[Emily131]

Hi all in off vico-boat!
so heres my deal- which leaves me very confused. My husband and I have both been very heavy users for yrs-- about 8yrs! so i suppose chronic is putting it lightly. Lucky for him he never increased his does, hard to believe I know-, he was at 2-6/day, me-- well although he will tell you it was 15-20day, it was more like 24-40 (7.5/750 or 10/500- whatever we could get our hands on)
we both had very bad accidents years ago, which is where all of this started. before we knew it not only did yrs of dosing go by, but everyone surrounding us was taking them too-- now it feels like our entire town and freggin state for that matter takes vicodin. In any event, this growing "trend" if you will finally ran dry. we have discussed quiting now for many, many month- and really planned to do it, however it wasnt our official decision that forced us to stop....
this past saturday night we just ran out and aALL of our resources were dry and so that was that, we had no choice. we had a hook up to "score" on monday, which would be about 32hrs after our last dose. when realized we were seriously going to have to wait so long to re-up, we said if we can do 24hrs we can do forever. Long story short- Ive been terrified of quiting- I search the web, and message boards constantly and read and read about how awful detox is, i was paniced- seizure, vomitting, diarrhea, sweats, halucinations, etc... during another "lets quit" conversation a few weeks ago, I told my husband that for me it wasnt safe to do it alone and found a rehad. He said he was confident he could just quit and so could I, regardless of w/d, i said i was to scared and needed the medical attention. he eventually convinced me otherwise.
so here we are this weekend, totally dry and no choice. so we wait, and wait, and wait some for these HORRIBLE symptoms to strike. Like I said this all went down saturday night, last dose-- 12midnight sat/sun. Its now weds- and NOTHING!! sure, sleeping is a little rough, but my doc gave me some xanax and flexaril- weve also been taking tylenol pm and benedryl as needed. Funny thing is my dose was up to like 30-40tabs (7.5/750) day, he on the other hand had serious control of only 2-5day. Ive had NO w/d, well nothing that is wacky or really definable-- he has had some bad muscle aches and such, again both have trouble sleeping-- BUT thats it!!! THATS IT!! why he is having uncomfortable symptoms and me none when I was the taking WAY more then him just boggles my mind.

Ive read alot of postings about people in my shoes-- things that just scared the **** out of me and all the horrible w/d symptoms. It seems that the worst is the 1st 12-72hrs, that said, i have questions for the chronic users who have detoxed--- please tell me about your detox. If you used for more then 1yr or even 2yrs-- what where your symptoms and what days were the worst??? i know, everyones differnt and maybe Im just super lucky- especially because I see how my husband is just uncomfortable. but again, hes JUST UNCOMFORTABLE-- NOTHING TERRIBLE OR UNBAREABLE.
Please people, tell me, in detail what did you experience and when and for how long?? is the worst just yet to come for me????? or am i just one luck son-of-a-b***h>? to be honest, i was really hoping for some symptoms so that I would have to fight thru. it and then never want to go thru. it again. but thats not happening-- dont get me wrong Im not complaining.

So thats my story--- long, i know, but its been quiet the journey.

I guess my rationale for this novel that I just wrote is:

1- if you want to quit, JUST QUIT! if it becomes unbarable, call your doctor and medicate-- or go to clinic and get a rx and then talk to your doctor on what to do or check yourself into a clinic. I think a large part of my NO w/d was MIND OVER MATTER-- thats for sure. I can say that any muscle pains I had were far better then the "hang-over" pains I would wake up with. any diarrhea or change in bowl habits were far better then the diarrhea and cramping I would get after taking 30 freggin tablet.

2- for all of you ex-chronic users, when did your w/d symptoms kick in??? did i jump the gun here?? everything Ive read says that the worst time is the first 24-72hrs-- is that true?? maybe IM JUMPING the gun and tomorroW WILL be hell. Please tell me what the hell is that you all experienced! please tell me! im at a loss.

3- All in all regardless of whether day1 is the worst or day 5 is the worst, one thing I know for sure is everyone responds differently to this kind of detox. If your reading this and your a vicodin addict that wants to quit but is scared ****less but all the terrifying things that youve read on these message boards--- PLEASE DONT LET ALL OF THE B.S. SCARE YOU. Everyone is different and is you fall into my catagory and get over the CRAVING (WHICH OBVIOUSLY SUCKS) and have the WILLPOWER to just STOP taking them, DO IT AND SEE HOW YOU RESPOND. for me, regardless of how day 4 and 5 will be I know that on the night of day 3 I WAS able to sleep, and I know that on the day and night of day 3 I felt GOOD and didnt have the "cravings" that I had on day 1 and day 2-- so in my eyes, no matter what ill feelings that I may start to have on day 4 and 5 and 6 etc.... I can handle that-- to me, its going to be like getting the flu or something-- i have sort of mastered the sleeping thing and **** the cravings, its over.

ex-chronics, please reply-- anyone else too.
thanks for reading my seriously long post-- but hopefully it will help at least 1 person to realize that not everyone experiences these CRAZY, TERRIBLE, WANT TO DIE WITHDRAWEL SYMPTOMS. GO FOR IT! DO IT! QUIT! MIND OVER MATTER!! trust me when I tell you, if I can do it--- ANYONE CAN!!! SERIOUSLY!


THANKS!
EMILY

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