[FinallyFree]

Just wanted to post my life changing experience with Suboxone. I hope that anyone who feels there is no hope can gain some by reading this.
I am mid 30's male. I have crohns disease. I have had a total colectomy, with several smaller small bowel surgeries. 5 years ago I became addicted to painkillers, mostly lortab 10's, but at times lortabs, duregesic patches, Kadien, and percocet all at once. My life completely fell apart. I lost my job, my home, and nearly my dear family. The feeling of hopelessness had completely consumed me. I went into rehab last november for the first time. After rehab I stayed clean for a whopping week, afterwich I was back upto 20 lortabs a day. During the last five years my wife became addicted to painkillers aswell, after us hitting bottom last month, my wife asked me to take her to inpatient rehab where I had went. After I got out of rehab in December my wife was still on the meds here at home so it was easy to fall back into that trap. I offer my opinion any other couples out there that are addicted to painkillers it is very tough if not impossible to get clean with a spouse still using. So three weeks ago a day after she checked into rehab I knew I had to get clean or our family would be destroyed. With two teenagers and two in diapers it was impossible for me to go into inpatient detox and rehab. I desperatly searched the internet for help. I found a site called suboxone.com.
I found a doctor who would detox me outpatient with the suboxone and stretch it out over a six month period so I could build the strength mentally, and get my life in order without the horrible detox and brain rebuilding process that usually takes upto a year. I never thought I could get out of the nightmare of addiction after trying to quit at least 30 times without success I felt there was no hope. If you are out there in my position please dont give up hope ever! It can be done. And try and remember if you are in a situation where you feel there is no way out, no way to fix all of the problems you are in right now, that your situation is unique believe me its not. I was four month's past due on my Rent, three past due on my truck payment, two months past due on my wifes van's title loan, I lost two large storage units full of furniture and keepsakes, I lost my job. right after that the engine in my truck blew up, I wrecked my wifes van after taking to many zanax. So here I was no vehicle, landlord at my door daily demanding I get out now, no job, no way of getting to one if i found a new one, no money and the sleepless nights of laying awake thinking constantly of the things in storage I lost, the bridges Id burned, how the title loan people were looking for my wifes van, where were we going to move...with what money...how could I get my older kids to school and work, and how there was no way out of this. oh what a nightmare
To wrap it up:
The suboxone worked instanly, no withdraws, no ups and downs, I felt like my old self before the pills, I even cut my dose in half after only a week and still felt great. with a clear mind And my Wife in Rehab getting clean I was able to set to work to start fixing my life. The drug is absolutly a miracle drug. I do not have any feeling of being high nor do I even desire that feeling at all, no cravings, no withdraws, and most of all finally hope! It is not the long term solution, but It saved our lives. This morning I was thinking of all the good people out there suffering my past fate with no hope and I felt I needed to let people who dont know there is help, there is hope if you need to talk with me in more detail about the suboxone or you have any questions feel free to email me dannbur@aol.com I would be happy to share anything I can to help.
God Bless and dont give up hope it's all we have.
Danny B.