dose of ADD. i took 18 at first then upgraded to 27 and switch on an off. My mind keeping making me think i needed higher an higher. I had fast heart rate.sleepy,spaced out. felt like i was stoned and still do but im not. im a clean and very healthy man. Im still on concerta but now thinking about switching to adderall. IF you can help reply thank you

[x2x3x1]

By what you are saying it seems as though you might be suffering from depersonalization. If everything feels cloudy, spaced out, feels like your walking through life almost like a dream, than you might have this. I used to have some of the problems you were saying, and it was because i had this condition. i would go to a doctor, and they might be able to prescribe you something.

hope this helps!