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    I have a really good friend who is addicted to the pain killer Hydrocodone. Anyhow she wants to stop but everytime she does she gets really bad withdrawals such as sweating and shaking, can't sleep, etc. I was wondering if anyone out there has been through this on their own without going to a treatment center. If so please tell me what to do for her and how long it took for the withdrawals to go away!!!! HELP!!!!

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    don't have any anwers~ just hope all goes well!

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    It will be very hard for her to just quit cold turkey as you can see. [xx(] You will have to find a physician who is qualified and will treat her opioid dependence with Suboxone, Buprenorphine or Bupernex (all are the same drug different names). This can be done in an outpatient program or in office as long as the doctor is qualified to prescribe Buprenorphine. The link below will help you find a doctor in your area. Hope this helps.

    http://www.suboxone.com


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    quote:Originally posted by Doggy

    I have a really good friend who is addicted to the pain killer Hydrocodone. Anyhow she wants to stop but everytime she does she gets really bad withdrawals such as sweating and shaking, can't sleep, etc. I was wondering if anyone out there has been through this on their own without going to a treatment center. If so please tell me what to do for her and how long it took for the withdrawals to go away!!!! HELP!!!!
    Honestly... The best thing to do is go to a treatment center. But if this is not really an option that you can or do not want to take then the ball is in your hands and your going to have to hold it. I had to deal with a couple of friends with >>>>>> addiction. The best thing to do is to put them in a room with a matress on the floor and a blanket. Make sure they get food and lots of fluids (water). And make sure you have a few days off of work or school to do this. They can not be left alone in the house/apartment. It will take 3 to 5 days for their body to rid itself of the toxins. They will sweat it out, void it out (from both ends) and cry it out. It will be a horrible ordeal for both of you to go through, but they would go through the same thing in an inpatient treatment center. The only diffrence is that you would be someone that they know they can trust. Good luck and please let me know how it goes.




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    I'm so sorry to hear this about your friend. I too have an addiction to hydrocodone. I have had horrible, horrible withdrawal symptoms with shaking, being cold one minute and hot the next, pins and needles feeling in my legs, restless leg syndrome. I have screamed and screamed from the agony. It was absolutely horrible. I know that one time a physician told me I should have called him and gotten something to ease the withdrawals. I never knew there was such a thing. I'm now off of hydrocodone and when I need to take pain medication my husband keeps the bottle and dispenses it as needed and that has helped a lot. Ultram also was horrible to withdraw from. I became suicidal after taking Ultram for two weeks and then stopping. I feel for your friend. Especially if she has to deal with pain without getting medication for it. Tylenol and Advil just don't have enough of a pain killer for some pain. Sometimes I just have to bear it and cry. Pain pill addictions are awful. I will be in prayer for her. It took me three days to get over the worst withdrawal. Then for three more days I had the restless leg problem. Couldn't keep my legs still. It was hard to sleep for six days. The last thing to come back to me was sleep. After that I was okay, so it took about seven days to get over the withdrawal. All my husband could do was sit with me, give me cold rags, hold me, etc. I continually had praise and worship CDs playing which helped. I had to sleep in our spare bedroom so my husband could sleep, but he continually got up during the night to check on me. My only advice for how you can help is just be there for your friend and let her know you care.

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    i agree...she will not have luck doing it on her own...i know first hand of the treatment with suboxone....it is phenomenal. easy transition...no withdrawal symptoms.... a must! www.suboxone.com

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    Thank you all so much for your responses...you have helped tremendously. Now from what I understand this medication is not something that just ANY doctor can prescribe if I am understanding the information correctly. So if she makess an appointment with one of the doctors on the list then she will be okay. Her husband has no clue that this is going on...I know kinda hard to believe you would think and so she is trying to do this under as much confidentiallity as possible.

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    Hello. I am going through the exact same problem as far as hiding this from my husband. I have been taking Darvocet for chronic pain for about 3 years. About 5 months ago I increased my dosage to about an average of 5 a day vs. the 2.5 a day I had been taking for the period before this time. My doctor said that I shouldn't worry about addiction. Stupidly, this is the 1st time that I've searched on the Internet reg. Darvocet addiction. He's obviously wrong. I need help with suggestions, too. It is not an option for me to go to a clinic, either. I really feel for your friend. I can't be known in my town or our social 'circles' as having this problem. I can't be seen at a meeting in fear of someone finding out. I wish that I could. Can someone tell me what kind of withdrawl symptoms that I should expect from Darvocet? After doing a bit of research I see that it's a bit different than Hydrocodone. Best of wishes for your friend. Thank you for any help that someone can provide.

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    i have never taken that drug, but i have done my share of others...percocet, vicoden, oc's...etc. and i was addicted. as for coming off of them i did once ween myself off of them, and that worked, but it was a slow process and then i did have off days where i took more than i should have etc...but then i heard of this program with the suboxone treatment. i know that you can get treatment with or without health coverage. it just might cost a bit more. but that cost in my case was fine, because i was paying for the pills i was taking anyway! i know of at least 3 others that have used this method and it is the best. and the most comfortable? meaning, no nasty withdrawals. the sweaty flu like symptoms, the constant bathroom visits, the skin crawling...i had nothing. do what you can to help your friend use this method to easily get her life back. i have mine and i couldn't be happier. good luck!

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    quote:Originally posted by Doggy

    Thank you all so much for your responses...you have helped tremendously. Now from what I understand this medication is not something that just ANY doctor can prescribe if I am understanding the information correctly. So if she makess an appointment with one of the doctors on the list then she will be okay. Her husband has no clue that this is going on...I know kinda hard to believe you would think and so she is trying to do this under as much confidentiallity as possible.
    I for one am thankfull that I dont have an addictive personality. Outside of nicotine and gummi candi I have never had an addiction. But I do try to throw my best towards those I know who do.Right now I am trying to help a friend (who is having a hard time accepting the help) who is an alchoholic. The other day when we had our sunday (a bunch of us get together every sunday and cook and drink beers to wind down the weekend and rest for a new week) his daughter came to see him at this friends house and he could not stop drinking. Even in front of her. It's quite disheartening. But worth the effort to get him clean for,if no one else, his kid.

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    hey , i work in a drug treatment center, inpatient and suboxone really works, some time the doctors will use valium and librium, but the next step will be support from a pill addict group. hang in there.

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    Yes, despite what others say, your friend can handle this without a treatment center. It won't be easy, for sure. The worst of it is the first 3-5 days: trembling, shaking, burning up one minute-freezing the next, severe depression (which is why she needs a good friend available to her at all times through this). The depression is the worst part of it and the only thing that helps is to have someone to talk, cry, scream and just generally lose it with. She may experience abdominal and torso muscle cramps also. The universal (eventual) cure is MONSTROUS AMOUNTS OF WATER!!! Good cold water.
    After a few days, start trying to go for walks because the nervous energy pent up inside is the cause for a lot of the anxiety. Walks (even just to the end of the driveway and back at first) will help release some of this tension. She's beginning what we call in drug parlance as the "jones". The first 5 days, she's gonna want a Lortab so bad she could cry and probably will. But, if she makes it through the jones without scoring, it still ain't no picnic for a few days but she's on her way. Then, sleep starts coming a little easier and before you know it, you wake up one morning and you're free! Good luck to her and be strong baby girl...
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    Yes, despite what others say, your friend can handle this without a treatment center. It won't be easy, for sure. The worst of it is the first 3-5 days: trembling, shaking, burning up one minute-freezing the next, severe depression (which is why she needs a good friend available to her at all times through this). The depression is the worst part of it and the only thing that helps is to have someone to talk, cry, scream and just generally lose it with. She may experience abdominal and torso muscle cramps also. The universal (eventual) cure is MONSTROUS AMOUNTS OF WATER!!! Good cold water.
    After a few days, start trying to go for walks because the nervous energy pent up inside is the cause for a lot of the anxiety. Walks (even just to the end of the driveway and back at first) will help release some of this tension. She's beginning what we call in drug parlance as the "jones". The first 5 days, she's gonna want a Lortab so bad she could cry and probably will. But, if she makes it through the jones without scoring, it still ain't no picnic for a few days but she's on her way. Then, sleep starts coming a little easier and before you know it, you wake up one morning and you're free! Good luck to her and be strong baby girl...
    God Bless.

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    Okay everyone.....my friend has an appointment in two weeks with a doctor that can treat with suboxone. She is doing this on her own with no insurance because she can't risk anyone finding out. So now what can she expect as far as the process? And how long is this proces going to take??? And how much?? I am very proud of her and couldn't have given her all this advice with you all in this forum! So again...thank-you!! She is scared....very scared...she just doesn't want to feel horrible and prays that this is the answer. She just wants her life back and to save the hundreds of dollars she was spending to support this habit before the hubby catches on.

    Please anyone who has been through this treatment....Mitzu.....please tell me what to expect on her first appointment. Will they give her the prescription that day and will they prescribe other things such as stuff to hep with the anxiety or to help sleep? Thanks !

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    i havent been on for a few days...sorry...well, i was not the one to go to the appt...it was my boyfriend...but i do pretty much know what to expect...you need to make sure she is in withdrawal...otherwise the subutex (which is usually used for the first part of the process) will put her into withdrawals...and from what i have read in different posts, etc, it is BAD. so please be sure that she knows this! what they did was give him a certain amount to dissolve under his tongue and wait there for an hour or so to see how he felt...expect this appt to be at least a few to 4 hours i believe...if the initial dose doesnt kick your wd feelings then they will give you more...then you just go on home and go about your life! you get sent home w a script for more...then another appt, etc etc...its easy. its WONDERFUL. no withdrawal symptoms at all (for me or my bfriend) ... i only needed to use the suboxone for a couple days in order to get over what physical wds i would have had and now i do not need it at all. we all get really scared over what the wds will be like, etc...it feels so awful...and you continue to use...well, enough was enough and since my bfriend felt he didnt need anymore for himself, he let me take some of his sub, so we could both be clean together. i was so scared to take that first pill...but i did it and couldnt be happier. good luck!

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    So if she is on the hydrocodone before her appointment then what? How long will it take for her to be clean without any withrawals? She is hoping to be clean within 3 weeks from the appointment next week. She is scared...very scared. She is scared to have the withdrawals. She also gets panicky when she has tried to go off of it before also no sleep unless she takes the hydrocodone before she goes to bed as well. I will be there with her every step of the way that is for sure but I am just trying to educate myself as much as possible beofre next week. Thanks again for all your help and support...especially you Mitzu. I guess I just have so many questions but I know everyone tolerates things differently.

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    how many does she take daily? i didnt take many hydros because i only could get the weak ones, so i mainly popped everything else i could pop probably close to 15ish or so percs a day...not so bad compared to others i have read on these boards, but bad enough to be addicted to them. sometimes oc's also...so my physical addiction was pretty high i think? and for me the sub was just amazing. like i said a couple days i took it...probably only really needed it a day. but the hardest part will be the psychological addiction...the want for the pills...the body wont be crying for them as much as her head will be!

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    oh ya...and the cost is a bit high, my bfriend does not have health insurance...so per pill i think is about $8 at the pharmacy. and then i think he pays $40 per appt...and initally there was a fee for the first day, also...but these numbers should be easy to get by just calling the doctor she will see so she can plan on it...mid september she is going? she is going to wonder why she didnt go sooner. i only kept putting it off because of the fear of wds. for me it was a piece of cake. i could be one of the lucky ones...dont get me wrong though...my head is full of the thoughts of them! but gotta be good.

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    check your local area and see if you have a methadone clinic anywhere around, it will help with the withdrawls and also slowly get you off the Hydro.
    quote:Originally posted by Doggy

    I have a really good friend who is addicted to the pain killer Hydrocodone. Anyhow she wants to stop but everytime she does she gets really bad withdrawals such as sweating and shaking, can't sleep, etc. I was wondering if anyone out there has been through this on their own without going to a treatment center. If so please tell me what to do for her and how long it took for the withdrawals to go away!!!! HELP!!!!

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    Methadone....what the heck is that??? Is that anything like the Suboxone? Is it better or worse? And yes my friend takes about 15 hydro's a day. I think they are the 7.5 or the 10mgs. Thats a lot of pills! And yes her appt is next week...yeah!!!! Thank you all so much for your help in helping my friend. I know that she is scared but I have reassured her of everything you all have said. Now her worry is the cost. But hopefully it won't be too outrageous.

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    I am joining this forum as I am getting ready to run out of Lortabs again . I have been battling this addiction for over 4 years now and I dont know if I can deal with the withdrawals one more time . I am due to go back to the doctor again but I have no money and no insurance so I think this time I am going to tough it out and not go to the doctor . Cause I think I am losing my mind because of this addiction I dont feel normal without at least 10 to 20 Lortab 10 s in my system a day ! I dont have the energy to even get out of bed without them . I hope someone out there can help me through this somehow I have the next 3 days off of work . I wonder if I will be able to go to work come friday morning . Pleasae pray for me that i get through this this time cause if i get through this alive than i will never touch another pill again .

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    This is to Mellenfan. I wrote a previous entry on the first page of this topic under 'drugquestion'. I want to let you know that I will pray for you and that I am thinking about you and what you must be going through with the withdrawls. I hope that you will consider going to a pain management specialist even though you do not have insurance. I went to one just yesterday. He put me on Methadone. I've read mixed opinions about Methandone, on various drug forums, but the majority of what I have read is positive. From what I gather, even though Methadone is addictive in itself, it does make the withdrawl symptoms more tolerable so if you switch over to this and slowly wean yourself off of the Methadone this may be a more managable alternative than to quit cold turkey. You still get a 'high' from the Methadone. I'm getting more of a high than I did with Darvocet. When I commit to stopping everything altogether I believe that the withdrawl symptoms should be better than when I tried to stop cold turkey last week which was bad even for me taking less pills a day than you do. Going through withdrawl cold turkey will create bad memories and negative reinforcement in my view point. If you are dealing with a pain problem, as I am, you do have a difficult time ahead. If you think that you can go cold turkey and never turn back then this would be great. If you have pain bad enough then the first thing you will want to do is turn to pain killers if the pain is bad enough. This is all I know. I hope that it helps a little bit. I am here if you want to e-mail for a little while. After not being able to get off the sofa last week for a few days and with the depression it created I really feel for those who have taken more pain meds per day than myself. I've taken them for about 4 to 5 years. I did feel better about the 4th day after stopping cold turkey but then my pain set in. That's where there can be a problem and this is where my pain management doctor comes in. Feel free to write me if you are going crazy and are depressed. I hope that you have someone with you to help you through this. The worst thing you could do, at this point, is to get your hands on another full bottle of the pain meds that you are use to taking. It's too easy to revert back to it as before. Kindest regards, Emily

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    Mellenfan: I forgot to mention this but I would really try to [u]scrape up the money</u> to get to a pain management specialist. You sound like that you are very committed to quiting and I hope that there is someone who can lend you money or ask the pain management doctors' staff if they would consider a payment plan - this may be your best option, actually. God Bless, Emily

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    this is to drugquestion thanks for your reply ! I appreciate the fact that there is someone out there who understands what I am going through . How did you get the referal to the pain management specialist ?? I will try this or do I not have to have a referal . Please let me know and thanks again . Mellenfan

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    My Mom is going through the exact same thing, years and years of meds have taken their toll. and she is now in the hospital with an unrelated(sic) illness and nothing they're trying is working because she has built up such a resistance to it all....very trying...

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    To Mellenfan: My gynocologist set up my appointment for me so I don't know if I needed a referral. Before I went to see my gynocologist I did call a different pain management clinic that did require a referral so I don't know if all pain management doctors do or not. It's not always an insurance requirement and I know you said that you don't have insurance anyway. I've had multiple surgeries and have very painful adhesions from scar tissue that developed from so many surgeries for endometriosis. I probably currently have endometriosis still stuck to nerves and canals in that area even after a total hysterectomy at the age of 28. It was easy for me to get a referral with all of this plus I have auto- immune problems, too (not HIV, though). If you are not dealing with a pain problem then maybe you could think about it a little deeper if you need a reason for a referral. If you don't deal with a major existing pain problem then do you at least get bad headaches? I would be quite up front with the pain management doctor when you see him/her though. Tell them a re-hab center is totally not an option. They might be understanding enough to treat you. I totally understand if you don't want to go to a re-hab center. This was NOT an option for me. Try the yellow pages and call all the pain management specialists to ask if referrals are a requirement. I really hope that you get into see someone who can help you. With what you've written in your original statement I think that you need to. I've only written (a very short) response to one other person in one of these forums to offer advise but really heard your need for assistance. Please go to a professional doctor. Think about how much better you will feel in the future. I am going to try an aperatus that sends radioactive waves directly to the site of my pain in order to get off of the Methadone that I just started. I can't wait b/c I know that I will be better than even while taking the Darvocet for so long. I got a taste of how good I would feel last week if I stop taking Darvocet. I had a very good day between the withdrawl days when the bad pain came back from the adhesions and endometriosis. This gave me hope. If you can experience this good feeling - it's like a big fresh breath of air, then maybe this will help you to think of what you would gain by quiting vs. what you will lose and miss when you stop taking the Lortab. I hope this helps. Hang in there. Regards, Emily

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    Yes Emily it helps BUT let me fill you in a little more about bthe extent of my problem . I called my prescribing doctor the other day and asked for help and I admitted to him my problem and I even asked him if he could prescribe Methadone . So he called me in a prescription of Darvocet N 100 tabs 100 of them . Plus I still have 2 refills of Hydrocodone (Lortabs) 7.5 mg 100 of them also at a different pharmacy from same doctor . i had them filled on the 12 th of sept i called pharmacy today and they refilled them for me this is only the 22nd and they are a 25 day supply . Now I dont understand why the doctor wont help when i came right out and asked but when it is this easy for me to feed my habit why suffer thru the withdrawals ?? I would rather die than go thru withdrawals !! Plus when i have them I feel like I can do anything Conquer the world so to speak !! Pretty bad huh ?? Plus I see another doctor who prescribes me 100 lortab 10/500 mg per month and these doctors both know about each other . I do suffer from migraine headaches !! But Treatment centers are not an option for me for I will lose my job . So I fell stuck in this web of Deceiet . I really dont know what to do even though I am this conscince of my problem I will go in a little while and pick up my script that is waiting for me and I will feel fine for about 5 days thats how long 100 pills will last me UNLESS somehow I can control it and Ween myself a little at a time . Thanks for your help Emily . Gerald

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    Gerald, I am amazed that your doctor did this. That took a lot of courage for you to admit to your [u]doctor</u> that you have a problem. What kind of doctor is he that prescribed the Darvocet? Internal Medicine? Darvocet doesn't even help with headaches - that's amazing. Either your doctor doesn't seem to know what he's doing or he wants to keep you hooked so that you will keep coming back to him.
    I happen to have sat next to a neurologist on a flight about 3 weeks ago and I told him about my Darvocet problem, since I assume that I will never see him again. For headaches & migraines he told me that there are some non-addictive alternatives for migraines. When I did get migraines Imitrex didn't work for me. I deal with bad headaches currently but not migraines. Imitrex works for about 50% of people, though. Esgic use to help me but it is an addictive medication. Have you considered changing doctors? I know that this would be a long process - getting in as a new patient. Also, maybe even if you just told one of these two doctors that you really prefer to see a pain management doctor then they would refer you. And, if you explain your situation to a pain management doctor, and what these two doctors are prescribing for you, then I bet that you could get the help that you need from the pain mngmt. dr. I can bet you that the pain management doctor would think that your other two doctors were clueless and a bit wacked. That took a heck of a lot of courage to tell your doctor that you have a problem. I'm just amazed that he prescribed 100 Darvocet to you and knowing that you also have a large prescription for Lortab! That's crazy of him.
    Also, I know what you are talking about when you refer to feeling like you could 'conquer the world' when you take pain medications. I initially got on them b/c of chronic fatigue immune disfunction syndrome. My achiness all over kept me from doing anything beyond 2:00 p.m. every day. I felt like 'me again' when I started taking Darvocet. It was so nice to be actually getting a few more things done than usual. I am basically a homemaker (and don't do housework) with some projects at home, so it's not like I was running myself down and just calling it 'chronic fatigue'. I'm scared to see what it will be like when I get off of the Methadone. I am a happy person. And I don't want to become depressed again b/c of the chronic achiness and fatigue. I may not even be able to 'conquer walking upstairs' after I stop taking Methadone. I've heard alcoholics refer to taking things one day at a time. This makes sense. Just pray that you can get through that particular day and thank God that He's helped you to do so when you do get through that day. You don't have to be perfect. Just keep trying. Do hang in there. Please try not to think that you would rather die than go through withdrawls again. Think about how you will feel on the other side of things. Maybe, set some realistic longer term goals for yourself that have to do with things that you have interests in. Maybe it's something really simple like studying up on a particular topic of interest. Learning to do something new. Allow your mind to think about how it can be for you. Keep me posted and still feel free to write as you are going through this. Regards,
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    Hello, this is my first post here. Like many of you, I came here seeking information and advice for pain medication addiction. My current problem is hydrocodone [commonly known as Vicodin] I take Norco, which has more hydrocodone and less tylenol so it's a bit stronger than Vicodin Extra Strength tablets. Wow so much I relate to. For one thing I was interested to know about suboxone. If I cant kick my habit on my own I may try suboxone.

    ATTENTION mellenfan ! I will pray for you and I am very interesed in knowing how you are doing? Trust me, I am familiar with your delima and I can relate to your situation.

    A little about me... I am ashamed and embarrased to have to admit, that in my youth I used street drugs. I started at a very early age [15 years old] I experimented with Morphine, liked it, and had a steady soure for years. When that source was removed, I turned to >>>>>> on the streets and lived a reckless dangerous lifestyle. That was a very dark part of my life. However, I DID change eventually and sought help, but I had a few occassions over those years to suffer some extremely painful and miserable withdrawls, usually after being arrested and forced into withdrawls in jail, which as strange at this may sound, was the easiest and most effective way for me back then because there was no way I could cave into the intense cravings and go obtain more drugs, I was locked up with nowhere to go, and believe it or not,. some prisnors are sympathetic to those kicking herion in jail, some have been there themselves before, and know of the humiliation, mess, and pain. I am not saying I recommend that to people seeking a solution for quiting pain meds, but I explain this as a point of reference for my current situation.

    Anyway, long story shorter, in 1986 I stopped using drugs and sought help. It was complicated, like others here I was concerned about losing my job, respect from what few decent friends or family I had, and I could not check into a 30 day detox. So, I found Narcotics Anonymous and it saved my life. I still had to kick herioin without any medical supervission to help with the withdrawls, but I did it and had some people to give me moral support during that difficult time. I have not used illegal drugs since that time and I am now a resposible productive citizen with a family, I attend church, PTA, etc etc.

    My cuuurent delima began 7 years ago when my doctor presribed Vicodin for a back injury. I took them for pain and later realized i was hopelessly addicted, but I still had pain and I still took them. I also did something I should not have, I recruited someone else to emulate symptoms so that I had a secondary source for the pain pills, I was in essance taking twice the presribed amount and sometimes more.

    My wife found out about the abuse and mismanagment of my meds and she almost left me over it. I vowed to stop abusing the directions and at the very least take them only as presribed, which I did a few years ago. I was actually suprized that the discomfort of decreasing the doses were not as uncomfortable as I imagined they would be. I felt it, but I soon settled into my presribed dose quite effortlssly.

    I have since been taking tham as presribed for about 4 years. Because I was once an active member of a support community for people recovering from addiction, I have always felt guilty about taking these. I think I could bare the pain, because I only have back pain peiodically, however the fear of wthdrawls has kept me taking them. I get a 60 day supply each time I visit my doctor. Each visit as I leave the dr. office, I swear to myself that this time I am going to taper off and quit, but somehow I dont stick to my plan, and by the end of my supply I am anxiously awaiting my doctors appt. Sometimes I travel for work and that conflicts with doctors appointments, it's hard to see my doctor or reschedule appointments.,., and I go into a deep fear that I may have to be out of the state with no pills. It's a feeling just like from my old reckless days... the fear of withdrawls.

    To make matters worse, I began drinking alcohol about a year ago and I felt very guilty, I knew I should'nt have been drinking and taking pain meds. I did not want things to et out of hand and I kew my past patterns, so I called an old friend I knew from N.A. and explained my situation. So I stopped drinking and have been going to N.A. meetings again for the last month or so. I expllained to a few people my delima and I get mixed opinions, some people truely need medicine, I am the only person who has to decide if i am abusing my medication, or if I am not, and for me, I think I can do without them, For the last few weeks I have been tapering off, I started taking 25% less each week, this week I am down from original 40 Ml a day to 10 ml a day. I feel the difference, because this past week I am only taking them at night and do without during the day. I feel pain at night, but not too bad, I have been taking med. in early eve and at night, the main reason is that by late afternoon I cant take the withdrawl symptoms anymore and I take the meds to remove the discomfort. Without any meds I cant sleep so I take another hald dose before bedtime. I am hoping that I will have the guts to eventually just not take any. It's a slower process and it's uncomfortable during the day, but I am actually suprized that I am down to a quarter of my usual daily intake and even though I feel some withdrawls, it is nothing like the withdrawls I had to endure back when I was younger.

    My goal is nto be able to endure a whole night without taking any hydrocodone, and I figure that if I can do that, I can last another day, and probably one more after that. At this rate, I figure i can get the worst behind me in 3 days after all this weining off I've been doing. My plan is to stop taking them this coming Friday, which gives me the weekend to suffer at home and hopfully start a new work week without meds. I know I can do it.

    Someone mentioned tha common saying in A.A. of "One day at a time" hey.. sometimes it's one hour at a time, or even one minute at a time. Thats what I have been telling myself when I have the strong desire to take some, I tellmyslef.. "wait at least an hour" and then after that hour, I try to go another hour. I I play mind games with myslef, I hold a psycolological carrot in front me, I tell mysef, If I want to kee[ my family, my job, my cushy life, I can wait another few minutes, or another hour. I also want a Harley Davidson Motorcycle, so I tell myself... once I a off the meds for one month, I can go pick a motorcycle. Now in reality convining my wife of bike is a whole different delima, but it could be a reality in a year, but not if I'm still on pills.

    I'm not trying to be a commercial for N.A. but I must say, there are some very understanding helpful peers there that are very suportive. I have met many housewives and professinals like myself who just like me, goy hookked on Hydrocodone and they understand what I am going through. They dont care about gae, gender, what you have or dont have, they are discreet, they reprt to nobody, there are no fees, it's exactly what I need, a discreet place that can help while I still work and nopbody has to know.

    http://www.na.org/

    sorry for such a long post..

    Thunder

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    Hi, I have a question. My husband is addicted to pain pills and I'm trying to find a clinic in our area that will give him suboxin, can anyone tell me how to go about finding one? I would really appreciate it. Thanks

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