[carly33]

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

[carly33]

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[Ali-77]

hello carly-
im going to be 28- at 21 i was addicted to oxys thats got exspensive and i switched to herion . My mom took coustody of the kids for 6 months i got a divorce kids are 8 and 5 mow. I have the kids back now . out of my moms house on my own for a yr now after 3 being at my moms still. i thought i would never relapes after all i been thru and finaly got over the earges to use after 5 detoxes and one 30 rehab. after about 4 months of being on my own i started to use again a little at firsta nd the i was fully addicted again at 27. just 3 days agao i stared methadone maintance im going to try to do a 6 month detox if not i will be on for my howl life. Addiction is a disease and it will sneak up on you if you dont watch your own back ME- even clean after 3 yrs and doing good! Now im startin again just this timee i didnt loose anythinmg i got help at the meth clinic in my area. i know thers other treatment know such as suboxton sp? dont know if youve heard about it but i hear that it has saved many addicted lives maybe you can look it up on the internet and see if theres any drs in your area. They only take 30 pacients at a time and its out paicent.
Talk soon
ALICIA

[kyhomegirl]

I've also wondered how many moms are addicting to pills. I feel SO guilty that I have to have pills to even want to play with them sometimes. I have 2 girls 7,6 and a boy 1. My husband says that I yell at them when I'm on pills, but I think I do more when I dont have them. I too like ultram but only when I'm out of everything else. My doc will call those in for me in a heartbeat. I like to snort my pills though, and you cant with ultram. Isnt that discusting to snort all that powder? I cant seem to feel it as good if I eat them. Anybody else do that? But it is getting really old, I am so ready to quit. It worries me though because I wonder if I quit then actually need pain pills for something, will I be back to square one? Like today I'm getting a root canal, and I know I'll be getting something, but if I was clean that would suck to have to go through all that pain with nothing to help!! Well better go, later!

[seenitall]

Hey Carly....I relate to your situation...just a little differently.
I too was addicted to pain meds (vic's and perc's)....I am a 36 yr old man with a great job and two beautiful little girls. You say you are addicted to Ultram and that at one time you were addicted to Vicodin too?!? Ok..Ok...so seems like you have an addictive personality. Personally and truthfully, I don't think quitting these pain killers "cold turkey" is the way for you to go. Let's be honest with ourselves.....You know how it goes......first sign of sweats and children begging for dinner, Gulp!Gulp!Gulp!.....AAAHHH!! 5 Vic's down the hatch! Here's the deal.....straight forward!...Get on SUBOXONE. Go to WWW.SUBOXONE.COM and find a doctor near you who is certified to prescribe this medication. I have been on SUBOXONE for 6 months now and I have got my life back!! NO Cravings!!..and I feel great everyday....I am telling you, from a father to a mother....get on the SUBOXONE!!! I totally understand what you are going through!!!
Good luck and keep me posted!! PEACE

quote:Originally posted by carly33

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

[mpvt]

I agree with Seenitall,suboxone is the way to go.....Dave

[ginafl2]

quote:Originally posted by carly33

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[ginafl2]

Hi Carly,

I am 28, about to get married and we want to have kids right away. I am habituated to norcos. I too researched the suboxone and really wanted to give it a try. I went to a doctor who could prescribe it and confessed everything. I was taking 10 norcos a day. He told me that suboxone was possibly too strong a narcotic for me. I have been tapering for about three weeks now and am comfortably down to 3 a day. I feel very good about myself. He just gave me a few xanax yesterday to try and help me taper down to 2 a day in the next two weeks. My fiance is helping me. He keeps the pills and gives them to me when I ask. No more than three a day right now. I know someone else who recently tapered off. I think you can do it. I hope I can do it. I have come so far. I slipped up a few days found the pills and took one or two extra. but thats it. The first week was hard with the mild withdrawls but I found things to help. From what I am hearing suboxone is switching one one narcotic for another. And is for people who are on heroin or taking a lot more than you or me. I hope I can do this on my own. Good luck

quote:Originally posted by carly33

one other thing i wanted to add....
i've researched the suboxone...i spoke with a doctor about it and he told me that since i'm not taking an enormous amount of the meds, i should just go off cold turkey or taper. so does this mean if i took a handful or more than i already do i could wean off easier with the suboxone? also, it looks to be super-expensive. i think it was $200 for the 1st visit, then $100 every week thereafter...or something like that. at the rate i'm going though, i'd be willing to pay anything to be free of this demon.

[JBowski13]

For the Mom who started this post, dont take suboxone. Its a very powerfull drug that should'nt be used as the first option. I know it sounds great, but I think it should be used for heavy opiates. Take a three day vacation from your family and sweat it out. If you can go through that, you wont need to hop to another medication. Try something before going to the Subs.

[bjackson060806]

hello,
I hear you on this one! I too am addicted to painkillers. Loratabs. I've tried to quit but its like i can't. I dont feel normal w/o them. The worst part of it all is that I steal my husbands. I just thought I would reply and let you know i feel your pain. thanks, betty

[tkclary]

Originally Posted by carly33

hi-i'm new to this board...

i've been searching everywhere to connect with other moms/housewives trying to beat their addiction to painkillers. i'm a 33 year old mom to a 3 year old and 21 month old. from the outside you'd think i have it all...nice house, nice car, etc...but on the inside i'm broken...i'm totally addicted to ultram and have been since december. i take about 8 a day, every day (4 in the morning, then 3-4 spread out over the afternoon). i've tried quitting and of course had the insane withdrawals..after doctor shopping all over town, i've resorted to ordering on-line. i can't do this anymore. i was addicted to vicodin before i got on the ultram....i had 3 surgeries back in 2002, that's how the addiction began (after i was prescribed them). an "addiction doctor" actually presribed the ultram for me as an alternative to vicodin (i was having legitimate back pain at the time). i feel so all alone in this (my husband knows i take ultram, but he thinks i only take 2 a day, he also knows of my addiction to the vicodon). i want to relate to other moms going through the same thing. day after day......

Carly33,

I feel your pain. I too have an addiction to deal with. I am a 36 yr. old father of 2 wonderful boys. I feel guilty that I "think" I need meds just to get up and play with them. God forbid if they ever found out the truth. I do love them.
My wife is a stay at home mom. She just got prescribed vicodin for bad menstral cramps and lower back pain. I can't help but worry that this is the beginning of something very bad. She has no idea of my issues. Up till last week I was buying oxy's from a friend to supplament my Lortabs that I get legitamately. That source has dried up, permanately. So I am going through partial withdrawals only using the Lortabs. Not fun at all at this level....very afraid to try cold-turkey.
I have one question for you.....you say you resort to buying the pills online. How? With all the attention to online pharmacies these days how are you managing to do it without getting in allot of trouble. Are you in the USA?
Not that I want to try it.....well maybe I do....see the evil of the dark side.

T

[gerstner23]

you are taking ultram because of pain. so you do what i did, tell your doctor that you are abusing your medication and you want something for your pain that cant be abused for a high. tell him you read about methadone, and you would like to try that. methadone is the cheapest painkiller on the market by far 360 10 mg pills cost me 26 dollars a month. you should never quit entirely since you obviously have chronic pain and you need opiates methadone is the best way to go as far as pain management and the price brad

[Kellyalittlesexy]

I am also an addict and know it and don't know if I want to stop or not. I am a 33 year old mother of 3 children 10,8, and 6. I love them sooooo very much but I feel I can't do the things I want if I don't take something. Also, I have had 2 back surgieries in the last two years. You go through a major depression cause you CAN'T do what you used to do. If there is anything I can understand is how you feel and if anyone knows what to do, let me know cause, I just can't stop right now I am in to much PAIN right now. I just wanted to let you know I understand and am here to listen and maybe we can both help each other. Good Luck!!!

[Kellyalittlesexy]

I do understand totally what you are saying I do snort and I do abuse but I just cant get out of pain I am in pain management and I am on Methadone now with lortab for break through pain. But, my major addiction is to lortabs. I hope if there is anything I can do for you even just listening I do know how u feel

[mpvt]

Kelly: If you can increase your methadone your cravings for loratab will disappear.Methadone covers most of the opiate receptors making a weak opiate like loratab useless.You would be much better off on strait methadone.Just my opinion.Good luck......Dave

[bama57]

Hi Kelly,
I guess I'm the oldest one to post (as of yet).
I'll be 50 in a few days (I'm female).
I'm addicted (again) to Lortab.
I became addicted when I was 23 to Darvocette because of female problems.
Then I progressed to Lortab.
I went to NA/AA for years & managed to stay clean a year here, a few months there.
Now I just had surgery & I'm at it again.
It is such a living hell. I could never quite beat it.
Always the horrible withdrawals!
I'm taking about 10 7.5's a day.
I know soon the DR will expect me to stop.
I'm not looking forward to that!
I'm very lucky in one respect, my husband of many years is understanding.
And our kids are grown, so I don't have to deal with that.
My surgeon knows my story, so he gives me Valium in between scripts, because he will only write me so many at a time.
I have to have my arm & shoulder (I fell) looked at next. So, I'll be on them for awhile. My surgeon writes me 40 for 7 days, & we all know that an addict will run out before another script is due.
I hate this merry-go-round!
You'd think at this age, I'd have a handle on it.
I did, until I fell. This time I REALLY DID fall.
If you are like me, you make up all kinds of reasons to get them.
I just had emergency surgery on a disc in my neck.
My surgeon was really cool about everything. He even gave me a morphine pump in the hospital. I know this sounds weird, but that stuff was waaaay too strong! I am a one drug woman. I just like Lortab. Of course i'm lucky enough to have never tried Oxy's or something like that. No telling what I'd do!
Anyway, sweetie, I hope you get a handle on this before you end up like me.
Almost 50 & still struggling.
Sub's & Methadone are out of the question. I live in BUM#@#*&^ Egypt & am no where near a clinic & a DR that prescribes Subs. Even if I were, I'm not sure I want to trade one addiction for another. No offense to those on Methadone or Subs. It's just not for me.
Good Luck!

[Restless&Reckless]

Bama,

no one is ever too old or too young to be an addict. there are people of all ages who are addicts. We can all beat it though!!
Have a good day!

[Kellyalittlesexy]

Originally Posted by bama57

Hi Kelly,
I guess I'm the oldest one to post (as of yet).
I'll be 50 in a few days (I'm female).
I'm addicted (again) to Lortab.
I became addicted when I was 23 to Darvocette because of female problems.
Then I progressed to Lortab.
I went to NA/AA for years & managed to stay clean a year here, a few months there.
Now I just had surgery & I'm at it again.
It is such a living hell. I could never quite beat it.
Always the horrible withdrawals!
I'm taking about 10 7.5's a day.
I know soon the DR will expect me to stop.
I'm not looking forward to that!
I'm very lucky in one respect, my husband of many years is understanding.
And our kids are grown, so I don't have to deal with that.
My surgeon knows my story, so he gives me Valium in between scripts, because he will only write me so many at a time.
I have to have my arm & shoulder (I fell) looked at next. So, I'll be on them for awhile. My surgeon writes me 40 for 7 days, & we all know that an addict will run out before another script is due.
I hate this merry-go-round!
You'd think at this age, I'd have a handle on it.
I did, until I fell. This time I REALLY DID fall.
If you are like me, you make up all kinds of reasons to get them.
I just had emergency surgery on a disc in my neck.
My surgeon was really cool about everything. He even gave me a morphine pump in the hospital. I know this sounds weird, but that stuff was waaaay too strong! I am a one drug woman. I just like Lortab. Of course i'm lucky enough to have never tried Oxy's or something like that. No telling what I'd do!
Anyway, sweetie, I hope you get a handle on this before you end up like me.
Almost 50 & still struggling.
Sub's & Methadone are out of the question. I live in BUM#@#*&^ Egypt & am no where near a clinic & a DR that prescribes Subs. Even if I were, I'm not sure I want to trade one addiction for another. No offense to those on Methadone or Subs. It's just not for me.
Good Luck!

Hey Bama57, I don't know that I want to beat it I like the high. I want that control over my life again I want to feel energized just from a good nights sleep not a pill. I don't know what to do all I know is I think about it all day and night and it is very tireing. I have had 2 back surgeries in 2 years and something is still wrong, I hurt too much to have it work this time except this time its my lower left side of my back and buttocks and it goes numb and it hurts if you stand too long or sit too long. So, will I ever be able to stop because of chronic pain, and why do I have to abuse it. IT IS CRAZY!!!!!!

[lgiovino4150@hotmail.com]

Have you ever heard of Subuxone? Its widely used for heroin and methadone withdrawal,but is used for other things too.A small dose,dissolved under the tongue,takes away all pain and "addict-thinking".It has a low threshold and generally is non-addictive.It can give you back your life! It did mine.It's also known as Buprenorphine.Subuxone.com can give you more info.I was in your shoes at one time.Good luck and God Bless.

[Asiablu]

ok im very confused. Ultram = Tramadol? Isnt that a non narcotic pain med?

[Amanda Nicole]

Hey bama57 I relate to you mostly because I started on darvon and moved to lortab, which I am on now, but also i take valium. I am an at home mother and started again after my pregnancy. I was clean for 2 years and never considered myself an addict because though I took painkillers I could easily just stop and was ok if I didn't have any, I just did them if they were around. I went through a divorce in 2006 and towards the end of my marriage was the worst. I did fentynal patches and morphine and every other pain med out there to numb the pain and OD'd a couple times. I now have a beautiful daughter and love her so much and am ashamed of myself. I just moved from my home town for a better life and don't know many people so I think this has caused much of my addiction to flare again. I just want to be a good mother and be done for good. I did it once cold turkey and was fine, my problem is bordem I guess. I know we can all do it though with the support of each other. I am writing a book about my spiritual journey and addiction and I want to be able to say by the end that I have won. I hope to inspire and reach others and to also be inspired by all of you. Good luck and thank you for your support...

[Amanda Nicole]

yes ultram is tramadol and my doctor said that even though it is not supposed to be addictive it can be and it is similar to the pain medicine in morphine. It definately has worst withdrawl symptoms also, it's weird because it's said to be safer, but it is not. It's something the drug companies have come up with just to sale this medicine. I was on it and it gave me the worst headache and sweats when I didn't take it. Hope this helps...

[Amanda Nicole]

All that will happen with suboxone is that you will have another habit

[Amanda Nicole]

Originally Posted by lgiovino4150@hotmail.com

Have you ever heard of Subuxone? Its widely used for heroin and methadone withdrawal,but is used for other things too.A small dose,dissolved under the tongue,takes away all pain and "addict-thinking".It has a low threshold and generally is non-addictive.It can give you back your life! It did mine.It's also known as Buprenorphine.Subuxone.com can give you more info.I was in your shoes at one time.Good luck and God Bless.

Sorry, all that will happen with suboxone is that you will have another habit to kick. Most good doctors won't even let you touch it. They are pointless and keep you addicted...

[Amanda Nicole]

Originally Posted by tkclary

Carly33,

I feel your pain. I too have an addiction to deal with. I am a 36 yr. old father of 2 wonderful boys. I feel guilty that I "think" I need meds just to get up and play with them. God forbid if they ever found out the truth. I do love them.
My wife is a stay at home mom. She just got prescribed vicodin for bad menstral cramps and lower back pain. I can't help but worry that this is the beginning of something very bad. She has no idea of my issues. Up till last week I was buying oxy's from a friend to supplament my Lortabs that I get legitamately. That source has dried up, permanately. So I am going through partial withdrawals only using the Lortabs. Not fun at all at this level....very afraid to try cold-turkey.
I have one question for you.....you say you resort to buying the pills online. How? With all the attention to online pharmacies these days how are you managing to do it without getting in allot of trouble. Are you in the USA?
Not that I want to try it.....well maybe I do....see the evil of the dark side.

T

Carly I completely understand. I to am an at home mother of a beautiful little girl and I feel so guilty for my use of pain meds. I have also been searching for a way to connect with other mothers who can relate. Together I know we can beat this, if you ever need to talk or have questions just ask me please...

[Amanda Nicole]

Originally Posted by ginafl2

Hi Carly,

I am 28, about to get married and we want to have kids right away. I am habituated to norcos. I too researched the suboxone and really wanted to give it a try. I went to a doctor who could prescribe it and confessed everything. I was taking 10 norcos a day. He told me that suboxone was possibly too strong a narcotic for me. I have been tapering for about three weeks now and am comfortably down to 3 a day. I feel very good about myself. He just gave me a few xanax yesterday to try and help me taper down to 2 a day in the next two weeks. My fiance is helping me. He keeps the pills and gives them to me when I ask. No more than three a day right now. I know someone else who recently tapered off. I think you can do it. I hope I can do it. I have come so far. I slipped up a few days found the pills and took one or two extra. but thats it. The first week was hard with the mild withdrawls but I found things to help. From what I am hearing suboxone is switching one one narcotic for another. And is for people who are on heroin or taking a lot more than you or me. I hope I can do this on my own. Good luck

I completely agree that taking suboxone is just switching one addiction for another, it still gets you high just like methadone, which I took to get high. It is stronger and I would absolutely just taper off and pray a lot!

[ARTIST658]

Oh wow, I'm actually fighting tears reading through just this one thread. I've been in the same position as most of you here - addicted to narcotics (of one kind or another) for chronic pain, full of fear, frustrated by my life, guilty that I needed them, and fearing I'd never be able to do so.

I want to post to assure each of you - recovery IS possible. I've been clean for over 6 years now - and had been clean 11 years prior to that last relapse in 2003. I, too, was a mother of young children, and the only way I could sit and play with them was after I had something narcotic in me... and the guilt was enormous. I thought the pills were the ONLY thing giving me pleasure any more. The idea of stopping them was horrifying to me. I kept putting it out of my mind the best I could - telling myself, someday... I'll do something... but not now. I wasn't ready - yet.

We never are completely "ready" to stop - we'll feel fear and anxiety, guilt and sadness - it's a hard thing to do, no doubt about it!!! But keep in mind, addiction is a progressive disease - it only gets worse. Putting it off only makes it that much harder. We can't return to "normal" dosages of medication - we've lost that ability. The consequences of our addiction will get more frequent - and more serious. That's the nature of addiction.

It doesn't matter if it is ultram or oxycodone, lortab or norco, darvocet or percocet - anything that is narcotic - will basically do the same thing. We are using drugs to escape - we are using drugs to avoid pain, physical and/or emotional. We are using drugs as our primary coping mechanism for life. We think we're only affecting ourselves taking the pills - in truth, we are affecting everyone around us, especially those who love us the most.

Addiction is a disease - truly - and that term is not tossed about lightly. We are wired differently. Our brains have adjusted their chemistry to accommodate the drugs, and we're hooked to need them to function. The only way our brain can return to its normal functioning is when we stop putting the narcotics in, and start to allow it to heal. With time, our natural endorphins, seratonin and dopamine will return to a normal flow, and we can again experience genuine feelings of happiness... without the drugs.

It is not the end of the world, quite the opposite. Recovery is just the beginning. I had NO idea how much of life I was missing out on, while I was abusing drugs. My thinking was distorted, my emotions were in upheaval, my life was turmoil, in one form or another. Basically, I didn't know how to be happy without pills. The idea of stopping simply terrified me.

I'd be more than happy to share with any of you of how I went about it - but I don't want to go on much longer here, as I do get rather long-winded about something so dear to my heart. Suffice to say, my daughter was 8 years old when I first got clean. That little girl is 28 today - and if anyone asks her what turned HER life around, she will point to that time that Mom became clean. Everything changed then for her - and for me. I became the mother she needed - I became emotionally available to her, not masked behind drugs. I began to learn healthy coping skills to use in my own life, to get through the normal emotions and stress of life - and that modelled healthy patterns for her. She is not an addict or an alcoholic (nor codependently involved with an addict or alcoholic) - she is remarkably well-adjusted... go figure! That could never have happened, had her mother stayed dependent on drugs.

If I can help any of you - please do not hesitate to ask. You are all in my prayers. Do know that there is hope.

God bless,
Ruth

[chrish1]

Artist, congrats on your 6 years clean time. I too can attest that RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE, and I have over 4 years clean time now. It wasn't easy, and when I read these threads, I can still totally relate since I went through all of the same feelings, thoughts, and struggles. The fact is we cannot quit on our own. We need help. We need support. We need new thoughts. We need conviction. We need a power greater than ourselves. It will also require some work on a daily basis. There is no on/off switch. It is one day at a time. That is how we recover: ONE DAY AT A TIME. I found the help I need through meetings (NA and AA), and daily work. We are either going forward or backwards in this disease - recovering or progressing in our addiction. The help is out there, but I had to become humble enough to accept the help and open minded enough to get it a chance. Self honesty was also key - I had to stop all of the rationalizations, justifications, and denial.

Even if this helps one addict out there it is worth it.

Chrish

[ARTIST658]

I noticed this wonderful thread quieted down after I posted - and the last thing I wanted to do by posting was to interfere with this thread! I do hope others will return to post their own experiences, thoughts and feelings. For me, I felt so utterly ALONE when I was caught up in pills as a young mom... there was no one I could talk to about it. I think this thread is a wonderful opportunity for those who are struggling to reach out and discuss what's on their minds. [Oh I wish I'd had this chance!]

I'm not about to judge ANY addict for being addicted - good lord, if there's one thing my colorful history has shown me, I have no right to look down on another addict. I hope my words here may help you, not preach to you. I just want you to know you are NOT alone, you are NOT a bad person or a bad mother... not at all. This is one helluva powerful disease. The secrecy alone just compounds our guilt and shame. Feel free to speak up... it helps me, it helps others - and I'm sure it will help you, too.

With love,
Ruth

[danillano]

Hi - My wife and I have been married for 12 years and for the last 2-3 she has been taking all kinds of medicines to help her cope with the pain. She's been on Percocet, Oxycontin, Roxicodone, Vicodin, Tramadol, Morphine and any medicine she can "secretly" buy online from Canada, India or UK.

She started going to a pain management institute about 3 & 1/2 years ago for help with her intesrtitial Cystitis (Painful Bladder Syndrome). Her Dr. prescribed all sorts of medications and after a while she started showing syptoms of fibromyalgia which is not at its fullest. Her excruciating pain as she so describes it pushed her to try narcotis in the strongest doses and now she can't spend a single day without them.
She is awfully depressed (also taking meds for it), she can't sleep and throws up every time she eats...I don't know what to do... I know she is addicted but I also see her in pain every day.
Please help, I want my kids to have their mommy back, I want my wife back... nothing seems to help with her pain and the meds are taking her away from us