[Seanyboy754]

Hey my name is Sean and I'm 22 years old. I had surgery for a hernia about a little over a month ago. I've been taking percocet since a little before the surgery, and now I am running out, I only have a few left. I know I don't really need them anymore for pain but I can't help taking them. When I don't have it I feel absolutely horrible. I tried stopping but now I can't sleep. I don't know what to do. It is nearing the end of my semester at school and things are really stressful. i have 21 credits and i'm a music major, I have big performances coming up and i'm nervous.

First of all is it possible to be addicted after having them for like a month or am I just making a big deal out of nothing? Does anybody have any suggestions for what I can do? because I don't know if I can deal with this awful feeling and try to pull off getting through this semester..thanks so much for anybody who might be able to help!

Oh by the way I was taking about 8-10 a day of the 5/325 up until about a week and a half ago. Since then I've just been taking between 1-3 a day because I don't want to run out..

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[ginafl2]

I would call my Doctor and tell him or her the truth. They should understand and put you on a tapering schedual. Maybe three a day one week then 2 1/2 the next then so on and so on. If you are totally honest with them they should understand and want to help you out. You might have some withdrawls for a day or two after about a month but it shouldn't be bad. That is my advice. Get your Doctor involved as soon as possible, they should understand this kind of thing happens all the time.

Gina

[mpvt]

I agree,your to young to get caught up in the world of narcotics.Actually your age helps too because you should be able to handle the withdrawls better and you'll clean out quick too.Do it now before it's to late,you don't want to wake up and suddenly realize your 45 and you've got nothing but searching for pills all day long trying not to go into withdrawls.Hang in there guy and give it all you got,you've got your whole life ahead of you don't let drugs ruin you.....Dave

[Seanyboy754]

Hey thanks for the advice so far. It is really helpful. Am I doing anything to help me though, absolutely not. A few days ago I thought maybe there was a problem, not too big a deal. Today, I find myself in a different situation. I tried fighting the craving, but I couldn't help it, I took one today. I came home and now I'm having a couple glasses of wine and its not even 3:00 yet. I'm about to go back to school until later tonight. This sucks

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[chrish1]

Sean, You are addicted. The first thing you need to do is admit that to yourself.

Listen attentively to what mpvt said. You are in the very early stages. I used painkillers for 5+ years. Addiction leads to jails, institutions, and death. Don't worry if you need to taper a little bit, but do it on a doctor's schedule like ginafl advised. Otherwise, you may end up "tapering" for a few years. You have a chance to get out before it leads you into hell on earth. TAKE THAT CHANCE! You may want to start looking at avenues for help such as tapering, support boards, support groups (NA/AA), reading on addiction, prayer, meditation... etc. Get out while you can is my advise to you.

Chrish

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[ginafl2]

Sean,
I wouldn't call you an addict yet and i doubt your Doctor will either. I used for three years because of back injury and when i talked to my doctor he told me I wan't an addict but my body was habituated. I would strongly advise to call your Doctor and tell him/her. They will understand and they will help you. Trust me on this, get your Doctor's help now. They will probably let you taper through finals if you are honest. If I have learned one thing in my life, it's that everyone respects honesty. Be honest with your Doctor and they have to help you. No respectable Doctor will make someone go cold turkey.

[Seanyboy754]

Thanks so much everybody. I feel kinda stupid because it hasn't been that long. I know most people here have been having problems for years. Its only been a little over a month for me and its probably not too big a deal. But I also know I'm falling apart. I think I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow. The only problem I have now is that my surgeon is on vacation this week and he was the one prescribing me the painkillers. I don't know if my regular doctor would be able to help me or not. I hope somebody can help me though, because I'm beginning to realize that I can't fight this off on my own, it really does feel like dying..

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[all2007]

HI sean, im mary, 32 and had a cosmetic "procedure" tee hee done last year my dr wrote me out a big ol srcipt for percocet , enough to take like 12 a day if needed but i never took more than 1-2 daily cuz frankly its all i needed, so after a week i just stopped and realized it wasnt that easy! in one friggin week! the few days after i stopped i was a real nice lady. cranky moody short tempered and felt like ****. i was like "man i wish he had told me these were so habit forming" at least to give me a heads up...you sounds like you really have your act together and alot going for ya! definatley talk to an MD or your doc on campus about it, its more common than you realize seriously! dont mess up the good thing youve got going for ya! your are young and can come thru it in time with help. this site is very supportive!! best of luck to you!! xoxo mary

[ginafl2]

sean,

it might even be better to tell your regular doc about it. This stuff happens, please stop beating yourself up over it. Most drug addicts lie, cheat and steal to get their drugs. Are you doing any of those things? I'm guessing not. Don't beat yourself up, it can happen to anybody. Call your regular Doc first thing tomorrow. You will feel a great weight lifted when you do, I promise.

Gina

[chrish1]

Seanyboy, you mentioned you are mixing alcohol and painkillers. This can be dangerous and hard on your liver. Have you struggled with alcohol or any other drugs in the past?

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[Seanyboy754]

No, I've never done that before, I usually don't drink at all because I'm so busy with school. And I didn't drink until a few hours after I took the pill. I thought it might help me feel better, but it didn't do much so I won't do it again. I smoked cigarettes since I was 16, but I quit about 3 and a half months ago, at the end of December. I've been tempted to buy a pack, I think the cravings are somewhat similar..but I didn't give in..I really want to stay smokefree.

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[mpvt]

Sean: Being smoke free tells me you have the will power to quit something when you put your mind to it.You really need to stay away from this stuff.You can do this.....Dave

[Seanyboy754]

I went to my doctor today and he was really nice. He said that he did not want to prescribe me more percocet so he prescribed me methodane and xanax. I also decided to tell a couple of people close to me because i'm getting tired of trying to hide it. I really don't know much about these drugs, but I hope things will get better. Will I still have bad withdrawals when I stop taking these?

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[ginafl2]

Hi,

Was I right? Do you feel better having told your Doc? Anyway, I used xanax for the withdrawls and it really helped. First I want to say this, you should always do what your Doctor says. Second if I were you i would try getting through the withdrawals just using the xanax. I have never used methadone so I can't say anything about that. The xanax works great. Get yourself some immodium if you don't wat to use the methadone. You are gonna be fine. I feel so proud that you called your doc. Sounds like you have a good, caring Doctor. Let us know how things go. Please, what ever you do don't let anyone on this site scare you into thinking anything different than what your Doctor tells you. If you listen to your Doc you will do great.

[Seanyboy754]

hey thanks so much. I do feel much better having talked to him. I'm going through a horrible time right now and I appreciate your concern. I think maybe I'll take your advice on skipping the methadose. I took one when I got the prescription but it didn't really do much for me. The doc told me that it would take away the withdrawal symptoms without getting the "high". I also think its a very small dosage. I guess it helped a little but I still had a very rough day today. Maybe I'll just try the Xanax tomorrow. Do you think I should tell my doc I don't want to take the methadose? Thanks again for making me feel better, I really need it right now.

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[ginafl2]

I think you should tell your Doctor about any concerns you have. You should begin to feel better in a day or two. Let me know how things go. You are doing great.

[mpvt]

In my opinion I would stay away from the methadone.It's just to strong a narcotic to use for your addiction.I agree that with the xanax you can make it.Can you get ahold of Imodium AD?It really helps with the withdrawls as it's an opiate but it doesn't cross the blood brain barrier.Also get the advil gel caps and drink as much water as you can.Start walking as soon as you feel you can and try and eat a balanced diet,stay away from sweets for now...Good luck,I know you can do this.....Dave

[dizzy23]

quote:Originally posted by Seanyboy754

Thanks so much everybody. I feel kinda stupid because it hasn't been that long. I know most people here have been having problems for years. Its only been a little over a month for me and its probably not too big a deal. But I also know I'm falling apart. I think I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow. The only problem I have now is that my surgeon is on vacation this week and he was the one prescribing me the painkillers. I don't know if my regular doctor would be able to help me or not. I hope somebody can help me though, because I'm beginning to realize that I can't fight this off on my own, it really does feel like dying..

Seanyboy - worth a million!

Don't feel stupid!!Those darn pills get ahold of you and don't let go!!!!!It is very easy to get addicted, especially if you have any stress in your life because the pills seem to dull your sense, and you don't feel the stress as much,in my opinion that is why people get addicted so quick.Don't blame yourself!!Please get help now,don't put it off,believe me it will get worse!!Good luck!!!

Debbie

Try to be correct!But not always successful!

[Seanyboy754]

Can you get immodium AD from any place without prescription? Is there a difference between the advil gelcaps and the brown pills, I have the brown pill ones in my house, but I can buy the gelcaps if its a difference. I've decided to take the advice that you all gave and I'm not going to take the methadose.

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[dizzy23]

quote:Originally posted by Seanyboy754

Can you get immodium AD from any place without prescription? Is there a difference between the advil gelcaps and the brown pills, I have the brown pill ones in my house, but I can buy the gelcaps if its a difference. I've decided to take the advice that you all gave and I'm not going to take the methadose.

Seanyboy - worth a million!

Immodium AD can be bought over the counter.The advil,not sure about the mgs. of each tablet,but I think the only difference between the gel caps and tablets are the g/caps are easier to swallow.You can do it by yourself,it's not easy,but if you are determined to get off them you can do it.

If you can't do it yourself,please get professional help.Don't be discouraged if you can't do it alone..it's very hard.

Debbie

Try to be correct!But not always successful!

[ginafl2]

immodium Ad is over the counter. How is the xanax working out?

[Seanyboy754]

The xanax is workin out ok. I didn't feel so great today, I was expecting the Xanax to make me feel relaxed but maybe I'm just expecting it to be like the painkiller or somethin. I had my ups and downs throughout the day, I made it through all my classes, sometimes my face feels like its burning up and I get real sweaty. I was soooo tempted to buy a pack of cigarettes today but I didn't. Overall it wasn't too horrible, today was the first full day that I did not take any perocet at all.

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[ginafl2]

hey sean,

that is awesome. Yeah the xanax just helps with the anxiety. The sweating is one of the worst things. I still get sweaty sometimes but it's not that bad anymore. I used for 3 and 1/2 years. You should feel better by easter. Are you sleeping O.K.?

[Seanyboy754]

Thanks. Sleeping is ok. I'm not waking up in the middle of the night thinking I can't breathe anymore, I guess that's from the xanax too. My motivation is not so great right now. I should be practicing a few hours a day and sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything. I have to go to class in an hour and I realy don't feel like it, haha.but I will. Being catholic has always been a big part of my life, and this weekend happens to be the most important part of the year, so I will offer everything up to the Lord this weekend. I will also pray for all of you that need prayers.

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[ginafl2]

Sean,

Wow, I am a practicing Catholic myself. I actually just confessed my addiction to a priest last weekend. He didn't seem too concerned though. Yeah, motivation is the hardest thing. Believe it or not I used to take my vicodin and work out for hours. It's a lot harder right now to get the motivation to get there. My husband helps though. Let me know how you continue to do. Is the xanax helping anymore? How much are you taking at a time?

[Seanyboy754]

The xanax is workin out ok. It is .5mg and I take one durin the day and one at night. I still have bad withdrawal symptoms, I was with a friend today and I gave in and had a cigarette I really feel terrible about it, I had quit for so long, but in the moment I was just feeling so terrible and I honestly didn't really care if I had one.

I think it is great that you confessed to your priest. It must've felt like a relief. You know, it might not be a bad idea to find a priest that can really understand and relate to you for spritual direction. I have a priest that I have been talking to for years about everything, and he tells me how it is, no sugar coating of anything, and it is really helpful. I will pray for you that you have a wonderful Easter, and I will pray for everybody on this site. I once again thank everybody for their help, and if anybody can pray for me I would appreciate it too, I think these next few days are going to be very hard for me..

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[cluelessNJ]

Sean~ You are confusing me...... I don't know if I should resd your post her or on the 'need to talk' thread! Which one do you post on more frequently? Do you check one more often than the other? I want to help you and give you guidance but i'm not sure where to post!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[Seanyboy754]

haha sorry about that! When i first went to this site I wasn't exactly sure how it worked. At that point I just wanted to talk to somebody as quick as I could and I didn't know if people read through all the forums or only certain ones, so i ended up posting in both. Now I do check both of them but I wish I only had one I made it so confusing for myelf!! If i can I'll try to stick to this one hehe..thanks for saying something!

Seanyboy - worth a million!

[ginafl2]

sean, I will pray for you this weekend. Just an idea, you might want to call you doctor and ask them if you can take a little more of the xanax since you are not taking the methadone. I was takeing about 2mg a day when I forst detoxed. Can you just stay in and try and sleep all day saturday? Don't worry about the smoking, I quit smoking six years ago and I had to smoke for the first two weeks when I was detoxing. It wasn't hard to quit again. You are under a lot of stress giver yourself a break. Remember, Jesus loves all of us even with our flaws.

Gina

[Seanyboy754]

Thanks for the prayers. I think I am going to stay in and sleep all day tomorow. I'm going to an Easter vigil that is going to be all night tomorrow..from around 11pm til around 6am. I'm supposed to be fasting from today til sunday morning, but I don't think I'm gonna do it fully this year because my body is going through enough stress I don't want to add to it haha.

I also realize now why you guys said to get immodium. My stomache was absolutely dying today.

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