[sexiduck]

i have an opiod dependence problem---i decided this morning I would find a doctor to treat me.

So I called the local dr, made an appointment and I arrived, filled out paperwork only to be hit in the face with -- we don't treat opiod dependence!?!? wtf?? So anyway I had found this guy's name on the suboxone website but it was put there my mistake! So embarrassing! I immediately started crying, but then nurse, who looked about my age said DONT WORRY, I'm on suboxone and I'm going to call my doctor, she called and they put me on the WAITING LIST...so i cried some more because I had finally got the gall to just go in and say it all out loud and get it over with, but now I've got to do it all over again tomorrow. I got home and called every doctor within 50 miles and I found one who treats in an office of a colleague only 10 days each month. You have to show up as a walk in and wait your turn, after the initial visit, you have to come AGAIN the next available time within the month and then thereafter 1-2x per month depending on how everything goes I suppose--so I have to do this whole thing again tomorrow.

Hopefully I can go in tomorrow and say everything I need to say and get some help. I'm so afraid to say out loud that I am addicted to painkillers, even more than that, I'm afraid to say that one thing's led to another and I've used every kind of opiate there is most likely because the hydrocodone just didn't do it anymore. Went from the hydrocodone to oxycontin, then to dilaudid and I can't do it anymore. Not only can I not afford it, but I can't live that type of lifestyle.

Any support or advice for my doctor visit tomorrow would be greatly appreciated. Perhaps a story of someone's first visit? I don't know I'm lost. Do the doctor's make you participate in individual therapy with a counselor/therapist/psychiatrist? Its not that I mind I just dont know if I'll have the time

[onge76]

Don't you be worried about seeing the doctor. I've had a problem with drinking and taking pills together for years. I finally said to myself this has to stop and so has my wife for that matter. After finding this website, I found that Suboxone is a good medication for quiting painkillers. I would have made this appointment a long time ago but my insurance does not kick in until Aug 1st, so my appointment for suboxone treatment is Aug 6th. My point is that before I made the appointment I was nervous and I didn't know what I was going to say to the Doctor but my wife made me realize that if I go and I'm not completely honest with my addiction he can't help properly and give the medication that I need to be succesfull in my recovery. So I made up my mind, I'm going to hold nothing back. Amy is right, it would be a waist of time for me and my DR. if I'm not going to tell everything about my addiction. My family is way more important than alchol and pills. Your not alone friend. There is alot of us out there. Email me anytime you want. I check my email all day everyday. jva7630@hotmail.com
Good luck!!!!!!!!!! Hopfully what I said help a little.

[sisterwin2]

Originally Posted by sexiduck

i have an opiod dependence problem---i decided this morning I would find a doctor to treat me.

So I called the local dr, made an appointment and I arrived, filled out paperwork only to be hit in the face with -- we don't treat opiod dependence!?!? wtf?? So anyway I had found this guy's name on the suboxone website but it was put there my mistake! So embarrassing! I immediately started crying, but then nurse, who looked about my age said DONT WORRY, I'm on suboxone and I'm going to call my doctor, she called and they put me on the WAITING LIST...so i cried some more because I had finally got the gall to just go in and say it all out loud and get it over with, but now I've got to do it all over again tomorrow. I got home and called every doctor within 50 miles and I found one who treats in an office of a colleague only 10 days each month. You have to show up as a walk in and wait your turn, after the initial visit, you have to come AGAIN the next available time within the month and then thereafter 1-2x per month depending on how everything goes I suppose--so I have to do this whole thing again tomorrow.

Hopefully I can go in tomorrow and say everything I need to say and get some help. I'm so afraid to say out loud that I am addicted to painkillers, even more than that, I'm afraid to say that one thing's led to another and I've used every kind of opiate there is most likely because the hydrocodone just didn't do it anymore. Went from the hydrocodone to oxycontin, then to dilaudid and I can't do it anymore. Not only can I not afford it, but I can't live that type of lifestyle.

Any support or advice for my doctor visit tomorrow would be greatly appreciated. Perhaps a story of someone's first visit? I don't know I'm lost. Do the doctor's make you participate in individual therapy with a counselor/therapist/psychiatrist? Its not that I mind I just dont know if I'll have the time

Hi... I am very new to sub myself (day 7) just want to encourage u some. I am a addict since I can remember.. now 51 and clean on day 7. My experince was as follows...

Prob 35 yrs of doping on and off... only three yrs of that time clean. I ended up on Meth (illigally) and decided that I really was alive when I had those three yrs clean from 2001 to 2004. Hated my life since. I found by google the sub site and put my zip in... called the first Doc that popped up. two day later in his office in withdrawl. I have to say my doc is poor but it dosnt matter since I am very motivated to stay clean. I was on about 68 to 75 mg of Meth and he put me on 5x daily 8-2mg suboxone. started the suboxon on friday nite and it threw me into withdrawl. I couldnt get my doc on phone so I went back to Suboxone site and read.... it said from Meth not to use the one with the narcan but too late now. I dose myself every hour till I stopped vomiting and stooling... after two days of withdrawl symptom ( still not as bad as cold turkey) I got progressively better. Now day seven and I am eating, ready to go back to work. Yesterday I actually went swimming and got a bit of tan. I still breakout in sweats about every two to three hours but I can take that. No pain, vomiting or cramps. Saw my doc yesterday for my weekly follow up and he spent a totol of 7 mins with me. didnt even take a blood pressure. But, I dont care. I am clean. My dose right now is 40 mg per day and that is what he expects me to be on next month when I have to give him $125 to write anther script for me. I plan to be on the 40 mg for the next two weeks then I will take it from there, maybe start decreasing it by 8 mg per week.. will see what my body tells me to do. I do hope your Doctor is a bit better then mine and has a bit more knowledge. I am a nurse so I dont need his help other then the Rx. I am attending my first Na meeting since about 1995 tonight to get the support I need to lean how to be clean again. I cant afford private councel and hope Na/aa wont mind the suboxone tx.

I guess all I can say is the sub works... not one trigger/craving since I began this new road. I plan to stay intouch here, build a support system and maybe develope a friend or two so I am not so isolated as I have been the last 4 yrs... GOD BLESS suboxone and hope you go tomorrow to your appointment, So far it is working for me.

[money_chick]

So,, how did it go? I hope everything went fine and you feel better today.

[sexiduck]

well, our work schedules are HECTIC, but this doctor is only in his office
10x/monthly; I guess I misunderstood the receptionist because he wasn't there today? I could've sworn she said Friday but I've been mistaken before.

I hope this dr is good. I'm still nervous and I took my last OC this morning so I could make it through work and hopefully I'll be in DT tomorrow enough for the doc to see my symptoms--my boyfriend is going with me too, he too has the same addiction, so I feel a bit better about him being in the same boat, I can't say I'm lonely, I'm just so glad he is ready to move on as well. I don't think I could handle me getting off of them and him still being on them

I'm more afraid I'll forget to mention something important than me withholding anything from the dr. At this point I know something has to be done and I don't see myself lieing to the doctor. I just don't know how to begin...yes Im kristie and i have a problem? seriously...how do you say I need help?

The truth is that I was a recreational drug user in the past, but I grew out of it, then the MRSA came along and so did the plethora of painkillers, along with my ear, nose, & throat problems bringing multiple bottles of Tussionex for me to drool over...n tah dah here I am nauseated shaking w/ cold sweats and chills and no sleep and depressed as hell...

Thanks so much everyone for the kind words and support. I am very relieved that I have made this step (admitting there IS a problem) I just am very nervous of the next few...

I know nothing about this dr, I just printed the list off the suboxone website and started calling--if they said there was a waiting list, I put my name on it. I heard this dr I'm going to only makes you come back once every 2 months once he gets your dose right. I know this is going to be a long haul but its going to be worth every dime I spend on gas and co-pays and Rx bills...again thanks for everyone's replies

[sexiduck]

Well today is day 2 (technically 3 if you count induction day but I say day 1 was first day on my own)

soo...far, soo good. Still very nauseated and I've had a headache both yesterday and today at around the same time. Was wondering if more people prefer taking their full dose in the morning or spacing it out throughout the day? I felt better taking them separately than I did today. Could just be my body adjusting I suppose

The cravings haven't been as bad as I expected but they are still there. The doc told me I could have 4/day if needed but to try not to exceed 4 daily. I've done well on 3 daily so far but the nausea is getting to me. I have to watch what I eat I suppose because so far anything sweet or greasy has triggered the gag refelx and causes me to throw up, but so far thats the only complaint I have.

Oh and I am having trouble with sleep still--guess again body adjusting--missed work today because I woke up at 9am (2 hours late for work) and didn't have the gall to call and say that I slept that late, instead used the excuse that I slept through the time I should've called in. They are very supportive at work and know I'm having a tough time. I have to get my stress level down so I can sleep better. Hope everyone is well.