Hello everyone
I would like to post MY experience with the hope of helping someone else. First I would like to thank NeverLookingBack, I read his post DAILY during my withdrawal HELL and this help a great deal.
First, let me say that I am by no means a
Suboxone professional, I just want everyone on this drug to know what I went through. I have been on medication for severe pain for about 4 years, at first it was just
oxycodone, then
Methadone for 2 years. I never though I would become addicted although my doctor insist that I am not an addict but my body is "physically dependent" on the medication, I have used quotation because as a Medical student who also works at a medical facility, I KNOW WHAT DOCTORS DO??? THEY WANT YOUR BUSINESS/MONEY Yes, HEALTHCARE is a BUSINESS now. anywhoo, whatever this pill popping habit of mine was, I just wanted it to end. I hated wondering when to fill my next script for over 175 Methadone (a month), do I have enough in my 10 handbags? is there any in the car to hold me over for the day, is there any in my uniform pocket.... you guys get the picture. All the while I had no clue that I was addicted, I had to take them just to feel NORMAL. After feeling guilty of taking a pill first thing in the morning WITH NO PAIN, I got sick of me, I was never addicted to anything never smoked anything, no needles, WHAT THE DILLIO..
When I told my doctor that I did not want to take Oxycodone anymore, guess what he said, "Well, what will you do for pain"? fair question, I think what he meant was, "how will I pay for my club membership? I had no response then because I knew I would suffer, and I already had over $10,000 in ER hospital bills that I could not pay so I felt obligated to stay on some form of pain meds. He then recommended METHADONE, he said it was long acting and cheaper. I believe thats when my problems started, I though the Methadone at first was so different, it did not make me high, so I though, I felt "Normal" at first and was happy to get off Oxycodone. But it went on and on and on filling that big script every month . If I had only research Methadone...
O.K. So my decision came when I felt as a student I could not concentrate on my studies, I started as a 4.0 grade average to failing a semester. I could no longer carry on an intelligent conversation without getting emotional and forgetting what I was saying in between. I could not even read, my brain could not process anything. except going to work. My house looked like a pig pen, my car pig pen too...what happen to me I though.
Well after begging my doctor for about 7 months to get me off Methadone, with Suboxone he finally gave in, I think he felt he was going to loose me, also I DO NOT THINK DOCTORS ARE TRULY EDUCATED on this drugs, I thinks there is still much to learn.
When I took my first dose of 12mg, after about 48hrs off Methadone I was not sure I was in withdrawal,no diarrhea, no vomiting, however the shakes was IMPOSSIBLE, so I though this was it. Well, I still felt like ******************** hrs later, not worst but bad!! after about 2 days the suboxone made me feel better. I may have had precipitated withdrawal. not sure, it was too mild, this Methadone stays and HOLDS ON TIGHT to the body. I kept taking the Sub for the next 2 weeks all the while tapering down, at one point I stopped for 2 days but could not continue and took a 1/2mg SUB. Week 3, I decided that if I do not stop now, I will end up doing the same thing I did with Methadone SUBOXONE cost me $158 for half of the script 30 pills, with insurance, RIDICULOUS PRICE, this also gave me the incentive to stop the madness so I took my last dose of 1/4mg of 8mg pill on a Sunday night at work.
That was one week ago and I AM NOT MYSELF YET, imagine one week later still hot/cold feeling, THE RESTLESS LEG IS THE WORST got better on day 6 gets worst at night, bengay or icy hot rub on legs helped,
aspirin too. but I think the best for me was warm soaks as hot and as long as can bare. The runs came on day 4, lasted 2-3days but it was mild too, I tried taking walks with the dog, this help tremendously (thanks NELB) of course I spent the first 5 days on the couch, TALK ABOUT NO ENERGY, No sleep, 2hrs on average, still cant sleep today even with benedryl,
clonidine (for BP) even Trazadone, My husband was ready to leave because I seem like a bum, and I was quite angry at him for no reason screaming like a mad person. I told him to not talk to me for 3 days, I had no clue I need more than that. but he was a good sport.
Today is day 8 and I can now get up from the couch, I did work on day 4, but I had to keep moving, it was not easy and I had to try to hide my shakes and creepy crawlies from my fellow employees. Day 5 however was the worst it was as if the meds were saying you B*tch love us? well take this.... I felt so bad I kept looking at the Suboxone bottle. but never took any. I have since developed a respiratory infection constant coughing and was wondering if anyone else has had this response/problem after quitting SUB, it may not be related but I was wondering.
I know with time it will get better, but honestly I would have NEVER said this 3 days ago while in HELL, SH...T, PAIN...NAUSEA..DIZZY..FUZZY LIGHT SENSITIVE..NO SLEEP...EMOTIONAL .... RESTLESS LEG God, where are you???
If you are on the road to recovery, please be patient with your body.. it will work out..it will end.
feedback appreciated!!
New to this, But willing to try 
Suboxone Withdrawal was hell for ONE week! 
body aches for over a month after Methadone/Suboxone detox? 
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