[carly33]

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

[carly33]

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[Ali-77]

hello carly-
im going to be 28- at 21 i was addicted to oxys thats got exspensive and i switched to herion . My mom took coustody of the kids for 6 months i got a divorce kids are 8 and 5 mow. I have the kids back now . out of my moms house on my own for a yr now after 3 being at my moms still. i thought i would never relapes after all i been thru and finaly got over the earges to use after 5 detoxes and one 30 rehab. after about 4 months of being on my own i started to use again a little at firsta nd the i was fully addicted again at 27. just 3 days agao i stared methadone maintance im going to try to do a 6 month detox if not i will be on for my howl life. Addiction is a disease and it will sneak up on you if you dont watch your own back ME- even clean after 3 yrs and doing good! Now im startin again just this timee i didnt loose anythinmg i got help at the meth clinic in my area. i know thers other treatment know such as suboxton sp? dont know if youve heard about it but i hear that it has saved many addicted lives maybe you can look it up on the internet and see if theres any drs in your area. They only take 30 pacients at a time and its out paicent.
Talk soon
ALICIA

[kyhomegirl]

I've also wondered how many moms are addicting to pills. I feel SO guilty that I have to have pills to even want to play with them sometimes. I have 2 girls 7,6 and a boy 1. My husband says that I yell at them when I'm on pills, but I think I do more when I dont have them. I too like ultram but only when I'm out of everything else. My doc will call those in for me in a heartbeat. I like to snort my pills though, and you cant with ultram. Isnt that discusting to snort all that powder? I cant seem to feel it as good if I eat them. Anybody else do that? But it is getting really old, I am so ready to quit. It worries me though because I wonder if I quit then actually need pain pills for something, will I be back to square one? Like today I'm getting a root canal, and I know I'll be getting something, but if I was clean that would suck to have to go through all that pain with nothing to help!! Well better go, later!

[seenitall]

Hey Carly....I relate to your situation...just a little differently.
I too was addicted to pain meds (vic's and perc's)....I am a 36 yr old man with a great job and two beautiful little girls. You say you are addicted to Ultram and that at one time you were addicted to Vicodin too?!? Ok..Ok...so seems like you have an addictive personality. Personally and truthfully, I don't think quitting these pain killers "cold turkey" is the way for you to go. Let's be honest with ourselves.....You know how it goes......first sign of sweats and children begging for dinner, Gulp!Gulp!Gulp!.....AAAHHH!! 5 Vic's down the hatch! Here's the deal.....straight forward!...Get on SUBOXONE. Go to WWW.SUBOXONE.COM and find a doctor near you who is certified to prescribe this medication. I have been on SUBOXONE for 6 months now and I have got my life back!! NO Cravings!!..and I feel great everyday....I am telling you, from a father to a mother....get on the SUBOXONE!!! I totally understand what you are going through!!!
Good luck and keep me posted!! PEACE

quote:Originally posted by carly33

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

[mpvt]

I agree with Seenitall,suboxone is the way to go.....Dave

[ginafl2]

quote:Originally posted by carly33

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[ginafl2]

Hi Carly,

I am 28, about to get married and we want to have kids right away. I am habituated to norcos. I too researched the suboxone and really wanted to give it a try. I went to a doctor who could prescribe it and confessed everything. I was taking 10 norcos a day. He told me that suboxone was possibly too strong a narcotic for me. I have been tapering for about three weeks now and am comfortably down to 3 a day. I feel very good about myself. He just gave me a few xanax yesterday to try and help me taper down to 2 a day in the next two weeks. My fiance is helping me. He keeps the pills and gives them to me when I ask. No more than three a day right now. I know someone else who recently tapered off. I think you can do it. I hope I can do it. I have come so far. I slipped up a few days found the pills and took one or two extra. but thats it. The first week was hard with the mild withdrawls but I found things to help. From what I am hearing suboxone is switching one one narcotic for another. And is for people who are on heroin or taking a lot more than you or me. I hope I can do this on my own. Good luck

quote:Originally posted by carly33

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[JBowski13]

For the Mom who started this post, dont take suboxone. Its a very powerfull drug that should'nt be used as the first option. I know it sounds great, but I think it should be used for heavy opiates. Take a three day vacation from your family and sweat it out. If you can go through that, you wont need to hop to another medication. Try something before going to the Subs.

[bjackson060806]

hello,
I hear you on this one! I too am addicted to painkillers. Loratabs. I've tried to quit but its like i can't. I dont feel normal w/o them. The worst part of it all is that I steal my husbands. I just thought I would reply and let you know i feel your pain. thanks, betty

[tkclary]

Originally Posted by carly33

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

Carly33,

I feel your pain. I too have an addiction to deal with. I am a 36 yr. old father of 2 wonderful boys. I feel guilty that I "think" I need meds just to get up and play with them. God forbid if they ever found out the truth. I do love them.
My wife is a stay at home mom. She just got prescribed vicodin for bad menstral cramps and lower back pain. I can't help but worry that this is the beginning of something very bad. She has no idea of my issues. Up till last week I was buying oxy's from a friend to supplament my Lortabs that I get legitamately. That source has dried up, permanately. So I am going through partial withdrawals only using the Lortabs. Not fun at all at this level....very afraid to try cold-turkey.
I have one question for you.....you say you resort to buying the pills online. How? With all the attention to online pharmacies these days how are you managing to do it without getting in allot of trouble. Are you in the USA?
Not that I want to try it.....well maybe I do....see the evil of the dark side.

T

[gerstner23]

you are taking ultram because of pain. so you do what i did, tell your doctor that you are abusing your medication and you want something for your pain that cant be abused for a high. tell him you read about methadone, and you would like to try that. methadone is the cheapest painkiller on the market by far 360 10 mg pills cost me 26 dollars a month. you should never quit entirely since you obviously have chronic pain and you need opiates methadone is the best way to go as far as pain management and the price brad

[Kellyalittlesexy]

I am also an addict and know it and don't know if I want to stop or not. I am a 33 year old mother of 3 children 10,8, and 6. I love them sooooo very much but I feel I can't do the things I want if I don't take something. Also, I have had 2 back surgieries in the last two years. You go through a major depression cause you CAN'T do what you used to do. If there is anything I can understand is how you feel and if anyone knows what to do, let me know cause, I just can't stop right now I am in to much PAIN right now. I just wanted to let you know I understand and am here to listen and maybe we can both help each other. Good Luck!!!

[Kellyalittlesexy]

I do understand totally what you are saying I do snort and I do abuse but I just cant get out of pain I am in pain management and I am on Methadone now with lortab for break through pain. But, my major addiction is to lortabs. I hope if there is anything I can do for you even just listening I do know how u feel

[mpvt]

Kelly: If you can increase your methadone your cravings for loratab will disappear.Methadone covers most of the opiate receptors making a weak opiate like loratab useless.You would be much better off on strait methadone.Just my opinion.Good luck......Dave

[bama57]

Hi Kelly,
I guess I'm the oldest one to post (as of yet).
I'll be 50 in a few days (I'm female).
I'm addicted (again) to Lortab.
I became addicted when I was 23 to Darvocette because of female problems.
Then I progressed to Lortab.
I went to NA/AA for years & managed to stay clean a year here, a few months there.
Now I just had surgery & I'm at it again.
It is such a living hell. I could never quite beat it.
Always the horrible withdrawals!
I'm taking about 10 7.5's a day.
I know soon the DR will expect me to stop.
I'm not looking forward to that!
I'm very lucky in one respect, my husband of many years is understanding.
And our kids are grown, so I don't have to deal with that.
My surgeon knows my story, so he gives me Valium in between scripts, because he will only write me so many at a time.
I have to have my arm & shoulder (I fell) looked at next. So, I'll be on them for awhile. My surgeon writes me 40 for 7 days, & we all know that an addict will run out before another script is due.
I hate this merry-go-round!
You'd think at this age, I'd have a handle on it.
I did, until I fell. This time I REALLY DID fall.
If you are like me, you make up all kinds of reasons to get them.
I just had emergency surgery on a disc in my neck.
My surgeon was really cool about everything. He even gave me a morphine pump in the hospital. I know this sounds weird, but that stuff was waaaay too strong! I am a one drug woman. I just like Lortab. Of course i'm lucky enough to have never tried Oxy's or something like that. No telling what I'd do!
Anyway, sweetie, I hope you get a handle on this before you end up like me.
Almost 50 & still struggling.
Sub's & Methadone are out of the question. I live in BUM#@#*&^ Egypt & am no where near a clinic & a DR that prescribes Subs. Even if I were, I'm not sure I want to trade one addiction for another. No offense to those on Methadone or Subs. It's just not for me.
Good Luck!

[Restless&Reckless]

Bama,

no one is ever too old or too young to be an addict. there are people of all ages who are addicts. We can all beat it though!!
Have a good day!

[Kellyalittlesexy]

Originally Posted by bama57

Hi Kelly,
I guess I'm the oldest one to post (as of yet).
I'll be 50 in a few days (I'm female).
I'm addicted (again) to Lortab.
I became addicted when I was 23 to Darvocette because of female problems.
Then I progressed to Lortab.
I went to NA/AA for years & managed to stay clean a year here, a few months there.
Now I just had surgery & I'm at it again.
It is such a living hell. I could never quite beat it.
Always the horrible withdrawals!
I'm taking about 10 7.5's a day.
I know soon the DR will expect me to stop.
I'm not looking forward to that!
I'm very lucky in one respect, my husband of many years is understanding.
And our kids are grown, so I don't have to deal with that.
My surgeon knows my story, so he gives me Valium in between scripts, because he will only write me so many at a time.
I have to have my arm & shoulder (I fell) looked at next. So, I'll be on them for awhile. My surgeon writes me 40 for 7 days, & we all know that an addict will run out before another script is due.
I hate this merry-go-round!
You'd think at this age, I'd have a handle on it.
I did, until I fell. This time I REALLY DID fall.
If you are like me, you make up all kinds of reasons to get them.
I just had emergency surgery on a disc in my neck.
My surgeon was really cool about everything. He even gave me a morphine pump in the hospital. I know this sounds weird, but that stuff was waaaay too strong! I am a one drug woman. I just like Lortab. Of course i'm lucky enough to have never tried Oxy's or something like that. No telling what I'd do!
Anyway, sweetie, I hope you get a handle on this before you end up like me.
Almost 50 & still struggling.
Sub's & Methadone are out of the question. I live in BUM#@#*&^ Egypt & am no where near a clinic & a DR that prescribes Subs. Even if I were, I'm not sure I want to trade one addiction for another. No offense to those on Methadone or Subs. It's just not for me.
Good Luck!

Hey Bama57, I don't know that I want to beat it I like the high. I want that control over my life again I want to feel energized just from a good nights sleep not a pill. I don't know what to do all I know is I think about it all day and night and it is very tireing. I have had 2 back surgeries in 2 years and something is still wrong, I hurt too much to have it work this time except this time its my lower left side of my back and buttocks and it goes numb and it hurts if you stand too long or sit too long. So, will I ever be able to stop because of chronic pain, and why do I have to abuse it. IT IS CRAZY!!!!!!

[lgiovino4150@hotmail.com]

Have you ever heard of Subuxone? Its widely used for heroin and methadone withdrawal,but is used for other things too.A small dose,dissolved under the tongue,takes away all pain and "addict-thinking".It has a low threshold and generally is non-addictive.It can give you back your life! It did mine.It's also known as Buprenorphine.Subuxone.com can give you more info.I was in your shoes at one time.Good luck and God Bless.

[Asiablu]

ok im very confused. Ultram = Tramadol? Isnt that a non narcotic pain med?