I can understand how you're feeling, I've been there. My Dr. had me on 80mg
Paxil daily for almost 8 years. I had horrible withdrawals when I was coming off it. Your Doctor should have never let you quit cold turkey, you really could have hurt yourself. I hope you are getting better!! It took me about 7 months to finally feel better. I did try to commit suicide a few times while on Paxil, not 1 attempt since I've been off it. I still have depression and anxiety... I'm on other med's now that help out and keep me in reality, unlike Paxil. Good luck and I hope things work out for you. Take Care!!!