[lilbri]

Tony just click on my name and you can go to me by drugs. com and i will get back to you. Brian.

[usmc_ret]

Originally Posted by MaisieC

Hi Tony,

Hoooooray!!!! Like Melinda, I'm sitting here with a big ol' smile on my face reading your post. I'm so happy for you! Congratulations, and special congratulations for flushing those eeeevil little pills. I know that took guts. It's great to hear you sounding so upbeat. You really will continue to feel better and better from now on. There will still be times when you feel kind of disoriented. I still have this "reach for the bottle" impulse, which is completely unconscious, but it's a real reminder of how I was misusing those pills. And it's weird when there is nothing there to reach for. But we don't need 'em, do we?

Thank you so much for your kind words to me; they really make a difference, as you know. I appreciate it a lot!

Have you given any thought to going to any kind of support group, that is in-person? I sometimes find it helpful to go to AA, although I am not an alcoholic. In NYC, at least where I live, the Narcotics Anonymous group is pretty hardcore and I feel like a total wimp. (Not that anyone made me feel like that--everyone is very welcoming...it's just my trip.) The AA fellowship is really great and supportive, and it's wonderful to know you're not alone. Just something to think about....

Have a great day tomorrow!

Hey Maisie,
Today is my 7th day here and 2nd day at the new job. I would love to go to group. I'm pretty close to DC and not to be judgemental I'm sure there are plenty of groups to go to. That is one thing that I need to help me since I'm here all alone.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Friends, Romans, Countrymen, lend me your megabytes.

At 705 pm on 6 Jan 2009, I dumped 33 Percocet pills in the toilet. I have no more. I just moved out of town and have no Dr. to give me any more.

I don't need them in control of my life anymore. No crying today! No sweating! Back eating! Also telling jokes and smiling.

The w/d is not over. I can tell. Still jumpy and anxious. Feelings of depression but very different (in a better way) as days go on.

When I needed to talk (type) you were there for me. Put another feather in your caps ladies and gentlemen for I am clean!!

Semper Fi!
Tony (6 days clean)

I am really proud of you Tony! Felt pretty darn good flushing those pills didn't it??? Feels better than taking them at this point.

You've become a new person over the last couple days my friend. You don't ever have to live like that again. This is why I spend the time I do on this forum. It totally makes my day to see someone go from where you were last week to today. Congratulations! God bless.

[Princess2112]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Friends, Romans, Countrymen, lend me your megabytes.

At 705 pm on 6 Jan 2009, I dumped 33 Percocet pills in the toilet. I have no more. I just moved out of town and have no Dr. to give me any more.

I don't need them in control of my life anymore. No crying today! No sweating! Back eating! Also telling jokes and smiling.

The w/d is not over. I can tell. Still jumpy and anxious. Feelings of depression but very different (in a better way) as days go on.

When I needed to talk (type) you were there for me. Put another feather in your caps ladies and gentlemen for I am clean!!

Semper Fi!
Tony (6 days clean)

Wow Tony! CONGRATULATIONS!

This is the best post I have seen from you! You got through the worst and gathered up the strength to get rid of those nasty percs! I am proud of you.

Remember what I said though, you get through the physical part faster than you do the mental part. Give it another couple of weeks, and you will be happy and feel "normal" again.

Luckily I have been just about a month and a half clean, and I haven't had any cravings. If you do, I have a suggestion...look at your past posts. I have looked at mine and I was CRAZY back then, but also scared like everyone else going through a hard withdrawl. Robert and musicman have said I changed in just the few weeks that they had known me, so I looked back to see if I could actually see the change in my posts and BAM, they were right. I am not angry or emotional anymore (and I was on pills for 9 years and 4 months and had a VERY HARD withdrawl). You will see in your posts things like (anger, frustration, anxiety, and even defensivness...etc) and you'll realize that you are not that way anymore and never want to be again. Watch how you change for the better every single day, and help as many as you can. That alone will make you proud of yourself and what you have accomplished, and you won't want that pill anymore. Good luck and remember that even though I don't know you, I am proud of you and thank you for sharing your story with us.

[Robert_325]

Princess ... cool post! It's hard to believe after reading that reply that you only have six weeks clean. You've come a long ways in such a short time. God bless.

[lilbri]

To bad you didn't send them 30 perc's to me cause my back's not feeling to good. Brian.

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by lilbri

To bad you didn't send them 30 perc's to me cause my back's not feeling to good. Brian.

Hope you're careful Brian. Don't get yourself into a mess again my friend. God bless.

[usmc_ret]

Brian,
Shame on you my friend!! Toilet is where they belong. I'll also get that back surgery info to you tonight.

Ok, Day 7. Ate b-fast just fine. Took vitamin, kidney stone med, and went to work. Lunch, ok. Dinner, ok. No crying. No chills. No thoughts of pulling the guy out of his car and beating him for cutting me off in the rain on I-95.
After work. Back to the apt, changed clothes, went to gym for 30 mins.
Came back, shower, going to Wed Bible study.

Good mood. All is fine so far.

-Tony

[Robert_325]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Brian,
Shame on you my friend!! Toilet is where they belong. I'll also get that back surgery info to you tonight.

Ok, Day 7. Ate b-fast just fine. Took vitamin, kidney stone med, and went to work. Lunch, ok. Dinner, ok. No crying. No chills. No thoughts of pulling the guy out of his car and beating him for cutting me off in the rain on I-95.
After work. Back to the apt, changed clothes, went to gym for 30 mins.
Came back, shower, going to Wed Bible study.

Good mood. All is fine so far.

-Tony

Tony ...

There's no guarantee that getting clean will keep you from thinking about beating that guy who cut in front of you. I still struggle with that one too occasionally. But then I remember that Jesus died for that guy too. Sometimes it seems like eternity would be fine without some of the really bad drivers, but thankfully we won't have cars there so who cares.

I'm about to jump in the shower and head to Weds church services too. Glad you're doing Bible study tonite. God hasn't let me down yet! I don't know where I would be today if not for the mercy and grace of God. Take care and God bless.

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Brian,
Shame on you my friend!! Toilet is where they belong. I'll also get that back surgery info to you tonight.

Ok, Day 7. Ate b-fast just fine. Took vitamin, kidney stone med, and went to work. Lunch, ok. Dinner, ok. No crying. No chills. No thoughts of pulling the guy out of his car and beating him for cutting me off in the rain on I-95.
After work. Back to the apt, changed clothes, went to gym for 30 mins.
Came back, shower, going to Wed Bible study.

Good mood. All is fine so far.

-Tony

Hi Tony
Good answer !!! shame on you brian...you know better
You better listen to Robert...
Your friend always,Melinda

[lilbri]

Funny i never thought i would hear that from you Melinda. But that's ok i know i will make it. Brian.

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by lilbri

Funny i never thought i would hear that from you Melinda. But that's ok i know i will make it. Brian.

Hi Brian
OK make me feel bad, I just don't want you to get in trouble with pills again.
You know what a hard time we had when we quit them.your my partner in this and I need you back on this side of things...So hurry up and get well..
And you still shouldn't have said that
So don't be mad at me...
Your friend...
Melinda

[MaisieC]

Hey Tony,

Just checking in to say hi. I expect you're probably already asleep by now. (This board seems to be on Greenwich Mean Time, which never fails to confuse me....) I was out with friends tonight and indulged another evil addiction: Kentucky Fried Chicken.

I hope things are going well with you. We're here for you, you know.

[Princess2112]

Originally Posted by Robert_325

Princess ... cool post! It's hard to believe after reading that reply that you only have six weeks clean. You've come a long ways in such a short time. God bless.

All I can say is...Thank YOU Robert! Wish I could have found you sooner! You rock!

[lilbri]

Im sorry Melinda i didn't meen that. Brian.

[usmc_ret]

Hey guys,
Hope you're not getting sick of me but you're like my extended family.
Day 8. Everything is a- ok. After work I went to the gym and did the stairs for 60 mins. Heart rate got up, had some gas, heart rate went down. Plenty of water and even a Butterfinger today.
I thought about my pills first thing, then I totally didn't even think about them until now when I usually pop one after dinner. Headaches are gone. I continue to do the Ambien thing for now but that is next.
WHO-HOOO!!!

Tony

[MaisieC]

Hey Tony,

Totally not sick of you! In fact, if you disappear we'll be really upset--you keep coming back here! I'm glad to hear it's going so well. I can imagine how relieved you are.

Butterfinger, eh? One of my favorites. Dang, now I want one...

[usmc_ret]

Not going anywhere. Might be gone Sat and Sun. Traveling to NC to see the family... Sober.

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by lilbri

Im sorry Melinda i didn't meen that. Brian.

Hi Brian
You don't have to say sorry to me . Your my friend...
How are you feeling ??? Is your back getting stronger...
Let me know how it's going....
Talk to you soon ,Melinda

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Hey guys,
Hope you're not getting sick of me but you're like my extended family.
Day 8. Everything is a- ok. After work I went to the gym and did the stairs for 60 mins. Heart rate got up, had some gas, heart rate went down. Plenty of water and even a Butterfinger today.
I thought about my pills first thing, then I totally didn't even think about them until now when I usually pop one after dinner. Headaches are gone. I continue to do the Ambien thing for now but that is next.
WHO-HOOO!!!

Tony

Tony
You can post on here ten times a day if you want. When I went thru my w/d I was on here all the time...OH, I still am...LOL But it helped me get thru this.
It makes everyone feel good to know that you are doing so well...
Talk to you soon ,Melinda

[Robert_325]

There are a few of us here that have been through a lot together. I hope you consider you and I to be a part of that group. I am concerned for you my friend. I watched you struggle and beat your head against the wall for months before getting clean.

I really hope that if this pain issue with your back is becoming overwhelming again that you would trust the people here who have proven to be your friends. You and I have fussed with each other, but only out of caring for your survival. If I can help you please say something. Don't go back to where you were. It's so easy to think we have things under control when nothing could be farther from the truth.

I'm worried about you buddy. You may be the "heat" and you know my story, but that's ok. I don't care. I want to help you if there is a problem and you will allow me to. I'm here. All you've got to do is ask. Take care dude. God bless.

[lilbri]

Thank's Robert and Melinda. Your good frend Brian.

[usmc_ret]

Hey guys,
I'm back from a great weekend with the family in NC. I feel so great! No thought of Percocet at all this weekend and had a great time driving back to VA sober as a new born baby (whos mom is drug free of course.)

Hope you all are doing great!
-Tony (survivor 11 days)

[Princess2112]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Hey guys,
I'm back from a great weekend with the family in NC. I feel so great! No thought of Percocet at all this weekend and had a great time driving back to VA sober as a new born baby (whos mom is drug free of course.)

Hope you all are doing great!
-Tony (survivor 11 days)

I love seeing posts like this! Glad you are feeling better and had a nice weekend! Congratulations on 11 days clean.

[usmc_ret]

Thanks Princess!!! I NEVER thought I'd be myself again. Percs don't own me ANYMORE.

[MaisieC]

Congratulations, Tony! I'm really glad you're doing so well, and glad you got to see the family. Best wishes for week 2 at the new job!

[Bre33]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Hello,
I just retired from the Marine Corps last week. I have been taking Percocet for about 2 years from a total disc replacement in my back and Ambien for insomnia.

I just moved and start my new job on Monday. Today is my 2nd full day with no Percocets and 3rd night without Ambien.

I feel very depressed, almost like it's the end of the world. My family is still in our home where I came from due to school and will be moving with me in the summer time.

So, it's just me, alone, to deal with transition, and withdrawls.

The past two nights I wake up sweating and feel tingling in my legs. I wake up every hour on the hour for some reason. I feel as if I take a Percocet, I'll be back to normal but I'm fighting it as well as I can. If I throw my last bit of pills away I feel like I'm throwing away my best friend.

Someone please help me and tell me how long these withdrawls will last. I'm going nuts here all alone but I feel that the right thing to do is to gut this out for the rest of the weekend.

Thanks for any and all advise,
Tony

Tony,

The withdrawals from Percocet may last anywhere from 10 days to 2 weeks. although you feel alone, you certainly are not. There are millions of people going through the same transitions you, and I'm sure you're finding support here.
When you said you felt like you're throwing away you're best friend, I understand.l But you have to remember that indeed you have created a relationship with these pills, as they have been there for you, right? So like any relationship that we try to get over, remember the bad times, the times when you're so sick from withdrawal you wish you never "met" these pills, do not remember the good times, the bad far outweigh the good. Hope that can help you a bit...
As far as the fatigue, you must EXERCISE!!! I cannot stress to you how important this is! You're body has been depleted of Endorphins, our natural feel good pain relievers, they allow us to create sufficient levels of serotonin and Dopamine-Our "Happy" chemicals. Without these we suffer, from depression, fatigue, mood instability, etc.... So exercise, it will help you greatly.
In addition, drinks a lot of water. You're body has been working on all acids for the time you've been on the opiates.
I hope I was able to help.
Regards,
Breanne
http://www.opiates.com

[usmc_ret]

Hey guys,
Just checking in. Today it's about 20 degrees outside and my body told me that a nice Perc would warm me up. I thought about it for about 2 hrs straight today. Today reminded me of day 4-5. I'm not sure where the thoughts came from but of course it came along with depression and the leg tingling again.
THANK GOD I threw my pills in the toilet and can't get them. I'm afraid that I would have told myself "what would just one hurt me?" I'm sure you understand this but... It's depressing thinking about being depressed and having the feeling of worthlessness. I feel like I did something wrong and don't know why.

I hope you all are doing great. Stay warm!

Tony
(15 days Perc survivor)

[Robert_325]

Tony 15 days is great! But you're just getting going in recovery my friend. Cut yourself some slack. I had using dreams and felt like you're talking about for months.

It WAS a God thing that you finally flushed those goofy pills. Today is exactly why I kept hassling you to flush them. Chalk another one up for God! He's never let me down yet. God bless.

[melinda7.5]

Originally Posted by usmc_ret

Hey guys,
Just checking in. Today it's about 20 degrees outside and my body told me that a nice Perc would warm me up. I thought about it for about 2 hrs straight today. Today reminded me of day 4-5. I'm not sure where the thoughts came from but of course it came along with depression and the leg tingling again.
THANK GOD I threw my pills in the toilet and can't get them. I'm afraid that I would have told myself "what would just one hurt me?" I'm sure you understand this but... It's depressing thinking about being depressed and having the feeling of worthlessness. I feel like I did something wrong and don't know why.

I hope you all are doing great. Stay warm!

Tony
(15 days Perc survivor)

Hi Tony
I haven't taken a pill since AUGUST and the thought still comes into my mind...and it says,OH a vic would wake you right up...LOL..
But I quickly rethink it and tell myself what a mess I had myself in when I was using and the thought passes real quick...
It really does make me sick to even think about using again...
You have done a great job.Really proud of you..
Talk to you soon, Melinda