Painkiller Addiction

[Hunterdog]

Day Six!

That's just one day shy of a week. At first I was counting the hours, then the days and tomorrow, I'll be counting the weeks.

What a joy it is going to be to emerse myself in God's word today without that inner shame of knowing that I've got a body full of pills!

The Lord is indeed good.

Have a blessed Sunday everybody.

Hunterdog

[chrish1]

Keep it up Hunterdog. Stay vigilant! It gets better with time. I find myself laughing about little stupid stuff as I get more clean time, and that tells me I am enjoying life more.

NS Clueless - 3 months today?

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[Hunterdog]

Chrish:

6 days and 1 hour and counting.

Thanks for all your encouragement. The toughest aspect of all this for me, after the 1st day of cravings, has been the restless legs at night and absolutely no energy. It seems like a major undertaking just to get out of the chair, let alone walk across the room. Today seems a bit better with respect to the energy, but then again, maybe its just because I had a great day at church.

Last night I simply could not sleep. I finally gave up at 12:30, knowing that I must have been keeping my wife awake. I got up and came into our home office and wrote for a while and did some bible study. It seems odd that in spite of the fact that I didn't sleep at all last night, I couldn't take a nap after church. I tried but just could not sleep. I hope tonight is better. I've begun to wonder if the poor sleep patterns, or no sleep, is contributing to the lack of energy.

I am the luckiest guy in the world. My wife is so supportive and understanding. I guess after 33 years of marriage she feels there is a substantial investment into the marriage and will see it through. I am so lucky to have her.

To all those who lurk, or visit to see what the board is all about, or are really wanting to get clean and end the addiction, my prayers are with you. There are so many on this board who have put that part of their lives behind them. As for me, I'm amazed at my lack of craving but know that it can return at any moment. For now however, I'll take what I can get. The withdrawals have been relatively moderate but not horrible. The catapress is helping in that regard I assume.

Overall, I am extremely pleased with the progress I have enjoyed so far and trust that God will keep me strong this time as I keep my focus on Him.

Best to all. And thanks to everyone.

Hunterdog

[Hunterdog]

Day 7

Ah sleep, wonderful sleep. I managed to get 4 hours last night but my right hip kept me from getting any more than that. Never the less, it was a welcome relief.

A bit more energy today. Stronger and better each day.

Hunterdog

[cluelessNJ]

Hey everyone! Yes I hit the 3 month mark! How exciting is that! Sorry i've been so busy but I will post later!


Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[Hunterdog]

clueless:

Congratulations on the three months! I'm jealous. I know there must have been some really tough days and likewise, some great victories during those 3 months. Good for you in enduring the dark times and looking forward to the god times.

Hunterdog

[chrish1]

NS Clueless - HUGE congrats! I hope that staying busy has curbed your cravings. My major cravings passed several days ago, and now it is business as usual. I took today off, and I am taking off the next 4 Fridays - lots of 3 day weekends. Busy is good, but I was getting burnt out, and it feels SO good to be getting some time off... and my wife has been great about giving me a bunch of time to myself, which I needed. During my time off, I think I have developed a new addiction - these threads on drugs.com. Anyway, congrats, and keep coming back. Oh, and I hope your weather is as nice as it has been out here, 81 degrees. [8D]

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[VTX1300]

Chrish--well, I guess if you have to be addicted to something, these threads are a pretty good fix. LOL Keep inspiring.

Hunterdog--welcome, bro. Congrads on the clean time. Stay vigilant and, like you said, before you know it you'll be counting in months instead of days.

NS Clueless-- AWESOME, 3 months. Keep up the great work.

Sorry, I haven't been posting much. I've been busy house shopping. Seems the family is exponentially out growing the current house. I've, actually, found a house that would be really nice. However, there will have to be alot of things fall into place for it to happen. I figure, if the Man thinks this is supposed to happen, it will. But, it's gonna take His intervention. I've been praying about it.

BLessings,
X

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VTX1300 ** Clean date 1/3/2006**

WHO'S NEXT????

DON'T USE, NO MATTER WHAT

Say a prayer for the addict who will use tonight, and for the addict who will use for the last time tonight

*NA RECOVERY LITERATURE**

http://www.na.org/ips/eng/index.htm

***HOW TO FIND LOCAL NA MEETINGS****

http://www.na.org/links-toc.htm


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[Hunterdog]

Daily Update:

Day Eight................... better known as a week and a day!

WooHoo. Got 7 hours of sleep last night even though my right hip hurt like crazy. Lots more energy today. Not sure if it is a result of the sleep or just getting cleaner and cleaner al the time. I am sooooooooooooo thankful that I haven't had any cravings after the 1st day. Sure hope it stays that way.

Congrats to everyone who is clean................. even if today is the 1st day, ESPECIALLY if today is the 1st day!

Hunterdog

[dizzy23]

Hunterdog,
So glad you are feeling better....keep up the good work!!!

Debbie

Try to be correct!But not always successful!

Taken it a day at a time.

[Hunterdog]

dizzy/deb:

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I am feeling a bit better each day. Still on the Carapress patch but that will end this coming weekend. I even managed to sleep all night last night. That hasn't happened in a long, long time.............even with the Hydro's in my system.

Thanks again.

Hunterdog

[Hunterdog]

Oh, yah, I forgot.

Day nine and counting.

Hunterdog

[dizzy23]

quote:Originally posted by Hunterdog

Oh, yah, I forgot.

Day nine and counting.

Hunterdog

Way to go!!!

What is Carapress patch?I have not heard of them. [?]

Debbie

Try to be correct!But not always successful!

Taken it a day at a time.

[Hunterdog]

dizzy/deb:

Catapress patch is a transdermal patch which contains clonodine. It is most usually used to control blood pressure but doctors have found it very useful for treating various kinds of withdrawals. Certainly not as powerful as Suboxane but really helpful none-the-less.

Biggest draw back is that it gives me cotton-mouth like crazy. Have to drink lots and lots of water.

No addictive characteristics that I know of like when on suboxane.


Hunterdog

[MyMindsTaken]

Hi everyone.

This is my first time doing this. I do take painkillers, yet none of them are prescribed to me. At somepoint i was prescribed some things. I now i am addicted, but i havnt been able to except it. I hope that some of you can give me some words of kindness.
I will be as honest as i can. I dont have anyone to talk to about whats going on in my life or how i truly feel. i hope that some of you can relate to what i am going through and tell me about you.
I will tell a little about myslef. I am a female, 20 yrs, old. I have mild scoliosis, a bulging disk in my lower back, my Lumbar 4 and 5 are perfect and i have been diagniosed by fibromyalgia. doctors dont do anything for me, maybe b/c they think i am to young. throught the past few years i have been given painkillers, but for other things. i am not given painkillers for fibromyalgia. i was just given Ultram but my Doc. said this is the only time. she told me its given to people with fibro.
So, the painkillers i take i buy.
I deal with depression, i take 75mg of wellbutrin and 60mg of Cymbalta. It takes me forever to get to sleep, and its so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.

Thank you for reading

[cluelessNJ]

Mymindstaken~~ Welcome! I wish I could type the words to help you right now but I feel you put me in a place where I can't find the words to help you! I can give you some positive encouragement to tell you,I have been clean for a little over three months. I took alot of pain killers (mostly oxy's) and kicked it! It can be done! It scares me that you are so young and going thru all this but at the same time you are young so your body SHOULD kick it sooner then someone that has been addicted for 8-10 years (and older) it probally doesn't make you feel better right this second but, it will help with your withdrawl. I was using for WAY TO LONG (and I was only 27 when I realized enough was enough). It wasn't easy but I know it was easier then if I waited until I was addicted for 10 years or 20 years. Quit now while you can. While we can help you! This is a great site and it has really helped me stay clean to this day! There are alot of great people that post here that have knowledgeable information to move you in the right direction. Please keep posting and let us know how you are. You know the decisions you make on a daily basis...........Just make the right decisions. They might hurt you for a week but really what is a week? I honestly believe a week is worth your sobriety! I'll be thinking of you!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

Well, here it goes:

I came home from work today and my wife, kids, and the dog were gone. I figured they were at her parents, so I didn't pay much attention. Well, I came home from an NA meeting that I was chairing, and a young guy came out of his truck to give me something. He dropped the paperwork into my hands, and as I walked back into the garage I saw that it was divorce papers.

I am totally blindsided, and this just happened about 2 hours ago. My wife, kids, and dog are all gone. The paperwork says they are at her parents "for a few days." I had absolutely no idea this was in the works until I had the paperwork in my hands. I have been doing my best to work a program of recovery, and I am now 6 1/2 months clean. I have also been doing the best in our relationship and with my kids.

Anyway, my plans have changed for the rest of the week, and I will have to find an attorney and start thinking about custody...etc - things I never thought of before. I can't believe it. The only thing I can think is that she has a lot of resentments because I have been a model husband and father for the last 6 months. I'm sorry to dump this on here, but I had to share since this board has been such a big part of my recovery. It is more important than ever for me to stay clean now since it could effect the custody of my children, and they can test my hair for drugs, which stays there for a long time.

Thank you to everybody on this board who has been so supportive of me over the last 6 months.

Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[Tommysnook]

Can anyone her tell me how long after stopping Suboxone can a person take a Norco or Perc and feel the Euphoria feeling that is normally blocked by Suboxone?

Thanks in advance for your feedback!

[cluelessNJ]

Chrish~ I'm here for you! If you need to talk just send me an email! I have free long distance, i'll call you! I wanna say i'm sorry but I know how much I hated hearing that! I'll be thinking of you!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

Hi NS Clueless. Your email address isn't listed on here. However, mine is if you want to email me. I really need someone to talk to....
Chrish

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[cluelessNJ]

Chrish~~I sent you an email already. Did you get it?

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

NS Clueless, I don't see it yet.
Chrish

quote:Originally posted by cluelessNJ

Chrish~~I sent you an email already. Did you get it?

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[chrish1]

Nope, don't see them yet. I did a test and emailed myself, and it showed up in my bulk items. Yeah, probably the profile.

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[cluelessNJ]

I sent 2. You still don't see them? I'm gonna change my profile on here! Give me a second!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

I changed mine! I can now get mail! Check what e-mail you have on this site! When I checked the profile I have an email I don't even check anymore! Do you have an old email up there?

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[chrish1]

I checked it, and I have a current email. I emailed you a minute ago. Maybe you should try emailing me one more time now that you made changes.

Clean Date: 10/11/05

--There is light at the end of the tunnel--

[cluelessNJ]

I sent it!

Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[cluelessNJ]

Chrish~ Your not checking your email....... If you need to talk call me. I left my number on the last email I sent you! I won't mind, you can call me anytime! Seriously, if you need to just vent or talk let me know! You have helped me more than you know! Let me return the favor. I will always be here if you need me! Thank you again for being such a positive force in my recovery!


Not so clueless,

CLEAN DATE 1/23/06

[VTX1300]

quote:Originally posted by MyMindsTaken

Hi everyone.

This is my first time doing this. I do take painkillers, yet none of them are prescribed to me. At somepoint i was prescribed some things. I now i am addicted, but i havnt been able to except it. I hope that some of you can give me some words of kindness.
I will be as honest as i can. I dont have anyone to talk to about whats going on in my life or how i truly feel. i hope that some of you can relate to what i am going through and tell me about you.
I will tell a little about myslef. I am a female, 20 yrs, old. I have mild scoliosis, a bulging disk in my lower back, my Lumbar 4 and 5 are perfect and i have been diagniosed by fibromyalgia. doctors dont do anything for me, maybe b/c they think i am to young. throught the past few years i have been given painkillers, but for other things. i am not given painkillers for fibromyalgia. i was just given Ultram but my Doc. said this is the only time. she told me its given to people with fibro.
So, the painkillers i take i buy.
I deal with depression, i take 75mg of wellbutrin and 60mg of Cymbalta. It takes me forever to get to sleep, and its so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.

Thank you for reading

Mymind....

Welcome to the board. Keep reading, and sharing now that you've made the first post. It will help us, and it will help you.

"The truth shall set you free."
IMHO, this is a great quote and very applicable to addiction. The more truthful you are with those around you and most especially yourself, the better you will be. I'm gonna go out on a limb and say that, It doesn't matter what you have done, been doing, or are doing that one or all of us haven't already done. So, don't be nervous about sharing. You see one of the problems we have as addicts is we have learned to live in our own lie. One of the greatest steps forward, we can take, is by being honest. So open up, and be honest with us.

The problem you bring up about "not being able to accept you are an addict" is a thing that I believe most of us have struggled with. So you are not alone in this. But I can tell you that the sooner you accept what you are, the sooner you can start making steps towards moving to recovery.

The problem of "not having anyone to talk to" had been a problem for me as well. When you say this, does this mean the there actually is no one who is in your life, or do you mean that there is no one who would/could understand?? If it is the 2nd scenario, I want to tell you that it is AMAZING how many people there are out there to share with. IMHO, the problem is not in them, but it is in the addict. We, as addicts, ASSUME that there is noone who could possible understand what we are going thru, or why we do what we do. But there are people who can do this. I would encourage you to start doing this with this board, and then you should be able to open up with others. Hopefully.

Just as kind of a summation statement. We are not going to judge anyone here. We are all a bunch of addicts trying to help ourselves and help others. We are all in various stages of addiction from active addiction to recovery. to relapsed, to whatever. But we all have one common desire to get clean, stay clean, and help others get clean. I hope this has given you some inspiration to continue to come back and share with us. I feel like I'm aimlessly rambling here, so I hope something here is helpful to you. We are a bunch of addicts who are trying to learn how to live life on life's terms without the use of mind altering substances. Again, welcome to the board and keep coming back.

Blessings,
X


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VTX1300 ** Clean date 1/3/2006**

WHO'S NEXT????

DON'T USE, NO MATTER WHAT

Say a prayer for the addict who will use tonight, and for the addict who will use for the last time tonight

*NA RECOVERY LITERATURE**

http://www.na.org/ips/eng/index.htm

***HOW TO FIND LOCAL NA MEETINGS****

http://www.na.org/links-toc.htm


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[MyMindsTaken]

Im sorry to hear chris... did you addiction have anything to do with it? Just wondering, how old are your children? My parenst divorced when i was young, it affected my brother alot worse than it did me.
Good luck with everything