[leepromoter]

well here i go i have been addicted to pain meds percocet and vicodin for about 4 years heres my story and i need some advice so if anyone can help let me say thanks now. well it all started when i was in an accident working at a psych hospital i was attacked by a patient and was hurt i was put on vicodin 7.5 mg every 4 hours after being on it for 2 years by a doctor prescription i knew they were not going to give me anymore so i went to the streets and started getting vicodin or percocet well now its all percocet i take between 55 -65 milligrams a day and i need to come off of it i am going to ween down i did it before and i know i can again. sorrry forgot that part when i got cut off from doctor there was no help like hey use this so i weened down and then was clean about a week and i went back to the doctor because she hadnt seen me in three months cause i had refills she forgot so she gave me another script i know iam rambling sorry just so nervous never done this before. so after that script i never went back. i just went to the street so now i need to be done i will not do methodone because i dont want that addiction i have seen it first hand i dont think it will work for me i know i can ween but i want to know what i should start the process from and go down to so it can worjk this time for me any suggestions would be great as iam all alone at times through this and this is hard for me i dont drink or do other drugs and iam not judging anyone but i got a degree as a drug and alcohol counselor and iam addicted right now thats why this hurts me so please if you think iam being judgemental at all by that statement iam not believe me just need somew answers on the best way to ween down thanks sorry for all the bad writing going back and forth ok

[melinda7.5]

Hi Leep
I answered on your other post.

Melinda

[python134r]

I hear you, first, stop beating on yourself, myself and many others here suffered and continue to fight addiction. You first start by asking for help is a big step.

There are a few folks here that can help you with your taper, your not ingesting that much, I'm not minimizing this but you stated you tapered before, you can taper and jump off over a period of time. I personally would not do the meth route, you shouldn't IMHO. Thing is, as you stated, you were clean about a week when you tapered so you already know whats in store for you.

I too worked clinical and facilities management at 2 different rehabs years ago and thought I could manage. I had to forget what I thought I knew and listen to others who have successfully got clean and continue to help others who want to get clean and sober.

OK, you are not alone, I would also suggest some type of support group, 12 step, faith based,etc. No one is judging you and thinking your judgmental, we have been there. We suffer the same pain.

I have gotten clean and relapsed more times than I care to admit. I was not ready, finally I was done. I always hated when I was told to get humble, but I did. I was a dope fiend for 20 someodd years and other drugs even longer. It took me 20years to amass 5 years clean and I still was not done. point is after using took me to prison, 5 od's and dieing twice in the ER I finally got clean, lost my fiancee to this disease a year and a half ago and after a brief dance with pain meds today I am sober. That was the pep talk.

What are your plans for your taper?, as I said there are good people here who can help you but you really need to want to because they will invest time to help but will not if your not really ready.

I can tell by your post you are distressed, and have concerns about the longevity of the use. Its not like it was just a couple a months, Last time you tapered what dosage and length of time did you do?

As I previously said, there are some here that could help you better than I. I personally never abused percs and vicodin but sure abused Oxys and Heroin.

Do you have enough to do a slow taper?

oh I did not see your other post........

Rich g

[leepromoter]

i wrote you on my other post thnx

[Airhead1]

Sup leep, i have a post going on right now. I am going cold turkey and will deal with whatever I have to, to get off. I really feel that cold turkey has the worst effects but its the quickest way to feel better. I am on day one and it sux but I will get through it. if you wanna talk or need some help let me know. i was on it for 4 years also...Go on my post, i had a couple of things on there that are helping..